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[totallynotashieldagent]

✨intro post✨

hellooo! remaking my intro post because i accidentally deleted the original instead of editing it [pain]

Welcome!!

You can call me Starlight or Star (closest variation to my real name). I'm an adult woman. xReader fanfic writer on AO3 since 2016 (can you believe???)

also - if you ever see me talking about someone named "Abel", that's my son! no like- actual, literal, child of mine.

I can't really say who exactly I write about because my fixation keeps changing. i started with marvel and wrote with Bucky for ages then circled back to DC- Now I sometimes do JJK or other fandoms too. So i hope there's something for you here too. (also english is not my first language so, if there's errors, just let me know)

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Marvel (Bucky Barnes, Scott Summers, Alex Summers, Matt Murdock, Andrew's Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bob Reynolds, ShangChi, Donald Pierce, Benjamin Poindexter)

Dc (Jason Todd, Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Tim Drake, Damian Wayne, Clark Kent, Conner Kent, Barry Allen, Wally West, Hal Jordan, Adrian Chase)

JJK (Geto, Gojo, Nanami, Choso)

Teen Wolf (Isaac Lahey, Stiles, Peter Hale, Theo Raeken, Derek Hale)

The Pitt (Jack Abbot, Brendon Park)

Assorted (LADS Caleb, LADS Sylus, Trigun Vash, Trigun Nai, Bob Floyd, Vincent De Gramont, Owen Hendricks, Draco Malfoy, Kenji Sato, Dean Winchester, Klaus Mikaelson, Damon Salvatore, Moon Baek, Sirius Black, Fire Lord Zuko)

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[akaamarin]

Yuji rocking them lighting mcqueen

[totallynotashieldagent]

the way i adore scrawny little yuuji omg

[totallynotashieldagent]

I love your Zuko x wife fanfics !!! and I especially loved the last one about their first time.

And since I love to tease Zuko, imagine that in the Fire Nation it's frowned upon to have sex beyond reproduction and it's a taboo subject, Now Zuko is caught between a rock and a hard place, between what he wants and what he has been taught.

While his wife, The fact that she's from the Water Tribe and the relationship between couples is presented in a much more natural way; she's also very upset because she sees Zuko suddenly moving away from her but still looking at her with yearn.

And that was my TED talk.

NO BECAUSE I HAD THE SAME IDEAAAA!!!! that because zuko is like the first fire lord in AGES to be a kind and humane person who doesn't see his wife as a broodmare and he geniunely fell in love with her but sex is always about heirs and never fun and orgasms so he's confused between what he knows and what he wants and feeling dirty about it whereas as someone from the watertribe, reader is all about the fun part of sex as its seen as a part of life, not just a duty- BUT YES YES YES!!!! love your brain!!! <33333

After that night, you thought things would be easier. More intimate- The things- The feelings you both had been dancing around, it would all go away but somehow things were more confusing than when you'd first gotten married to Zuko.

The sex had been mind blowing good. The multiple orgasms, the way he'd fucked you into the mattress and then burned the sheets- That was the cherry on top. So, why was he drifting away from you?

When you'd reached to kiss him in the morning, he'd turned his face so you'd kiss his cheek and not his mouth. You'd thought he was just in a hurry but three days in and he was behaving oddly.

He kept looking at you like he wanted you but if you touched him, he'd pull away. At night, as soon as you'd touch his chest, the intent clear- He'd cough and say that he's tired, then kiss your head as if you weren't his wife who had thoroughly ravished a few days ago.

As stated. Confusing.

So, here you were, pacing the chambers. You had no one to talk to about this. Even your closest friends, you couldn't tell them this- With the risk of the letters being intercepted and gossips flying- You were stuck on your own for this.

You tried to think back to every interaction- to every intimate moment- to every-

"Fuck-" You blinked then remembered how Zuko had mentioned that there had been a custom to consummate the marriage on the night of. But he'd waved it off, saying that he won't tell, if you won't. And that had been the end of it.

Sure, you'd thought it was weird and odd that a marriage had to be consummated because for you- where you were from- a marriage was a union of love and it wasn't talked about but everyone knew that the couple had engaged in activities beforehand anyway. No one ever waited until the actual wedding night. But if marriages had to be consummated then did that mean that the Fire Nation was prude as hell?

You called one of your handmaidens, an elderly woman.

"You asked for me, Your Ladyship?" She gave a gentle bow- Her body couldn't fold all the way anymore, given her age.

"Uh- Yes-" You smiled at her, closing the doors for some privacy. "I had some questions about the customs of the Fire Nation."

