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javadi is me

Javadi is a brown girl prodigy with shaky parental relationships and is incredibly awkward around men.

I have never felt so seen

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it's hard to enjoy things now

like take the Pitt for example. I've been rewatching to get me through summer courses and I've been having so much fun. The show is so interesting and I relate on so many levels to so many characters. But, when I go on TikTok to see edits and interact with fans, I get bombarded by people picking apart every aspect and calling it a shit show.

Like, of course the show has its faults. Of course u can discuss them. Obviously, Noah Wyle does take a major role in the show, and at times it van seem a bit overpowering. But, each season takes place in 1 day. 1 day. Give the show time to stand on its own two legs and flesh itself out a bit before casting such harsh judgements. This is how we end up with shows that are bland and afraid to take any chances.

I also hate how the internet is so condescending to fans. I just saw one of those videos where the creator pretends to be the fandom and themselves explaining the shows faults. And he made the fandom sound like whining babies defending Noah Wyle. Its okay to like the actor. Its okay to love the show. Its okay to not want to dissect it and talk about every little fault.

And I am saying this as a brown woman. I think that whatever problems the show has are valid, but I hate how they are constantly shoved down my throat whenever I go online

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thinking about "I trust you, whitaker" and "one of our most trusted physicians" and hoping praying begging on my knees for dennis to somehow betray that trust in s3. sorry like I love angst plsplspls give me hucklerobby falling out

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and with all the stuff gerran was saying about Whitaker's past coming back in s3. I need them to fight because Whitaker is going through his own worst shift like robby was in s1 (and maybe a little parallel with robby reaching a hand out as a treat)

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the culture of trying to find reasons why someone is a terrible person just because you disagree with them has gotta stop. like sometimes you just don't like me. sometimes you just disagree with my takes. you are allowed to not like someone without trying to rationalize it. I don't have to be a bad person in order for you to not like me lmfao.

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I finished the show, and i genuinely think I'm more obsessed with dorky teen vlad than I was with farmhouse Huckleberry. I loved seeing Gerran grow up throughout the show, and little baby gerran in season one is the cutest thing in the planet.

I also couldn't stop cackling at the special effects (especially the one where vlad projected his face onto the hunters van)

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Ok guys I actually hate how half of the pitt fans are comprised of people that every character should be as good and perfect as possible. I keep seeing people with all these takes about how everyone is racist and misogynistic and horrible. The whole season takes place in one day. I saw someone say how Dennis was misogynistic and racist for not taking the sickle cell patient seriously. That man had been on the job for 2 hours, and was corrected immediately by a woman of colour. I see people talking about how Robby is terrible in the second season to everyone. Why yes, that is the point. The whole second season is about him getting driven to the brink and taking it out on everyone around him- which is plain to see as very bad. I am almost certain they are going to address that in the next season, because they couldn't in this one. You know, because it took place in one fucking day?

Like it is one thing to not enjoy the show, that is 100% valid. It's just its so clear this is baby's first fandom for so many people, and instead of voicing their opinions in a productive manner, they are just talking about how the show is an offensive trash fire and everyone who likes it is blind. I think that there could be so many good discussions about the nuances of the show if people were willing to actually understand it.

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Im only halfway through the show but I headcanon that for renfields birthday one year, the kids bought him a dress. Back when they were little babies and weren't as cruel. He deserves it

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Young dracula is actually the peak cinema I needed after the post Pitt sadness.

Like what do you mean Van Helsing's best disguise ("the dress never fails Jono!") Is just a sundress

I mean I guess it did work on the count

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Ive been shamed. My friend saw my saved folder of gerran howell and told me that I'm a freak for liking his mouse face. Im sad

Her exact words were "he looks like an animal but I dont know what. I just dont like it"

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Next season I want it to center on Amy wanting a romantic relationship but Whitaker doesn't but doesn't understand why. And then we get to explore his past and how he was using the farm as a way to cope with leaving his whole family behind (and maybe a splash of religious trauma as a treat)

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Ok finished watching the pitt and im currently in the phase of the month where I'm fucking obsessed and need more media.

Im watching young Dracula, cuz i wanna see baby garren

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I swear to all that is good and holy if they take my sweet little mouse boy and have him end up w a farm girl I am going to flip out.

He deserves a hot gay romance w lots of character development

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I started the Pitt and didn't understand why we all loved the sad little mouse boy so much.

I started season 2 and saw the mullet.

Im fucking feral

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Guys does anyone have the link to the sasunaru video? U know the one from the edits, where narutos up against a wall and sasukes driving into it? I literally cannot find it and I want 2 put it into an edit for my besties birthday

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Guys the universe was on my side today

I just got my paycheck and took my last exam, and decided to go to the mall. Miniso had 5 jjk labubus left, and I've been wanting one forever. Gojo is one of my favourite anime characters ever as someone's who relatively new to anime. Me and me best friend crossed our finger and did a little prayer and then I got one (she's waiting for a naruto one). I opened it immediately and....

I GOT GOJO!!! hes adorable and his little wonky arms are so cute. I honestly don't care if hes really I just really wanted him.

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Ok this isn't my usual content but i dont know who 2 go 2. Im a teenager and im chubby and I hate myself. I only really have 2 friends, one of which gets about 200 a month to spend on clothes and the other is skinny, popular, and smart. The only thing I have going for me is im smart, but i got a bad test grade today. My skinny friend( dee for short) got a 100 after crying to me all week that she failed. On the last yest too, she was sick on test day and had me tell ger all the answers, so yay another 100 for her while i got a 94. I hate myself so fucking much for not being happy for her but I just want to disappear. How am I going to tell my mom, a math teacher. Im not in any clubs, I wear glasses, and im short and 135 pounds. I love my trio because they're the sweetest people ever but I know in my heart im a bad person. They would be better off without me. I've never been diagnosed with anything but also my Indian parents don't believe in therapy so I cant tell them how im feeling. And its like, being smart is all I have going for me, I cant be fat ugly and stupid, because that would just make me even more worthless than I am. Like I dont want new friends because they've never made me feel bad, but I despise myself and I dont know how to cope with that

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