The dead were not sleeping, but fiending

18+ NSFW - Straight - Male

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Any women in South Carolina trying to find a real man to party with? Hit me up! 😉

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Again, yea x

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Hmmm🤤

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RE-BLOGGED RE-BLOGGED RE-FUCKING-BLOGGED!

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First time I've written down the truth of what I have lived with for a very long time.

A nameless evil, believed to be saturated with extreme misery, overrun with hate, reveling in blood plasma and platelets of fresh blood obtained through unimaginable act of violences, on me by it, on others by me. On me to appease it temporarily.

I was hitting 10 when I became aware that there seemed to be 'something' dark within.

It does multiple activities inside me. None positive .

I'm confident there will be many groups and demographics of people may well be particularly concerned about my thinking like that this with the concept... is... Its feeding on what most people would consider the soul.

Now, it's not like food to you and me, it's not a meal in the traditional sense.

IF the soul is that which theologians suggest, (the pure, core and spiritual aspect of our being and possibly the energy unit that is gifted with transcendentalism).

It is essential to NEVER search for, or choose a name or title of any form of moniker for ANY reason, to label the entity within. no matter how 'good' your intention may be. The entity will result with due to the naming of the organism become a powerfully Dominant force, in the controlling and manipulation of your actions, whilst perfectly hidden away under your flesh.

Long, non-homosapiens length fingertips equipped with animalistic style claws, expertly dance over your neurons with the aim of reprogramming moods, fears, lust - merely corrupt your previous 'innocent' desires, re-write your choices and those whispered by the non-human creature beneath your skin directly into your conscienceness."

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Inverted cross

The devil makes work for idle hands and mine are particularly idle.

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By default most dog owners assume that the canine is physically Dominant and superior to the feline, but in many cases (no idea as to proportion) cats can often defend themselves to such a degree that the dog gets second thoughts!

Many people would be surprised at the strength of the smaller animal as well as the full potential of its claws to severely lacerate flesh at full intent.

On a tangent, many men assume similar of women, as the generalisation supports that physiologically. However from training both sexes in exercise and strength performance, women - in general - are considerably stronger and more so than even they thought (after of enduring a lifetime of institutionalised sexism), PARTICULARLY in the lower body.

Another widely held belief is that all else being equal, a larger person with more muscle mass will be stronger than a slimmer person. Strength falls into two initial categories, absolute and relative. Absolute being the amount of weight lifted in total, relative being the amount of weight lifted in relation to the individuals body mass. In many cases the slimmer individual (with all else being equal) will have greater relative strength.

Additionally there is the factor of neural strength, so that relates to the ability of an individual to access and utilise/activate the motor units (nerves innervating bundles of myofibrils [muscle cells]). If two people have identical muscle mass, one may be capable of 'activating' his or her neural (nerve) muscle response and therefore activate say, 90% of the required muscle cells compared to 70% of their competitor.

This is the physiological reason that untrained individuals can on occasion lift large objects to rescue others; motivation. And why you see powerlifters psych themselves up before a lift.

This is often referred to as 'heart' or 'fire' in standard vernacular. If one individual has more heart and desire to act over another, they will be capable of activating more motor units and with greater affinity.

SO - smaller doesn't always mean weaker!

Yes, I'm a cat owner! 😜 😹

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Except human energy consumption modulated by ones metabolism is DYNAMIC.

I'll give you a few examples:

If you engage in a bout of resistance exercise, you will use energy ('burn' kilocalories) at a (tapering down) higher rate for an extended duration post workout - more so than with cardiovascular exercise or BMR non activity.

If you eat a meal, any size, your metabolism will increase and you will burn calories at an increased rate for a period.

If you do not eat, say, conduct a starvation diet or engage in excessive, unhealthy and uneducated forms of 'fasting', your metabolism will slow, and anything you eat will have a greater chance of being stored as adipose tissue (in effect, to provide energy stores for your next period of starvation)

Furthermore there's the subject of body composition. i.e. how much muscle, bone, water, fat and other tissues you have. Different macronutrient ratios and patterns of consumption affect the types of tissue you anabolise.

It's tempting to create a simple stripped down understanding of diet and nutrition, however it IS a complex and advanced subject and simplification is often; definitely, in the aforementioned case, reductionism and therefore makes the advice essentially incorrect.

[leveluponabuck]

You got this!

- Get that certification, start and finish that degree, level up that career!

- Start that business, start that blog, sell that idea!

- Do that face mask, join that gym, meditate and do those daily positive affirmations!

- Buy that house, sign that luxury apartment lease, move to that safer area.

- Save that emergency fun, invest, set up that IRA 

Put yourself first unapologetically!