Meanwhile, Zuko was spiralling like he had never before. He had loved every second of that night but the morning after he had never felt such guilt and disgust. He hated himself for giving into his base desires. He couldn't help but feel like he'd let people down by letting his emotions control him.

And he didn't even want to think of what you might think of him? Did you think he was some kind of a pervert? Having sex willy-nilly? Spirits- It was a miracle you still touched him, hugged him, kissed him.

The day after he'd scrubbed him skin to clean himself but it just wouldn't go away. Every time he looked at you- Every time you smiled at him- Every time he smelled your scent- Blood would start rushing south and he felt like a disgusting little deviant.

He didn't know who to talk to. Uncle? Absolutely not- He'd rather shave his head again. Sokka? No. He'd just make fun of him. Aang? Maybe... He's always been serious enough.

So, he wrote Aang a letter. To please come visit him. That he needs guidance on some personal matters.

Surely monks would know how to control baser instincts, right?

Very wrong.

Aang stared at him like he'd grown three heads.

"What do you mean it's for heirs only?" He asked, confused.

"Ugh-" Zuko groaned, cradling his head. "You know- Not to give into humanly wants and needs and-"

"But sex is part of the human experience." Aang frowned. "Besides, you're married. Isn't intimacy part of it all?"

"No- not for fun." Zuko whispered the last bit like it was a dirty thing. "Being intimate with a spouse is only for creating heirs."

"No wonder Fire Nation rarely had more than one." Aang mumbled to himself as he looked around. "Look-" He said clearly, "If this is something you want, if this is something your wife wants, why does anything else matter? Or anyone else's opinion?"

"It's just the way of things. Like you being vegetarian." Zuko pointed out.

"I don't think so..." Aang said slowly, watching his friend pace the study. "Zuko- Uh- If I can be blunt- Did you enjoy your time with her?"

"Spirits- Yes. So much." Zuko sighed, "That's the worst part!"

"Explain." Aang prompted him.

"It's just- It's not what I was taught growing up." He sat down across from Aang. "Intimacy is duty. A duty that we have to perform to secure the future of the lineage. That's it. It's not a ... recreational thing. And I- I feel-"

"Zuko." Aang put his hand on his friend's shoulder. "I'm sorry but you were taught wrong."

Zuko paced outside the bedchambers doors. Trying to hype himself up to talk to you- To maybe apologize. To beg for your touch again perhaps? He wasn't sure about that last one. All he knew what that speaking to Aang lessened the guilt of wanting you. Lessened the burden of feeling like a pervert for wanting his wife.

"I can hear you burning a hole in the floor." You called out from inside the chambers.

He blushed and entered, avoiding your eyes. He wrung his hands together and swallowed hard. "I - Uh- Can we talk?"

You smiled and nodded, patting the bed. Hoping he'd come to sit next to you and not on the other side or corner of the large mattress. Zuko gave you a tight smile and came to sit next to you.

"What's on your mind?" You said sweetly, touching his cheek to make him look at you.

The touch alone had him sighing, his shoulders dropping a little.

"I suppose I should explain my distance." His voice was full of shame. You gave him a gentle smile and nodded for him to continue.

Even though you'd spoken to the handmaiden, and she'd explained how the sex education worked in the palace, and for nobles- How sex was something that only people of lesser lives enjoyed- She's explained it all. So, you'd chosen to wait for Zuko to come to you once he was ready. And tonight- He was ready.

Zuko spoke to you for almost an hour. You listened, adding where needed, holding his hand throughout, giving reassuring squeezes here and there. When he was done, he looked at you almost pitifully.

"Will you forgive me?" He asked softly.

"Will you touch me again?" You asked in return.

The question make his skin turn pink. He nodded, averting his gaze.

"Only if you want me to." He whispered.

"I want you to." You leaned forward and kissed his cheek.

Zuko smiled. How could something that felt so good, could be bad?

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[tomhoppusdelonge]

i love following people with kinks I don’t have because somtimes I’m like

[totallynotashieldagent]

and then i try it out and then its a uh oh moment

[shozawayo]

The batkids doing that thing where they start to panic when they don't see Bruce in one of his designated spots in the manor. They check his bedroom, his office, the living room, and the batcave and realize they have no idea where he is. You can just hear the escalation in their voices when it goes from "B!" To "Bruce!" To "Dad!"

[totallynotashieldagent]

bro inject this shit into my VEINS!!!!

[totallynotashieldagent]

concept- what if instead of amara returning mary winchester, she returns you to dean. The only person he actually ever loved until he lost you because of some monster or just bad human luck - and it's been years - but here you are. Given back. A chance at happiness for dean. Send post.

