Down With The Thunder

LET THE LIGHTNING FALL ✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩ "It is the spark of lightning in her eyes that swears she will not fall." ✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩ Independent ✩ Semi-Selective ✩ Semi-Private Genshin Impact Multimuse Slightly canon-divergent and with a wide range of OC and Canon muses, ft. Fatui OC Kagota Wished on by Lita/Pom/Pomberry since January 2023~!

[thundertide]

THUNDERTIDE - An Independant, Semi-Private and Semi-Selective Genshin Impact Multimuse, Wished upon by Lita/Pom/Pomberry ⋆⁺₊⋆ Est January 2023, Rehauled May 2023 ⋆⁺₊⋆ Focuses on a range of OC and Canon muses; Featuring OCs Kagota, Saiki, and Cettra, and Canon Traveler!Lumine as primary muses ⋆⁺₊⋆ Slightly canon divergent and contains references to a fully original (distant) backstory for many muses features in the Halcyon Era verse, please check rules and divergences page before interacting ⋆⁺₊⋆ In an overall exclusive mainverse with @yoroiis and @waltzofphoenix, and ship exclusive with @yoroiis ⋆⁺₊⋆ Most graphics made by @yoroiis; MDNI banner here and in rules by @cafekitsune

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[genshinoutfitotd]

The Genshin outfit of the day is:

Thoma from Hoyofair's Lifeline by Isobe!

[intense-suggestion]

They did not expect you to fight. They expected you to cower down, bow before them, accept the fate that they had thought out for you. All the more satisfying, then, to smirk up at them through the blood, saying i'm not done yet. You have no idea of the extent of my defiance.

[pyeo]

[genshinoutfitotd]

The Genshin outfit of the day is:

Thoma from the Sweets Paradise collab!

[sakurarisen]

Small update on a pomeranian to follow up those tags on my last post: I'm putting all my blogs on a... Not quite semi-hiatus, but I'm going to call it that because I'll still be slower than my usual snail's pace, so it might as well be one. I know I've been basically molasses for the last year or so, but things offline have steadily gotten worse by the month and with all the stress piled on my shoulders, the vast majority of the time? All I want to do is sleep. Sleep and game and try to stay focused on not just opening my window and screaming into the night as loud as a pomeranian can.

This hit an all time low in the last couple of months - A family member has been ill to the point it's caused mental and emotional breakdowns with how dangerously bad things have gotten, and the rest of my family is really in no shape to play the role of full time caretaker, so it's also come down to me to fill in the gaps and be caretaker as well, which, having that thrust onto me overnight basically, has been a great deal of strain since it means I barely have time to breathe for myself, let alone do anything else. When I do get a chance to sit down and have me time, I immediately launch myself into a game, draw, or write with very close friends off-Tumblr in small bursts when we have the chance, so I haven't (and will never!) abandon writing or my muses, I just... Haven't had time.

This bucketload of strain and stress hit a tipping point a few weeks ago when a breakdown actually led to getting so sick, I was hospitalized for a few days with an unknown virus that knocked me on my ass faster than you can blink. While I'm doing better and home (thankfully), there's still some things that got messed up (sleep schedule being one of them, nobody tells you you sleep out of boredom when in the hospital mainly XD) and I'm still trying to recover from, but have already been thrust back into the same stress of playing caretaker to, by the end of the day, my entire household when everyone else burns out and I'm the only one left standing by the evening. My own health is still taking a hit here, and that makes me even more likely to sit when I can and just.... Vegitate. By day's end, that's all I want to do.

