[omegatartt]

Jamie is very upset by the comments about his hair online and starts feeling a little self conscious about his style. Not hugely so, it's not like he's crying and screaming and hates himself, he just sometimes feels like he's overdressed or the blond doesn't suit his face or his highlights are too thick or whatever. Like, normal thoughts everyone has.

However feeling insecure about his appearance in any capacity is completely foreign to Jamie, and so he thinks he's having delusions or is possibly like, possessed by a demon. He tries to talk to Roy about it. "This is going to sound completely mad but do you ever feel......nervous? about the way you look? Like you feel like people are looking at you but not in a good way? Like... I don't know how to explain it I don't know it's so fucking weird it's like I'm thinking about how I look.....but in a BAD way. am I cooked"

and Roy is like Did they just grow you in a lab to play football

[thoughtful-dragon]

it's actually insane how well putting something on a list works to make me do it. i'll be procrastinating something for days and then if i write it on a list it's done in the next five minutes because i. must. tick. off. the. list.

[chthonic-isabelleadjani-deactiv]

The idea of english as a mother tongue is so strange to me, in my head english is how ppl communicate when there's no way in common to communicate, so english as a mother tongue sounds a bit like idk email as a mother tongue ykwim? Like english to me feels like the stuff that's used to fill the empty spaces between languages

[carnivorine]

Ok English is my native language and unfortunatly the only one I know yet, but this reminds me so much of that passage in Flights by Olga Tokarczuk

[walnutmistjamie]

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[nativestarwrites]

@thirteenemeraldcats great tags and YES! He's so sure he has to be accountable and that it has to be his fault. I feel like Jamie always thinks he's having to prove that he's good now, that he's a good team mate, a good friend or he'll lose it all. He never managed to switch that off, even after the team had accepted him back.

[pghumfort]

This! But also we, the audience, know that Keeley thinks highly of him, because we have eyes and also she explicitly tells Shandy. But while they’re friendly and professional at work, he doesn’t know that Keeley has seen all that work he put in. And it makes the hug extra special, because he gets to feel it, and he is so relieved!

[flopstat]

remembered how jamie being brought to sharon’s office was treated as a joke / comedic moment. idk. i think we should’ve seen it as a more important scene that wasn’t treated lightly considering how,,,, very evidentially mentally ill and traumatized he is

[fanficfanattic]

You are NOT overthinking it. Because it truly haunts some of us. I love Keeley. And I love Jamie x Keeley. I love jeeley.

But! I think she has run hot and cold with him. Which isn’t a diss. You are allowed to have complicated feelings about your ex who became kind of a friend who ghosted you before reappearing suddenly to ask advice.

But when he did appear, she was happy to have him back in her life. He said he always thinks of her when he thinks of having talks. And she appreciated that she’d helped him make that change.

Which is why this scene hits a little funny. Because obviously she can’t talk whenever he wants. And player hours are different hours than everyone else’s hours. So a firm boundary is fine to set. It would be good to set.

But she doesn’t do that. She walks him to Sharon and says this is a person who is paid to listen to him talk about his problems. Cause she isn’t paid to do that.

But when you have someone as obviously neurodivergent as Jamie is? That is sending a way different message. He takes things so very literally. And someone who is ostensibly his friend doesn’t say that there is a time or a place.

No, she says that his complaints should only be addressed by someone paid to do so.

And I could be way offbase here. I’m not gonna watch 1.5 seasons to confirm. So please let me know if I’m wrong!

But the next actually meaningful interaction the two have is him saying he loves her and then apologizing for telling her. (“Do you know what you’re sorry for Jamie?”)

The next actually meaningful conversation is his apology about the leak. (“Do you know what you’re sorry for Jamie?”)

And after that? Keeley does as Roy asks and tries to unfuck Jamie’s brain. But she doesn’t ask what’s wrong. And he has learned his lesson about talking to her about his issues. So it goes very off the rails.

The only other times we see him actually addressing issues he has is A) with the coaches about Zava (and they are paid to listen to player concerns); & B) with Roy about Zava (who is, again, a coach so is technically someone paid to talk with Jamie about his playing issues.)

Ted asks what’s wrong when Jamie is visibly freaking out mid-game. And he gets half answers. But it’s still about his game play.