[totallynotashieldagent]

Some Things Take Time (roy's history of assault leads him to having a hard time having sex)

The first time

"Wait, wait-" Roy was gasping for air and you paused. He pressed his forehead against your shoulder and took deep breaths. "I need a sec-"

"Okay..." You said softly, still in his lap, caressing his back. "No rush. I promise."

After a few minutes of calming himself down, he looked up at you. "I'm sorry-" He whispered.

You kissed his cheek and got off his lap, curling into his side. "Don't be silly." You assured him and turned on the TV.

He didn't say it but he was grateful of your nonchalance. He wrapped an arm around you and then rest of the night, you just cuddled with lazy kisses here and there.

The fourth time

"Honey? You alright?" You were breathing heavily under him but he'd just stopped. "Roy? Babe?" You sat up a little, pushing him back.

He was seemingly frozen. His eyes screwed shut and his hands were trembling. You touched his cheek and when he opened his eyes, they were wild and full of panic.

You were under him, your nipples covered in his spit, your pussy throbbing in need. His cock was quickly softening and he rubbing his hands over his face.

"Sorry- I-" He swallowed, "I don't know what happened-"

"It's okay. Really." You assured him, "Do you want me to get you some water?" You moved out from under him and handed him his boxers.

"Please." He sighed and collapsed into the soft mattress, staring at the ceiling.

You brought him water, then took a cold shower and joined him in bed. Roy was terrified the whole night and didn't sleep a wink.

The same kept happening again and again and again- So much so, he lost count. He didn't know that you weren't keeping count.

Every time, Roy thought this would be it, he just wouldn't be able to go through with it. It wasn't that you two didn't have fun. You did! You both made out, did oral, were so handsy that it was embarrassing but every single time, when it came down to the actual act of sex, he would freeze up and his dick would go down instantly.

And you- you'd been so incredibly patient that he was beginning to hate it. You never rolled your eyes, you never sighed or stared at him in disappointment, you never gave him a look that made him feel less than. No. You just- You just asked if he was fine, you just gave him water, you just cuddled with him until he fell asleep. And he hated that. All of it.

Eleven months in and still- you were so fucking patient.

"Eat up." You smiled down at Lian and placed a plate of mashed potatoes and steak bites infront of her.

"Thank you!" She beamed up at you.

"What's got you in a funk?" You asked Roy, sliding his plate to him.

He blinked up at you, thoroughly confused by your question. How could you ask him that? As if he hadn't been a colossal disappointment for the past eleven months? Since the start?

"Nothing." He said it so rudely- He hadn't meant to but that's how it just came out of him that the rest of the dinner was spent in silence.

It was rude enough that Lian asked for you to put her to bed tonight, instead Roy.

"Your dad's probably having a hard day." You tried to make excuses.

"I just hope he isn't getting sick again." She yawned and curled up to go to sleep.

The thought that Roy might be using again made your spine shiver.

When you went back to his bedroom, you lingered in the doorway for a bit, wringing your hands together.

"Roy?" You said slowly. "Can we talk?"

The pit in his stomach deepened. This was it. You were going to break up with him.

"Uh- About what?" He tried to delay the inevitable.

"There's no easy way to say this-" You swallowed, "Are you using again?"

"What?" He blinked. That was not where his mind was at. "No! No- No, I'm sober. I've been sober for three years and I do my NA every three weeks and-"

"Then what the hell was that at dinner?" You hissed, "You scared Lian. She's worried that you're getting sick again and I'm scared that-" You took a breath to calm yourself down.

"I'm not. I swear." He repeated. "I'm clean. I'll pee in a cup right now if you want-"

"Then?" You asked, "What's going on?"

"It's nothing." He said it in a more defeated way, not meeting your gaze.

"Babe..." You frowned, sitting on the bed, "Talk to me?" You touched his cheek, making him look at you.

"Are you happy?" He whispered. "With me- With how- With how I am."

"Yeah? Obviously?" You tilted your head in confusion.

"What about our sex life? Or lack thereof?" He glared at you.

Ah. You pulled away and nodded. "You just need time, Roy-"

"It's been years!" He snapped, standing to close the door so Lian didn't overhear anything and started to pace the room. "I should be over it by now!"

"Honey- Healing is not linear-" You tried but that just made him laugh.

"Don't therapy talk to me. Dinah does it enough." He shook his head. "I just-"

"Roy. Come sit. Please." You patted the bed. He groaned but complied. "It's okay." You took his hand in yours. "Really. There's no rush- And it's not like we've got a dead bedroom. We do a ton of other stuff-"

"Yeah, but-" He sighed, "I don't want you to think that I'm not into you. Or that I can't get it up or-" You laughed a little, "Glad this is amusing to you." He huffed.

