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This is where my insides come out...

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Friends.

Oh love, Maybe all we'll ever be Are childhood friends Who wrestled in the dark and Held our breaths...

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Eyes.

I’m so lost without you I don’t know which is east and which is west I left my compass in the heart within your chest....

Come back to me; But it was I who left you... It was I who left you...

We came unglued and I gave it all up  For that boy with the cheap lies and the False hope, Those starry eyes His house felt like home But oh I could not have been so wrong Misguided as the stars I tried to find Waiting for them all to align To show me the way but they led me astray I let go of that compass when the magnets  Lost attraction, the spiralling and the spinning and I got lost within it, I became so lost within Myself. I wish I could say I was the better man. But now there’s nothing that will make up for my actions, this can’t Be righted when I’ve gone so far, I’ve gone so wrong.

Inside this other home With no safe place to go It is me who is alone I’ve wandered off the path so far I don’t know how to find my way Back inside your arms Inside your heart Inside your eyes Yes; Your eyes. Not the other ones.. No, not the other ones... Please I ask you, universe Repair this compass inside that’s been gone for so long Help me follow it with my mind and not my heart and not my eyes

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Oldnewz.

I miss you Old news I can't bring it up anymore We're too far gone There's no use whining I've made my choice I've got to move on...

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Misdirection.

You taught me well I fell Right into your arms Into your bed Into your home Glamourized this life And made it my mine Made your house my own I sure know how to break a home. - You taught me well How not to care How to confuse these directions and Misuse this compass Black is white and white is black You taught me well and I can't go back. - When I cared For just one thing Life was so much Simpler then I loved one man The light was fading Almost out But I didn't know I could lose hope. - You taught me well I will not care I will not feel I dug this grave So here I kneel

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Oh, what.

What do I do to shake this off?

What do I do to shake this off me?

To run away

From all responsibility.

I’ve tried so hard.

I’ve tried so long.

Oh, what to do.

I am with him but want to be 

With you.

It’s been a year

Or two.

I ask the universe

But I never hear a clear answer

Oh, what to do.

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All the same.

I am a woman.

But still a child.

All the same.

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i miss you still.

I miss sleeping beside you in your bed.

You.

With you.

I miss you. 

Yes you.

Still.

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Nine Crimes...

Leave me out with the waste This is not what I do It's the wrong kind of place To be thinking of you It's the wrong time For somebody new It's a small crime And I've got no excuse Is that alright? Give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright? If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it Is that alright? Give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright With you? Leave me out with the waste This is not what I do It's the wrong kind of place To be cheating on you It's the wrong time She's pulling me through It's a small crime And I've got no excuse Is that alright? I give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright? If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it Is that alright? I give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright Is that alright with you? Is that alright? I give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright? If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it Is that alright? If I give my gun away when it's loaded Is that alright Is that alright with you? Is that alright? Is that alright? Is that alright with you? Is that alright? Is that alright? Is that alright with you? No...

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I am drinking wine. I think I’m drunk. It’s 11:15 am.

I thought it would be applause worthy If I waited until 11 to start drinking.... But I shouldn’t think much anymore.... Clearly it gets me nowhere. I am drinking right now. Because I miss you. Because I don't even know who you are. What we had wasn’t real. I hoped it would turn into something. I hoped there was something there. But I was hoping on nothing but empty air. How can you breathe if you don’t get what you need? We need different things but it doesn’t just stop there.... I’m drinking right now. Because I don’t know what to do Where to go, who to be, what to choose... There’s a man in my house. He’s been there a few years. I just don’t know what to do The thing is,  No one really cares... Make up your mind. Though not easy to do. I’ll just sit here and drink wine Do yoga and unwind and unhinge and un-YOU.

How did I get here? Was everything fine? Or you were the very thing that unravelled me when I was  Just falling a little behind? Falling apart. This very thing I thought would grow stronger. Has lost all meaning Has lost all heart...

And where does this leave me? With my heart on the floor. Is it even still beating? Some wine. Some confusion. Am I even still breathing? A yoga mat. Some candles. Alone. In the dark.

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Before.

Can I come over? Can we lie on the floor together? Can it be like it was before?

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Honesty.

I try to sleep But I can't close my eyes. I miss so many things. I miss your heart. I miss being with you in the dark. I miss your songs. I miss your voice. I miss the way you held me. I miss those arms. I miss your strong body. I miss your eyes. I miss your fingers intertwined with mine. I miss your cuddles. I miss your smile. I miss your honesty. But you were never honest with me...

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I miss you.

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Life.Goes.On.

I miss you but -

The world keeps turning round...

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Home. xx

I miss your house. It felt like home. <3

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My My. Oh give me love.

Give me love like her, 'Cause lately I've been waking up alone, Paint splattered teardrops on my shirt, Told you I'd let them go, And that I'll fight my corner, Maybe tonight I'll call ya, After my blood turns into alcohol, No, I just wanna hold ya. Give a little time to me or burn this out, We'll play hide and seek to turn this around, All I want is the taste that your lips allow, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, My, my, my, my, give me love, Give me love like never before, 'Cause lately I've been craving more, And it's been a while but I still feel the same, Maybe I should let you go, You know I'll fight my corner, And that tonight I'll call ya, After my blood is drowning in alcohol, No, I just wanna hold ya. Give a little time to me or burn this out, We'll play hide and seek to turn this around, All I want is the taste that your lips allow, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, Give a little time to me or burn this out, We'll play hide and seek to turn this around, All I want is the taste that your lips allow,

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Like you wanna be loved.

Settle down with me Cover me up Cuddle me in - Lie down with me And hold me in your arms - And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now - Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love - Settle down with me And I'll be your safety You'll be my lady - I was made to keep your body warm But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms - Oh no My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now - Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love - Yeah I've been feeling everything From hate to love From love to lust From lust to truth I guess that's how I know you So I hold you close to help you give it up - So kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love - Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love

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Don’t waste your time on me.

Hello there, The angel from my nightmare, The shadow in the background of the morgue. The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley. We can live like Jack and Sally If we want. - Where you can always find me And we'll have Halloween on Christmas. And in the night we'll wish this never ends, We'll wish this never ends. (I miss you, miss you) (I miss you, miss you) - Where are you? And I'm so sorry. I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time. - And as I stared I counted The webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides. - Like indecision to call you And hear your voice of treason. Will you come home and stop this pain tonight? Stop this pain tonight. - Don't waste your time on me. You're already the voice inside my head. (I miss you, miss you) Don't waste your time on me. You're already the voice inside my head. (I miss you, miss you)