He learns, over and over, that the only thing about him that matters is what he can give to the club. It’s reinforced again and again. Is everyone as haunted as me by “I know you have me best interests at heart. Or the club’s anyway”?

Cause to him they are one and the same. Ted said he had to be a team player so he full on embraced that with his whole being. Which is why he addressed the Zava issue. Which is part of why he took on extra, unpaid training time, to improve his own play.

Not to say he doesn’t have pride and arrogance or a self-involved perspective. But that isn’t all he has. And that comes down to him putting in the work in therapy. So Dr. Sharon isn’t a joke for him. She was a life-raft. A guide. Someone who helped him navigate a time that was hard and confusing. It would be for anyone. But it was especially hard for our little neurodivergent bean.

But, yeah, she was paid to listen to his problems.

[fandom-march-madness]

Choose Your Favorite (round two):

The Doctor

Jamie Tartt

Voting ended onApr 13, 2024

[knitmeapony]

[royal-abbotts]

Jamie Tartt + moments/looks that made me fall more in love w/ him

bonus:

[portraitofadumbassonfire]

Me being happy that one of the firefighters on the firefighter show is finally canonically Bi despite never watching a single episode:

[helenvaughans]

[thoughtful-dragon]

Ted Lasso 3x05 fic

I wrote this a while after 3x05 because of things that were not addressed in the episode and it has now been jossed by canon, but I still quite like it so am posting it on here.

Takes place before the City match and before they've found out that Zava has left.

"Oi."

Jamie turns and sees Roy. He finishes filling up his water bottle and turns to head towards him.

"You all right?"

Jamie makes a face. "'course I'm all right. I'm better than all right, I'm-"

"Yeah, yeah." Roy sighs. "I meant-" he starts. "About City, you know."

"Yeah, well they're a good side. But so are we. We'll be fine."

Potentially, Roy thinks they could use some of Jamie's confidence among the coaching staff. But that's not what he's talking about and he's pretty sure that Jamie knows what he's talking about but is going to make him fucking say it before they can acknowledge the spectre of James Fucking Tartt and the aftermath of the last match against City.

"I meant- do you know-" Roy lets out a long breath. "Is your dad about for the match?"

Jamie shifts and looks at the water bottle he's holding, popping the top up and back. "Richmond's banned him from the stadium," he says.

Roy knows that because he'd been in the meeting with Rebecca, Higgins and Ted after Wembley where they'd worked out how to do it. He knows they're hoping to get city to agree to do the same at their stadium but apparently it's fucking complicated. Roy had offered to uncomplicate it for them but both Rebecca and Ted seemed to think Higgins would be best on negotiations.

That's actually sort of what Roy was worried about.

"Yeah, but is he-"

"He's not comin' down anyway. All that fuckin'- anyway, he's got to work. He's pissed off about it but he's on his final warning so-"

"How d'you know all that?" Roy says. "Thought you'd blocked his number."

Roy doesn't mean this to sound as accusatory as it does but it's out now so what are you going to do?

"I did." Jamie says. "Then it- I didn't know whether he was going to show up or what so-"

"Has he shown up?"

Jamie shrugs. "Only twice since Wembley. To me house anyway."

Roy frowns. "What? What happened?"

Jamie looks away. "Nothing. First time, he banged on the door and yelled stuff and I ignored him until he went away. Second time I called the police to get rid of 'im."

That doesn't sound like nothing to Roy. When had this even happened? What had Jamie done? Just had that happen overnight then come into training the next fucking day?

Or maybe, Roy thinks with a sinking feeling, he'd been woken by Roy knocking on his door for training.

Fuck.

"If that happens again," Roy says. "Ring me."

"What?" Jamie says. "Why?"

Roy rolls his eyes. "Ring the police as well, but don't-" he hesitates. "Just ring me, OK."

"Er," Jamie says. "What are you going to do?"

Roy frowns, because there are a few things he wants to do to James Tartt. Some do involve beating him with a rope, but he's not locked into that. He's got other ideas. He shrugs.

"OK," says Jamie. "I'll ring you if he shows up." Then Jamie pats his arm and steps around him and Roy only realises as he steps away that he has been patronised - and quite possibly lied to.

Fucking prick.

Still. He thinks. Jamie does seem lighter about this match than the last one. Frankly, even with all the Zava shit, Jamie's seemed brighter and happier all season. Fucking annoying really. But, Roy supposes, it must mean his dad's not around so much, and not in his head either. So that's good.