"It's not." You smiled, reaching to caress his cheek. "I know you can get it up. Remember last Tuesday?" Instantly, Roy's ears matched his hair. Last Tuesday, he'd given you a proper striptease, and then put on a proper show for you. Thighs spread, his cock in his hand, slowly masturbating as you played with yourself.

"I guess-" He mumbled, trying to hide away.

"Things take time. Specially when someone has suffered the way you have." You assured him. "And what do we have if not all the time in the world, hm?"

"Really?" He frowned.

"Really." You nodded.

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[jasontoddisbabygirl]

Wondering if jason had ac growing up or if it was broken?

Daily life objects are taken for such granted as some one who also grew up poor

(Just learned that new jersey basically feels like Texas during summer and it's kinda throwing me off)

[totallynotashieldagent]

no because we didn't get an AC until my dad got cancer and then we NEEDED it for his recovery because summers hit 40 where I'm from easily and before that we'd either use a menthol powder to keep ourselves cool or multiple quick showers a day or wet a piece of cloth made from Georgette and then use it as a blanket so that the hot air turned cool through the thin wet material (and that's not counting the power outages)

[totallynotashieldagent]

Milestone!!!!

Been writing for almost a decade! Reached a big number today!!

[totallynotashieldagent]

Lian is a menace and thinks her father needs a lady friend

You were looking at the various types of honey at the farmer's market when you heard a little voice.

"Hello." Lian said brightly, tugging at your dress. "Are you by yourself?"

"Uh- Hi-" You stared at the child, then looked around. "Where's your parents, honey?" You asked, crouching down to her level.

"Dad's around somewhere." She shrugged. "What about you?"

"I'm by myself." You smiled, "Do you want help looking for your dad?"

"Nah. He'll find me." She giggled and you raised a brow. "I'm Lian. What's your name?"

"I'm guessing you run off quite often, huh?" You asked, then told her your name; she nodded with a gleeful look. A tooth missing in her smile made her look even more mischievous. "Well, aren't you a little troublemaker, hm?" You took her hand in yours and stood up to look around, trying to find a frantic man.

"My uncle says that it's genetic." She shrugged and followed you.

"Right-" You hummed, "What does your dad look like?"

"Red hair and a pros- uh- a pros- He has a fake arm." She explained, unable to enunciate the word prosthetic. You nodded and started looking around for redheads. "You're pretty, you know. Like- Very pretty. Daddy likes pretty ladies. He'd like you too."

You laughed and shook your head. You couldn't believe a 7 or 8 year old, maybe 9- was trying to play matchmaker for her dad.

"Yeah? What would your mom say about that?" You indulged her, walking through the crowd, keeping an eye out.

"Don't have one." Lian said as a matter-of-fact.

Before you could react or dig yourself into the earth, a loud voice cut through the crowd.

"Lian!!" A redhead was pushing people and running towards you, "Sorry- Shit- Sorry! LIAN!" He yelled again.

He didn't even seem to notice you and knelt down, grabbing the girl by her shoulders.

"How many times?" He scolded. "How many times have I told you to not scare me like that? Just because I find you every time, doesn't mean you run every time!"

"But I found a friend." She seemed completely unfazed and pointed up at you.

"You found a stranger then bothered her." He shook his head and stood up,

"That's how friends start." Lian mumbled and rolled her eyes.

"Sorry about her." He sighed, "I'm Roy. This is Lian." He shook your hand and you told him your name.

"She's pretty, right?" She asked in a very loud whisper.

Roy's ears turned red and he shoved her behind himself. "Sorry. Ignore her. I try to. I mean- No- I don't ignore her. She's my kid- I- Fuck-" Lian giggled louder at his cursing. "I'm just gonna- We're gonna go-" He picked her up with his good arm and turned to leave.

"WAIT NO YOU DIDN'T ASK FOR HER NUMBER!" Lian wiggled in Roy's arms. "Miss Y/N! Have lunch with us!" She yelled but with manners. "I promise my dad's a good guy!"

Roy was sure he was going to pass out with embarrassment. He groaned and turned to you.

"Can- Will you join us for lunch so my kid stops?" He asked pitifully. You laughed a little and nodded. "I'm really sorry-" He shook his head again as you approached him, "Really- I-" Jesus- You really were pretty. He paused, losing his train of thought. "Sorry." He swallowed hard.

"It's okay." You smiled softly. "She's pretty convincing."

"Good- Yeah- Um-" He cleared his throat. "Lunch?"

