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Peecock 3GS Part II
“1. Unbutton your pants at the waist and lower the zipper. 2. Spread your legs a bit, press it firmly against your crotch and control your stream!” 3. Start peeing!”
Start peeing. Start peeing. Start peeing! Damnit!
My first pee with my new achievement took me about.... 30 minutes?! Yes, 30 minutes. 5 Minutes of positioning it correctly, 5 other minutes worrying whether I positioned right, and 5 minutes of waiting for my bladder to relax, because I felt like I would wet my pants and finally, finally 10 minutes of peeing. “10 minutes? You sure, that it was about 10 minutes?” - exactly. It’s not easy to control your stream when you never had to. When I started to relax, it dripped only, because my thoughts were full of “OMG, be careful! You got your pants on, you might wet yourself!” So my bladder got shy and I stopped peeing whenever I thought that it was too much volume. And when I thought, my bladder isn’t that full anymore, it overflowed a bit. “Shheeesh....need to change my boxers.” It take quite some time to adjust the flow of your urine and to control the volume of it - both at once. To avoid small accidents with overflowing and wet pants, I started to train without pants at first and tried different flows out under the shower to help myself get a grip on it. I even researched on youtube how to pee with a stp-packer correctly. Since I don’t pack everyday (I don’t own too many pants where my dick fits in, haha,), I need to buy some more pants with enough space to pack, in order to get used to it. Most important fact - learn how to control your abdominal and bladder muscles if you want to use a stp-packer, plus your urinal flow. How? When you pee, try to stop the flow like holding back your urine. By doing this, you get slowly conscious of your bladder and abdominal muscles. Then you can try not to hold back your urine completely but to only tighten up your muscle a bit to control the urinal flow. Slowly but surely you will get the hang of it. And try to train with a stp under the shower first to avoid any unpleasant accidents.
New Achievement unlocked! Peecock Gen3S! Part I
... So, where did I left? Yes, after researching a lot and thinking which one is affordable and of good quality, I ordered the Peecock Gen3S!
I read a lot of reviews, and searched for other options - but some were too expensive for an apprentice-wage and others were criticized for being undependable (bad communication, delivery problems and other issues).
After receiving my wage I ordered the 5.5 Inch one and was looking forward to it. The delivery was expected to arrive early January, but it arrived even earlier! I was surprised in a positive way and got my package on 30th December.
Finally, after unpacking it at home, I held it in my bare hands! I examined it on damages and flaws, but it was flawless. Though, the glans of it, is too rosy in my opinion. I looked through the rest of the stuff I ordered: - Comfort Boxer Harness - Pleasure Rod + Kit At first I was afraid that the boxer doesn’t fit me, they looked outrageous large! Fortunately, they fit, but it’s a bit loose on the back (I bought M size, because I wear M size in Germany), therefore I will be ordering an S one next time. The first thing I thought looking at my packer was “Where should I pack it?” My pants are almost all slim fit. At first, it’s a bit weird to feel something pressed up against my own crotch, but I it wasn’t uncomfortable. I was more panicking about where I should place the shaft without people to notice what I got in my pants, lol. I still feel anxious when I pack, since it’s quite large and stable, worrying about whether my crotch looks nature or not. The bulge is too big, if I try to pack the shaft in the middle. Some people pack theirs pointed downwards, with their leg, I tried it out, but it looks ridiculous. It’s too obvious that I’ve got a semi hard-on. After a lot of frustration, try-outs and failures, I end up packing it to the side, within my groin. It doesn’t stand out too much (depends on my pants, though), and it doesn’t feel uncomfortable.
After 237 days of non-activity...
I’m back on the 1.221st day on t! (Yes, it has been quite a long time, I know, and I’m very sorry). Approximately, two months ago I decided on buying a 3-in-1 Packer system (Pack, Pee & Play), due to my journey in this years summer to HK. Before I didn’t have the urge to “have” something in my pants, but lately I’ve been feeling uncomfortable, the urge of wanting my transition to finish arose. I’ve been following some ftms on tumblr and one of them got his bottom surgery. Well, I have to admit, it made me feel a bit envious of him.