Roy will put up with this bouncy, happy Jamie - even at 4 fucking am - if it means… he's actually happy, he supposes.

[thoughtful-dragon]

Ted Lasso - Jamie&Nate apology fic

Just clearing out some of my short fics that stand alone - this is set during 3x12.

"Hey, Nate?"

Nate turns to look down the corridor and is… not even shocked at this point to see Jamie coming towards him. Since Will, Colin and Isaac had turned up at the Taste of Athens there's been a plethora of strange and wonderful interactions with AFC Richmond. It seems only right, really.

It's just been announced that Nate's coming back to Richmond and Nate had been warmed by the way he'd been received in the dressing room. It was like he'd never left, really. Except, of course, in all the ways it was completely different.

Jamie jogs up next to him even though Nate's come to a complete stop.

"Er, hi, Jamie," Nate says. "Did you need-?"

"How come you ain't being a coach?"

"Oh," Nate's taken aback. "We just thought it'd be easier for the last bit of the season."

Jamie frowns. "Right," he says slowly. "And you're good with that, yeah?"

"Yeah," Nate says. It has been a bit strange, but then he thinks it'll be nice in a way. And he's still not quite sure whether… Well.

Jamie shrugs. "OK," he says. "Seems… Anyway, I actually wanted to apologise." Before Nate can say anything, he goes on, "For how I was with you the first season I were here. I was a prick and-" he stumbles a little over the next bit. "-a bully and I didn't really, like, consider people. I'm sorry and I'm trying to be better now so I wanted to… you know, let you know that."

"I- thank you, Jamie," Nate says. "I… I know that."

Jamie pulls down the brim of his cap. "Cool, cool, man. I just wanted to make sure, like, 'cause… Yeah, we're happy to have you back and all. So, does that mean you won't like be back coaching next season?"

"I… don't really know, yet." Nate says.

"Right," Jamie frowns again. A former Nate would probably be wondering whether he was confused about the colour of the walls or something, but he's trying not to judge people quite as much. "Anyway, glad you're good man. I've got to get to the physios, check me ankle out."

"Oh," Nate says. "How's it looking for the match?"

"Yeah," Jamie says. "They reckon it'll be fine."

"Good," Nate says, because he was trying to rework the match strategy without Jamie and well. It would certainly be challenging at this point in the season, the way Richmond were playing. "Good, be careful with it."

Jamie grins. "Will do, coach."

Nate narrows his eyes at him, but relents. "Saw the Man City match," Nate says. "The goals were impressive."

"Oh," Jamie looks down, a little bashful. "Thanks, thanks, man. Colin scored the first one."

"Yeah," Nate says. "But you made the play."

It's only the truth, so he thinks the way Jamie's head shoots up in surprise is a bit much. He grins and doesn't say anything.

Nate rolls his eyes. "Go and get get your ankle checked."

"Yes, coach," Jamie says, grinning and then ducks into the treatment room.

[contingencyprotocol]

One thing I am glad about with Jamie’s arc with Sam is that Sam does not have the context of Jamie’s father until months after they are friends. By time of the man city ep, Jamie’s at a point where he can make fun of Sam’s texts with Rebecca without it stinging the way it would before. His apology to the team and his actions with Sam has no lame excuse attached to it (hopefully how his apology with Nate goes that I really am hoping for). Sam is a compassionate enough person that he would’ve forgiven Jamie, or at least lowered his anger towards Jamie, if he knew the context, so I’m glad they didn’t do it like that and had Jamie own up without Sam showing him any sympathy or kindness that wasn’t organic.

[unsettlingcreature]

why do you boop?

Love

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Malice

Duty

Voting ended onApr 2, 2024

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[hellosammy19]

(ted lasso spoilers)

This is the end of the Wembley locker room scene in Man City, without music

Like when the camera is on Ted just before he walks out, you could hear Jamie sobs even harder

(but you obviously have to turn the volume up and press the sound to your ear but still)

[fanficfanattic]

Omg. All of this. But also? Ted opening the door was so loud. Like everyone would have heard it but Jamie. I always thought he’d either have never realized or not noticed it until later (because of being out of it post crying jag). But he’d know that Ted saw his dad and then walked away again.

[jamietarttsnorthernattitude]

me: i have a lot on my mind right now

what i spend literally all day thinking about: