Just trying to figure out what it all means

surviving not thriving

[tragically-irrelevant]

I never got to meet you. That was a choice that I made. But I wonder about you. Who would you have been? How would you have changed me? I mean you already have. You might already be here, or you could have made me wait. Either way, I’ll never know. You will always be my what if.

What if I had been braver? Believed I could do it on my own, believed I could have been enough for you.

But I knew the truth. I’m not enough.

You deserved better than you would have got. That’s how I justify my choice. I’m sorry little one. I wanted you, I just wasn’t brave enough to have you. And now I will always wonder; did I make the right choice?

If I was gonna lose him anyway, did I need to lose you too?

[tragically-irrelevant]

honestly, at this point, i don't even like me

[tragically-irrelevant]

i need a new job, am fed up of being poor

[tragically-irrelevant]

if someone who is rich could just drop me like 20k that would be fantastic, i’m fed up of having no money 😭

[tragically-irrelevant]

some days the intrusive thoughts are just too loud to ignore

[tragically-irrelevant]

my friend just told me that her boyfriend was thinking of me and asked how i was doing as i haven’t been okay recently and i just instantly started crying. i’m not used to having people care

[tragically-irrelevant]

i desperately need a new job, i wish i could just quit

[tragically-irrelevant]

nothing like a trip back home to visit family to make your mental health worse 🙃

[tragically-irrelevant]

I wonder what it’s like to not have regular mental breakdowns that leave you sobbing for half hour in the middle of the night

[tragically-irrelevant]

Who doesn’t love a spiralling anxiety breakdown to kick off a new year 🙃

[tragically-irrelevant]

I miss having friends. I miss having someone to text all day knowing that they would reply almost instantly. Now that I’ve wrote that... I realise I’ve never had it.

[ixrose]

#chris evans #in where he is actually steve rogers

[urulokid]

#when is chris evans not steve rogers though

[stravaganza]

[an-other-people-deactivated2013]

#when casting is perfect I begin to wonder about Marvel #do they secretly grow these people on farms #let them loose on the world for a while to establish lives #and then cast them as the role they were grown for

[booksandwildthings]

I have

no idea

what you’re

talking about

[skeletoncl0set]

i do believe this is my fifth time reblogging this

[ilovewintersoldiersandsebastian]

apart form sebastian though he goes from this to this

[lastitalianwitcholdblog]

seb’s the weird cousin

[lovemarvel-trash]

@justaweirdthoughtstuff

[smthsmthurmum]

This is amazing oml

[i-is-surrounded-by-idjits]

Seb’s the fanboy they grew to connect with the audience

[itsanerdlife]

@snowyseba This explains everything!

[marveldcmistress]

I’ve only seen this post in screenshots on pinterest. I love it.

[themcuhasruinedme]

I think you missed the other fanboy…

[ellysiacat]

Love this

[sexylibrarian1]

Everybody says Seb isn’t like Bucky… but he IS. He’s Bucky without a mask on. Bucky’s always wearing some sort of mask. Even around Steve. Seb is what Bucky would be like if he’d had the chance to just ~be~.

[that-sokovian-bastard]

UH THIS

[mmmaff-blog]

Um we’re forgetting someone…

[linaofthemyscira]

ITS FINALLY ON MY DASH YESSS

[perpetuallyvex]

Not to forget our “Wizard”:

[formerprincewille]

Aldjaksnana

[patient-wave]

I’ve found it. I’ve found the perfect post.

[im-fangirl-trash-okay-deactivat]

it’s on my dash jdnckdmd

[laufyeson]

these dorks lmaoo

[waywardwilled]

I love everyone omg they’re all so amazing???

[coffee-swimmer]

YES

[ryangosking]

Don’t forget

[eraemx]

Chris looks so hot in that first gif set

[jrubalcaba]

Omg I found THE original post! Holy shit I’ve only ever seen screenshots of this!

[sheridans-dynamos]

This post pops up on my dash every few months and I will never not reblog it.

[lokis-helmet]

This is too good to not reblog

[the-marvel-what-deactivated2020]

Everybody see this, this is the quality trash I came to Tumblr in the first place.

[daily-marvel-dose]

Also

[adjectivebear]

This post is ALMOST perfect, but we’re forgetting someone:

[tragically-irrelevant]

You ever just spontaneously burst into tears?

[tragically-irrelevant]

Aaaaaaannnd we’re back at wanting to die.

[tragically-irrelevant]

I hate being alive.

[tragically-irrelevant]

It scares me a little how quickly I can feel indifferent to someone. Like one week I’m telling you I love you, even though I don’t even know if I’m capable of that. And then, you do something which hurts me and it’s like a switch is flipped and I can no longer feel positive towards you, I don’t hate you but I no longer care.

I’m scared how easy it is for me to make the decision to no longer trust someone.

[tragically-irrelevant]

So,

You know what would be really fucking great?

Being able to sleep. That would be fantastic.

Sincerely,

Severely sleep deprived person.