1 year off t and life is substantially better in every way. Yay for cardio health freaking me out badly enough to stop. I’m not suffering from agoraphobia or paranoia anymore like I was when I was convinced the whole world was against me. I keep looking back and asking myself how in the world I thought something that was actively making my life worse was “helping me”. It’s really sad looking through my camera roll from the last few years and seeing the moments where I didn’t realize my photo was being taken and I just look fucking miserable. I don’t think most people in my life have seen those photos, only my very curated, “look I’m doing fine!” ones. I think in some regards I felt a compulsive need to share those staged pictures to have other people tell me that I wasn’t making a mistake. Hopefully I’ll be done with electrolysis soon, seeing excellent results so far. My hair is growing out and I’m starting to feel like myself again.