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[totallynotashieldagent]

struggling to find a good roy harper fic 😭 everyone I find is a threesome with jason 😭

[totallynotashieldagent]

concept- supernatural teen wolf crossover in a way that stiles is an fbi agent and his new partner is a hunter, someone that bobby or jody saved and now she sends them cases that look supernatural so they can pass onto other hunters but both her and stiles are trying to be completely normal™ for the other person. cue scoobydoo level shenanigans until they have a case running through beaconhills so stiles invites her to his house and then she runs into argent and they're all buddy buddy and he's asking about bobby etc and they realize "you knew???" - anyway - it's a half baked idea but seemed fun to think about. send post.

[totallynotashieldagent]

I have a handful of unfinished fics so I'm thinking of uploading them ANYWAY because even as half a story, it's still a story you know?

[totallynotashieldagent]

i'm almost at 2500 followers here and 30k kudos on ao3 so i'll do a little drabble event for it but that would mean that the previous reqs would be paused for a bit <33

[totallynotashieldagent]

concept - even though it's against your wishes and you worry that he'll be cruel, he isnt. thragg talks you through it, ,kindly, gently, carefully. not because he wants to but because you're useful to him whole and breaking you would serve no purpose and he learned that if the female orgasms then they're more likely to get pregnant and oh he wants you to bear his spawn again and again. send post.

[evenwing]

"no, he would not be soft to you, he would actually kill you-" dooooon't care, make that man sobbing pathetically on his knees as he begs for you to stay.

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Fic Master List

All of these are available on AO3. This list will be updated as needed. Been writing for a while, the 'keep reading' is LONG so be advised.

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Multichapter Fics

Uncrowed Royals - (Abandoned)

Peter Hale/Reader & Klaus Mikaelson/Reader

Reader has been asked to go back to her hometown to make an alliance with people she once knew. The friends she now has think that allies must be made in times like this but no one but them knows or understands why it's so important to do so.

Bottle Of Whiskey - (Finished)

Damon Salvatore/Reader

Reader kisses Damon because some sleazebag wouldn't stop hitting on her

An Encounter With The Devil - (Finished)

Lucifer(Supernatural)/Reader

The Reader may perhaps be the only one who ever gave the devil sympathy.

Family Secrets - (Finished)

You’re Stiles’ older sister but you left to live with your mom’s aunt after she died, and Stiles prefered keeping you a private detail, so only Scott and the Sheriff and Scott’s mom even know you exist.

Would You Pose For Me? - (Finished)

Klaus Mikaelson/Reader

The reader poses for Klaus many times until he can't concentrate anymore.

As I Live And Breathe - (Finished)

Damon Salvatore/Reader

Damon and the Reader have known each other for a while, but maybe now they'll have time for each other.

Oneshots

The Fire of Us (Finished)

Fire Lord Zuko/Reader

Reader and Zuko's first time.

The Embers Of Us (Finished)

Fire Lord Zuko/Reader

Reader is taken by the Denied because she's married to the Fire Lord.

A Taste Of You (Finished)

King Arthur (Legend Of The Sword)/Reader

Arthur has had a long day at court and he just wants to devour his queen.

Must Be Fate (Finished)

Moon Baek/Reader

The five times Reader meets him and the one time he doesn't disappear.

Winner Takes All (Finished)

Robert "Bob" Floyd/Reader

Reader is at the base to write an article, everyone's betting if Bob would get a kiss. The squad doesn't know they're already married.

I Promised An Always (Finished)

Gojo Satoru/Reader

Post-Shibuya, the scars that cover Gojo makes him insecure. He pretends to be fine for everyone but only his wife sees how hollow he's become.

Safe House - (Finished)

Mitch Rapp/Reader

Mitch was never supposed to make contact. But circumstances made things different.

Masquerade Moonlight - (Finished)

Draco Malfoy/Reader

Draco and Reader share a dance and a conversation.

Thankful - (Finished)

Damon Salvatore/Reader

The one where there's no angst and the newly turned vampire is like "THANK FUCK" when they realize that how awesome being a vampire actually is.

Not A Monster - (Finished)

Damon Salvatore/Reader

Damon is on a destructive path and the Reader helps him through it.

Stained Skin - (Finished)

Damon Salvatore/Reader

Damon tries to convince the Reader that he likes her.

Scars - (Finished)

Draco Malfoy/Reader

Reader and Draco Malfoy are in their 8th Year at Hogwarts.

[totallynotashieldagent]

FINALLY fixed the masterlist !!! <333333 (also please be kinder to the older fics- ive been writing for almost a decade and english is not my first language)