"So tl;dr this for me Pom!" - Gladly! <3 The tl;dr is that my time for myself has shortened significantly due to offline bs, hence the 'semi-hiatus', but I'm working on a return! As I mentioned earlier in this mess of a post, I haven't stopped writing or abandoned my muses, and I have no plans to. In fact, I'm trying to sort out some kind of means to refocus my attention because I have a TON of muse and thoughts for my original lore among other things (alongside @yoroiis, love you Kasa <3), and I miss my blogs! I've been in the process the last few months of making an off-tumblr character listing and sorting out muse lores and stories and the like, so I plan on starting things with chara about updates in the background while I get kind of back onto my feet! <3

This is going to be an even slower process than I want it to be given everything else going on, considering my family takes first priority no matter how exhausted it all makes me, but I very much plan on making a return to blog soon enough! So for those who have stuck with me, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. <3 You can expect me and my dorks back soon, just as soon as I can re-focus and sort my time a little better back into my creative drive! <3

~Pom

[genshin-impact-updates]

Happy Birthday, Thoma!

Hey, just a moment. I'm just finishing up the lunch boxes. Packed them with food that's easy to take on a picnic.

Grab a fried shrimp if you're hungry. Honestly, it seems Taroumaru's even hungrier. Wouldn't be surprised if he jumps on the table any second.

You know, he used to hide emergency snacks in the tearoom, but now they're gone.

He's been on high alert trying to find them, letting out the saddest little noises. Hold on... why do you look so guilty right now?

[genshin-impact-updates]

Happy Birthday, Gaming!

Wow, that was quite the surprise from everyone!

Good thing I could count on my stance training, else I would've face-planted along with all these fancy gifts.

Don't worry, I've been a guard for hire for many years. There's a reason they call me the "Gold-Standard Guard," you know.

I promise to escort all these heartfelt gifts from our friends back home, safe and sound!

[paper-wounds]

[genshin-impact-updates]

Happy Birthday, Wriothesley!

Oh, it's you. Seems I picked just the right moment to open my eyes.

Before you arrived, the Melusines had already snuck in a few times. Their gifts were delightful, of course, but the real challenge was pretending to stay asleep while they stuck stickers on my face — especially when they kept showing up one after another.

It would be rude to ruin someone's thoughtful surprise, so your timing actually works out perfectly.

Thanks for waking me from my little act. I'm feeling a bit thirsty, so why not join me for a drink or two?

[transientblaze]

" Mhm. At least, he tries to-." Ren would quietly answer up. " But things had been kinda chaotic when we actually get the chance to train or get put on a mission. Mm...well, maybe chaotic isn't the right word to use, but I don't feel like he keeps everyone in line like you keep everyone in line. And he doesn't know how to read what Lord Tartaglia wants on a drop of dime like you do either. "

" So it's been awkward- " And maybe that's why Ren found himself seeking out the opinion of Kag, too. Though he knew there'd be no way she'd be 'healed up' enough to take over the reigns right now, maybe she still had a means of talking to Kyros or their Harbinger into making better plans for the short term.

Though, the more Ren sat there and watched Kag's idle movements-

The more he couldn't help but pick up something being off about her. She seemed reluctant, like Kag was hesitating on saying what she really wanted to because he was the one there. Was there an issue going on that Kag really wasn't able to talk to him about? Or were the details surrounding her 'injury' a lot more complicated than a regular unit member like him was supposed to overhear.

Either way, Ren would sit quietly unmoving on the couch; quietly watching Kag and her glances as the teen tried his best to pick up on more clues. Anything to help him navigate this conversation better.

" But hey, don't worry about the birthday too much though! It's not your fault you got caught up in something right before all that happened. We'll just...have to make it up whenever you get feeling better, I guess? You'd be up for something like that eventually, right? "

[thundertide]

"Yeah. Yeah, I... I would. I'll make it up to you and Rei. I... I will."

Promise. it was such an easy word to say, yet in that moment, she couldn't get it to work its way past her lips. Perhaps it was something to do with how often they'd been lies in regards to her... Kag wasn't sure, but another idle gesture would hopefully make clear she did. Her words, while not actually saying it, were still a promise all their own that she fully intended to keep to, no matter what it took... Or when.

