if i look back, i am lost
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Day 3
I was going to try to take pictures of my meals to hold me accountable but I forgot. But I did have a snack, went to the movies and ate popcorn and pretzels. Then had dinner of loaded fries and pasta. Now that I typed it up my brain is racing but Iām here I am. The stomach is so terrible. I had horrible sleep. But one day at a time
Day 1 and 2
Well I have surpassed day 1. And boy did I do it right. I had five guys and shared a shake. That was difficult but I did it. Man did I forget how painful recovery is. Like after I eat my stomach hurts so much. I know I need to push through it. But it is hard. Iām currently on day 2. I did have pasta and salad for lunch and snacked on chips. Having some strong feelings. But I need to keep going one meal at a time.
Day 0
Well I am back to square one. I have been struggling with my eating and food and going back to old ways. I want to be done. So I am. I am returning here to keep me accountable and let other people know itās okay to choose recovery. It is hard. I was in recovery once and totally relapsed and havenāt been able to find it again. Iām done I want to find it again. Hereās to doing it again.
Day 3
Well I survived day 1! Last night was tough but I was able to have a normal day of eating. So far today is going good. I am half way through the day and havenāt acted out. Hereās to being able to eat dinner. It also does not help Iām on my period either
Day 2
Well Iām not really sureā¦ I did mess up during lunchā¦. But I did start over for dinner. So it has not been a full 24 hours but I did survive dinner. So hereās to me surving a snack, lunch and dinner. I just got more school items and I have such high anxiety. I will stay strong because I know that a normal eating schedule help with anxiety and Ed makes it worse.
Day one
Well last week was a total blunder I acted on behavior. But now I am trying to get dedicated again. I want a life if freedom. I want to stop this gestational family curse I have. I do want my children to suffer my same fate. I also want to get healthy! And enjoy life! So hereās to recovery day 1
Recovery day 1
So we are back to day one of recovery. I stopped therapy, it was just too expensive and I just could not do it finically. I start on Monday, so this is a whirlwind of emotions and nerves but I need to put in the work. I was b/p free for an entire year! 365 days then I lost it. So I need to get back to it. I had energy, I was happy, I was happy. I felt pure happiness. So here to accountability. I can do it
Friends in low places.
Reblog if it's okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.
Sooo Iām at my highest weight in recovery after a year almost in a couple of weeks. I just feel like if I lost at 30lbs I would be good or even 40 because I wouldnāt even be at my lowest weight. I would be around 110. I just feel so much better if I were to lose at least 30lbs and be in the 115 range. 150 is not it for me. I was almost 160ā¦ so I think if I donāt act on my purges or binges I should be good. Right? Ugh this is so difficult. I have weddings in November with judgmental people and Hawaii in March. Maybe if I lose it slowly itāll be good. We shall see
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Monday September 20
Well long time no see, but it is day 6 of really really going for it in recovery and I feel pretty good. Day 3-4 weāre difficult I felt like a potato. But I am okay Iām actually doing better than okay today I feel good. My mood is elevated and Iām happy. Even though I still donāt recognize who I see in the mirror. But you know what eff it. I will be happy and if I put on weight who care. I donāt! Itās not going to be a problem for and it it offends others or makes them think less of me. Then thatās there personal issues. So I will do me I will recover and I will give myself space and patients. This is going to be the hardest thing I will ever do. But I can do it. I am strong and I want a life for myself without Ed. So happy Monday! You are beautiful, be okay with yourself and be proud of yourself.
September 15
I do not know what recovery day I am. Maybe 15. We shall say I started the 1 of September. Today after a relapsing vacation I came back with vengeance. I ate all 3 meals and 3 snacks. I pushed through my dinner. I got full from my small salad! But I did it! I did it and I ate some yummy cookies. It was so good. So I think Iām going to enjoy another one in bed and try to breathe. Iām stuffed like a balloon. But I did it.
Nashville eats
Some of the yummy food and daily wins I had during this trip.