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Murder that enemy

Start that affair

Spit in their face

Cum on your mother in law

Chok your sub to unconsciousness as her pussy dilates when she is cumming and make her wake up with a cock in her ass

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I'm a highly militant atheistic gent so whilst I can't refute the (historically supported) existence of Jesus (Christ) - a main figure in the origination of the Christianity groupings of organized religion - I wholeheartedly and full-throatedly must argue against the, as yet still wholly unsupported, claims of 'miracles on earth' and 'acts of God' - such as the resurrection, or walking on water.

As if an omnipotent, omnipresent 9D+ dimensional entity capable of creation of universes, time manipulation, existence and observation and manipulation within and without higher spatial dimensions - fundamentally inconceivable to humans borne within 4D, would micromanage on an individualized organismal level. It's akin to creating a Petri dish colony of methicillin resistant staphylococcus aureus (MRSA) then manipulating each bacterium one by one and logging deeds considered sinful or sacred by an anthropologically conceived (then claimed as communicated from God through one human vessel or another - ok - because you 'said' so?!) and highly generalized and ironically unchristian in spirit, discretionary set of "commandments" and rules.

Furthermore does the rule of religion, sin, good and evil, faith and non, affect all of the organisms atop and within earth? Leeches? Amoebae? Daffodils? Yeast? And what of viruses, biological machines with no apparent 'spark of life' but an automated RNA translating mechanism through a pseudo-parasitic mode of action by hijacking and manipulating the central dogma: DNA->RNA->Protein.

What of other organisms at other galactic and universal locales? What of the absolute absence of supporting evidence bar a book of fables copied and recopied millions of times by hand, translated and retranslated hundreds of thousands more, and edited and versioned countless additional times? What of the total lack of a single empirically proven example of a soul, afterlife, spirits, and an unimaginable bevvy of data describing the biological description of what gives cells energy fuelling life; bioenergetics. Of signal transduction pathway messaging, genomics, epigenetics and phenotypic expression. What of chemistry; organic chemistry, physical chemistry and inorganic chemistry? Physics; Classic, Electromagnetic, Thermodynamic, Quantum and Relative physics, Biology; Taxonomic, anatomic, Morphologic, cytologic, histologic, molecular, cellular, embryological, physiological, genetic, ecological, evolutionary, eugenic, exobiologic, paleontologic, virologic, immunologic, marine, photobiologic, mycologic, parasitologic, biophysical, biochemical, biotechnological, structural, radiological and theoretical biologies. Yes I had to check those.

Rant over.

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Bipolar. BPD. Hardcore Addict. Middle aged. Overweight. High BP. Unfit. Balding. Fatherless. Unsociable. Anxious. Paranoid. Psychotic. Maniacal. Hypersexual. Depressed. Suicidal in ideation and action. Self harmer.

Unfit to exist really tbh.

Pleased to meet you... 🖤

[burnt-out-angel]

What addicts want normal people and those who love us to know

1. We are not stupid, we’re well aware of the damage. We know that what we are doing is killing us. We know that we are hurting people. We are aware of how society sees us. We know.

2. ADDICTION IS NOT ENJOYABLE. We are not “partying” or having a good time. The party ended a long time ago. We’re fucking miserable. Many of these drugs were never party drugs to begin with. It might seem fun and exciting the first week or month, but it quickly becomes a chore.

3. We don’t keep using just because we want to get high all the time. We use to not get sick and just to function normally in our daily lives. After awhile, we’re not thinking “how am I going to get high today?” We’re thinking “how will I be able to get to work today?” And then the reason we relapse is because we can’t remember surviving without it.

4. We have massive amounts of guilt, shame, and low self-esteem. We don’t need to be called “pieces of shit” and “scum junkies” because we already feel that way about ourselves every day!! The disease tells us not to care when we lie to and steal from friends and family. The disease makes us selfish. But we are human and we feel terrible about it. We aren’t psychopaths and are more than capable of feeling remorse. The more selfish acts we engage in, the worse we feel about ourselves. But we compulsively keep dragging ourselves through dirt.

5. It has absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone else. You didn’t cause it, you can’t control it, and you can’t cure it. It is no one’s fault and you did not fail as a sister/brother/mother/father/aunt/grandpa/best friend. When we lie to or steal from you or choose drugs over you, it is nothing personal. It does not mean we don’t still love you. When the disease takes over, it doesn’t necessarily want to hurt you. It just assigns everyone the same value so they are neutral/irrelevant. Someone in active addiction is stuck in a completely internal thought process that completely blocks out the existence of other people.

6. The drug is stronger than love and values like family and friendship and that’s why we’ve chosen it over you. That is the unfortunate truth. That’s why we find a higher power in recovery, because no human power or emotion can fight off the drug on its own.

7. While addiction makes us choose the drug, we NEVER chose the addiction over you. Addiction is miserable and we don’t want it. The addiction chose us.

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