A part of her wanted to ask if Childe had at least been there. With her out of action... Was he taking care of the unit, too? Had he... Actually stepped up and decided to fill her shoes, lend Kyros some help? Another part of her doubted it; He had always been incredibly hands off, and normally, she had appreciated it. Unlike Signora, who had only stopped by to manipulate them and order them into situations that should have been their end, Childe had always encouraged and given them space to be more than the unit most of the Fatui wanted to see knocked off the face of Teyvat. It was up to her to lead her unit, and given he'd never stepped in like that before...

The guilt continued to pile up with each though that raced through her mind, sparking up a tight ache in her chest she wished she could be rid of. He was off doing his own thing, and it sounded like with it, his only priority past that was their three biological children. Of course, that was also an assumption, she knew! Nothing said he hadn't been - Just that she hadn't asked, and couldn't actually bring herself to. She knew better than to assume, and yet...

With a sigh, Kag finally took a step towards the bed, dropping onto its edge to sit like a lead weight. The urge to curl up and just sleep again was stronger now, but how could she do that to Ren? He'd taken the time to come visit and she did love him too much to kick him out just to sleep even more, but... Truthfully, she wasn't sure which was was up, stuffing a hand back in her hair for a small scratch of her scalp. Where did she begin... What did she say...?

"I never knew what he wanted," she'd say instead, voice even softer yet as her gaze averted, suddenly finding the floor far more interesting than the boy on the couch. "I... Still don't. I don't know that man... Not like you think I do. He's... A harbinger, Ren... Nobody understands them. They want it that way." Especially Childe, though she'd keep that bit to herself. She knew Ajax - She'd never known Childe nor Tartaglia, if the ness she'd found herself in had proven anything.

The man she knew had died long ago, after all.

"Just give him space, Ren. Don't... Worry about impressing him. Work on yourself. It's... It's not... Worth it to worry about impressing a Harbinger. Trust me." She'd learned that lesson the hard way when her childhood friend had become one. So many years of trying to stay close, of trying to be like they used to, all for them to be...

It wasn't worth it, she decided, quickly blinking away a sudden blur to her vision. Ren deserved better... The entire unit did.

[transientblaze-a]

'Are you two having issues again?'

The question teased at Ren's mouth, its desire for the teen's thoughts to go unfiltered threatening him to ask the obvious with only his self control to keep his curiosities unvoiced. With the room he could see past the door frame a wreck and Kag's disheveled look not helping prove anything otherwise; it actually didn't take him long to connect the pieces. Kag and their Harbinger were usually an almost inseparable pair, but now that Ren really got to thinking about it-

He actually hadn't seen both Kag and Lord Tartaglia in the same room together in awhile. Though Childe still talked about Kag as if there were nothing wrong romantically...was their Operative falling in battle really the only thing that'd lead to her absence?

" ... "

Still, Ren knew when to be cautious with his words So this time, instead of saying too much, he'd simply bow his head in a slight 'thanks' for her hospitality before stepping his way inside Kag's room sit on a small sofa inside. Normally, he wouldn't mind the blankets that laid strewn all over its cushions, but today? Their chaos just added to the awkwardness of the room.

" I really don't think he'll mind. Last I heard, he was busy with something else anyway, but he wouldn't really say with what. But he'll be back tonight though, I'm sure! " Ren would fidget, lightly lifting a hand to toy at the coin pendent he often wore as his 'good luck charm' just to give his mind something else to think about.

" Other than that, there hasn't been that much going on lately? Emi and I went out for a picnic for my birthday and Rei ate so much of that cake I saved you a piece of, I actually thought she was gonna cry after. She did manage to drag us all out to go look at the ocean after that though, so she couldn't have been feeling that bad. "

" She...hasn't been by to tell you that already though, has she? "

[thundertide]

Busy with something else... That checked out. He was always off with some kind of desire or project all of his own, and while she loved how active he was and how focused, she couldn't hide the relief that snuck into her expression, either. It was easier to rest without Childe there, Kag hated to admit... So, ultimately, she wouldn't. No matter how much she wouldn't have minded talking to someone, Ren didn't need to know his adoptive parents were having issues quite to that extent.

