ZAIDEN @trynabreakme - Tumblr Blog

and i pray, and I hope.

The only one who wants all my attention, time, and continues to annoy me with "something more serious" is my work place.

#damn

I envy people who actually love their jobs. To them it's not even like a work day it's more like just being able to do a nice hobby they enjoy and getting paid for it.

#like damn #good for you wish that was me lol

⋮ ⌗ ┆I hate getting too lost in thought that it causes this nasty anxious feeling rooted deep within my chest. It makes me scared and afraid that I don't know what the future holds and makes me regret so many things from the past. I feel empty and sickly worried.

⋮ ⌗ ┆But then again, how would I be without the me from the past? Am I not what these memories have built me into? Sure I might not have a set path that I can see, there's no visibly permanent link that marks how and what to do. I'm anxious, and feel afraid to be able to do things. What if I mess it?

⋮ ⌗ ┆Is that not what it means to grow? It's okay to do things afraid, scared even. The point is the you from the past and the you of now are in two completely different paths, and even if you say you haven't changed I promise you'll be safe. Imagine what the future you can do, it's okay to dream big and day dream about the life you want.

⋮ ⌗ ┆I might be my own biggest hater, but it could also be me being my own biggest change to living that life I day dream about.

#“promise to love me even when you see all the different parts that make me- me”#life #quotes #deep thoughts #deep quotes #deep feelings #girlblogging #tumblr girls #anxious girl

And im not sure how to say it exactly, but loving you causes a deep despair within me.

#yandere #yanblr #yandere blog #irl yandere #yandere irl #yandere core #yandere post #yandere posting #yandere community #yandere gf #yandere girl #obsessive yandere #yandere weiting #actually obsessive #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #obslove #yande.re #yandere female

⋮ ⌗ ┆Words of poetry spilled from me, transferring from ink to paper. You say you have no effect on people, but I'd beg to differ. I write because of you, like the very blood running in my veins needs an escape into the light so you can admire what you inspire.