If I wanted to, I could have had my bottom surgery already made, but I’m in no position whether I can have my own way now. First, I’ve been an apprentice for about one and a half year now, entered my second year of apprenticeship and my third semester of study. My time schedule is too tight and I’m not allowed to miss more than 10% of my school and work time in this apprenticeship. And I missed about 4% already due to illnesses. Secondly, if I do so, it might be possible that I won’t get approval to take on my final exams. And I don’t want to be held back for another year, just to take my finals. And the last, everything I do now will affect my following life span - be it work (read above), or my health - mental and physical. Of course I feel unhappy to have to wait for it, but it’s all for my own benefit. It’s very important for me to finish my apprenticeship and bachelor to gain a stable work life. When I undergo bottom surgeries it might happen that I can’t work for almost a whole year or even more (I have a stupid health condition, lol), and in order to lessen the risk of not being employed due to my lack of experience or education, I have to wait. (-__-*) (continue next post)
I’m not reliable enough :’D sorry for taking so long to upload a current photo of me. So this is how I look like now. What do you think? Any comments are welcome :)
984th day on t
Dear followers, I apologize for not being active for so long. I’m really sorry, my life is just a mess and everything is upside down right now. A lot has changed since I started my apprenticeship. The past 239 days were really intensiv due to a tons of tests at school. I think I can be proud of myself by keeping up my good grades. The probation is over since April, I thought I could relax a bit... well I can’t relax at all, university started and further tests are coming up. Nevertheless, I’m having fun at work, the people of the different wards at hospital are nice and friendly (at least with me). I’ve learned a lot, like how to make subcutaneous injections correctly, or how to recognize symptoms of cardiac insufficiency or pneumonia. I’m always excited to get back in hospital for work - more than school, since I really hate school :D In addition, I’ve come to meet new people. One of them is a girl, two years older than me and my sophomore. She’s really intelligent and has a wide-ranging knowledge about medicine. It’s very nice to talk to her and work with her together. And I might have developed deeper feelings for her than I intended to. _______________ I don’t really know if I’ve changed that much the past days, but I will upload a current photo :)
Hello guys, these are my voice records over two years.
It starts with: 2 months on t 6.3 months on t 6.5 months on t 7 months on t 8.3 months on t 8.8 months on t 9.5 months on t 10.7 months on t 12.8 months on t 15.3 months on t 16.6 months on t 17.2 months on t 18.6 months on t 19.4 months on t 25 months on t
It’s quite interesting to listen myself, how my voice changed.
Happy Halloween!
2 years on t
Oh yeah. And now I’m officially two years on t :)
745th day on t
Hey out there, I didn’t blog now for about 163 days, neither was I online in tumblr, so I’m very sorry for belated replies. Short briefing - like I posted last time - I was about to close my blog here, but I decided to keep it up (don’t ask me why, I just feel like it). I was working over the past 5 months, now I started my integrated degree program as nurse. But now about some t-stuff: I met some friends in summer vacation, who didn’t see me for almost two years. They were pretty surprised by deepness of my voice and how my body changed. We wrestled for fun, and he would never believe that I was strong due to my appearance. Well, I’m sorry for my poor english, it has been a long time that I needed my english.
582nd day on t
Hello guys, Sorry for being inactiv the last few months, I’m busy with my upcoming finals. Well, I will set this blog offline in the future, but you’re still welcome to send asks in!
498th day on t || 97 days post op Hey it's been a while since I post anything! 42 days are quite long. Quite few things had happened, I switched to testosterone injections and I'm on oestrogen blockers again. Last phase of school has started, only about 2 months left before starting my finals (again, lol). I finally found something that I really want for my future, that's worth taking on this hardship. First step towards my aim - score well at my finals!
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People’s transitions aren’t something you can use as small talk. Just because everyone in the room knows the person is trans doesn’t mean you get to talk about how HRT is affecting them or how they recovered from surgery or how they had this or that experience because of being...
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456th day on t || 55 days post op
Hey there, I got my call from hospital today, they want me in on monday for taking blood work. The doc said it shouldn't be happening, because I'm quite a while on t. Stay tuned!
454th day on t || 53 days post op
Hello guys! First of all - Merry belated Christmas and a Happy, healthy new year! I hope you got a lot of presents and had a good time with your friends and families. After my birthday I had exams, so I was very busy with stu-dying (I really died a lot). It was my first time studying so much. While studying hard I got ill and everything got worse for me. Friend of mine didn't had enough money to cover up is cell phone contract bill, which is made in my name, so I went through work, although my surgeon said, I needed to rest til January. Well, my wounds did heal up, but the right side of my chest has still a light dent. I hope it will fill up soon enough, because I can't wait to go swimming next week! A strange and dysphoria-triggering occurence has come up two days ago. It came back. After a bit over one year. The monthly red threat. I'm kinda shocked, because I didn't know that it could happen again. I consulted my doctors, one of them gonna call me back on friday. So right now I can't tell the outcome of this occurence, whether it will be the last time once and for all. I will blog about it later.