"Sounds like him," she'd offer instead, glancing around the room as if she needed to be doing something. Tidying it, be a better leader, offer her company something... A part of her screamed this wasn't being a 'good host', yet the rest couldn't help but remind this was Ren - he wouldn't be there if he cared about her being a 'good host', let alone plopped down on the couch Childe had been... Hmm. Maybe.. That was why it felt so weird? Because he was sitting where she'd caught Childe sleeping....?

Whatever the reason for it, she'd still hesitate, unsure of what to do or where to move... Or even how to move. Nothing felt right, and underneath the empty, pained state she found herself in, she hated that, the glance she gave her adopted son more than pathetic before she caught herself. "Happy birthday, too - I'm sorry I missed it, Renny. I meant to be there, I did-"

Guilt washed over her. What she'd said hadn't been a lie; she'd fully intended on being there for the twins' birthday, even having had a gift for both ready and waiting to be wrapped in a nearby closet long before the day had been a thought in anyone's mind. While Childe had kept his distance from the two despite agreeing to the adoption, something she'd later found out was due to just who their parents really were among other reasons, Kag had always made sure to remind Ren and Rei just how wanted and loved they were. Missing their birthday had never been intentional, and for a moment, she had to wonder...

"I haven't seen her much. Rei and Emi both came by the last time Emi visited before that - I don't... Remember when that was." Truth be told... She had to wonder even what day it was to start with. When had the girls come by? What day, what date, was it now? How long had it been since their birthday? What month was it, even? She'd been so detached from everything that she'd no idea, the desire to crawl back into bed and curl back up to hide from it all once more a strong one despite her body's refusal to move.

Rather than say as much or let the feelings to hide win, however, Kag gave a little shake of her head. "Enjoy the downtime. It's deserved. When I heal up, you'll... Just be back in training." If. If she healed. Unlike the last few times the pain had hit, this one simply refused to make any progress, her hands shifting to gesture towards... Something. She wasn't sure what, though, and after a moment, they dropped back to her sides with a sigh.

"I'm sorry, Ren. Has Kyros been keeping everyone on track?"

[rpmusings-galore]

     NOTHING can erase the pain of losing someone you  l o v e. 

                  You carry it with you for the rest of your life, 

                          however   l o n g   that might be. 

The best you can hope for is that, over time, the wound begins to heal. 

But, no matter how STRONG we are, no matter how HARD we fight…

                           the  scar  always  stays  with  us.

[transientblaze-a]

@thundertide

'Oh wow, she looks terrible! Guess she really is having a hard time with whatever happened to her. I know Reirei and Emi said they hadn't seen her in weeks, but...yikes.'

Ren would try his best not to stare as much as Kag was at him, but a part of him couldn't help it! This really was the first time he'd heard Kag talk in weeks and his curiosity just wanted him to pause so he could scan his 'mother' over in a hopes of figuring out what was wrong. He doubted this was anything he could fix personally, because from what Childe had mumbled before setting out, 'Kag needed plenty of rest and quiet time', so they should try their best not to bother her for awhile.

Still, Kag's voice seemed...hurt and distant. Even Ren had been able to pick that much up just from the little she'd said past the cracked door -- and he suddenly felt that much more sorry for her. Not that he'd mention that though.

" Uh...good. I've been good! Training's been going kinda slow lately since you've been hurt. We're all not sure what to do next until you're back to your old self again, but...I was helping to take care of Niko earlier! He's been more fussier than Anastasia and Sofia have been, but...I think the girls just like it more when they know Childe's around, too. "

Ren had left Childe mostly to taking care of an extra fussy Niko and all of his issues. Ren wasn't ready for that much responsibility in taking care of kids yet.

" Are you sure you're doing okay in here by yourself though? I know we're supposed to let you rest, but- "

[thundertide]

Her old self... A part of her wanted to laugh at that. Who had her 'old self' actually been aside from a stupid, naive fool? She'd put her trust into something - someone - and been hurt for it, time and time again... And every time, she'd picked herself up and dusted herself off, thinking that if she just got stronger, it'd all be better. She could make things work like they needed to be if she could just take control and fight harder to make it work...

But in the end, all she'd done was cause pain, both to herself and those around her, averting her gaze for just a moment as the small, nagging voices in the back of her head reminded her of exactly that. Her chest felt tight, sore... How much had she even failed the boy before her, she wondered...?

"...I am sorry," she'd repeat after a moment's pause, pulling her gaze back up to Ren. Care of the kids had always been a unit-wide task; with them all viewing one another as family, they'd been quick to take to helping with care of first Sofia and Anastasia, then Niko, and it had just become commonplace to ask them for help when they needed it... But Ren was just a teenager, himself. Being a Fatuus already stripped him of far too much in his life, she couldn't ask him to be a temporary parent, too! He deserved better - Everyone deserved better, and she had-

With a deep breath, Kag stepped aside, opening the door a little further. If he wanted to step inside, she'd welcome it - She just hoped he wouldn't mind the mess the bedroom had become, tissues strewn everywhere, bed a mess, plush fox left on a pillow that normally would have been Childe's... The dim lighting had been comfortable, at least, Operative stepped away from the door in hopes of pulling herself back together, even just a little. "It's fine. If he has a problem with you checking on me... Just...."

Just... What? A part of her screamed it was bad to go against orders; what if they got found out for being lazy? What if-

"Tell him I asked for it." That would be good enough, right? Then if anyone got in trouble, it'd be her, and she... She deserved it, honestly. "Keep up... Mmm. Keep up your training as you have been... Tell... Tell me about how you've been more. How... Things have been out there."

Just talk to me for a bit... Please...?

[thundertide]

Knock, knock, knock. There'd be three short, quiet, almost hesitant taps on her door. In truth, it'd taken everything in Ren to get himself to actually knock on the door in the first place, but...it'd been awhile since he'd last seen their unit leader around, too. Was she still doing okay?

"Hey...uh, Kagota? I know this is probably a bad time and all but...I was just wondering. Do you want us to save any of this left over cake for you? I know you're probably still resting up though, so feel free to say no!"

Actually, all Ren wanted was to hear Kag's voice so he could tell the others she was fine. The cake wasn't that important.

He'd get one better for an answer a moment after he'd called out to her, the door cracking open for Kagota to peer back out at Ren. Despite everything going on and the shattered state she'd been in, chest aching with the fragments of her soul struggling to reform back into what they needed to be, she couldn't ignore the voice of someone close to her - Least of all one who had been, for all intents and purpouses, her son. She'd legally adopted him under requests to take cakre of him and his twin sister by their parents, and the Operative had taken that role just as seriously as she did the care of the three younger children up in and around the nursery.

So when she'd heard Ren call out to her, she'd not hesitated to drag herself out of bed and over to the door, though... Would he... Notice, she wondered? Just how poor of a state she'd been in, how much she'd still been crying off and on, just how much she'd shut down in the last few months...? For once, she wasn't sure. Ren was nothing if not observant, but to say something on it... That was a different matter entirely, and Kag couldn't decide one way or another if she wanted him to or not. To have someone to talk to that wasn't Childe or Leandros...

It was... Nice, already.

"Small piece," she'd finally offer, all too aware of how long she'd been quietly watching him. "...Sorry. I promised I'd try and didn't come out for it... Just save me a small piece. Healing isn't going all the easily." That was a lie, but she didn't quite feel ready to tell him the full truth, either. As far as she knew, it had just been said she'd sustained an injury - Not where nor how, but only that she'd needed time to rest.

But what she'd given him didn't sound like her, either, and with a sigh, Kag reached up, lodging a hand in her mussed and tangled hair. Her broken, soft tone just wasn't her - But then... Who was 'Kagota', really? She wasn't sure she could answer that right then, other hand squeezing the doorknob just a little tighter.

"...How... Have you been, Renny...?"

[lieserli]

At least this time, you won’t leave me behind.

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