追憶の森に捧ぐ

you are me; just as imperfect as i am.

[tsuiokuno]

追憶の森に捧ぐ —

indie selective & private animanga multimuse blog penned by rizu (she/her, 21+). crossover & oc friendly. please read the guidelines before interacting. 18+ only. personals & minors dni.

[nondescriptin-human]

[tsuiokuno]

ooc. happy new years yall. thinking about how hypnos' legal birthday is january 1st because he's so old that no one knows/remembers his actual birth date including himself

[tsuiokuno]

no one asked, and no one needed to know this but:

my hc for youji's original name back when he was in america is johnathan, and he never liked it. he was lowkey relieved when his mom changed his name. the only one he's kind of okay with using that name is his dad (who calls him johnny)

i'm really not interested in doing live action fcs for my muses but deep deep down inside my heart youji's live action fc is uh. zac oyama (him in this video and the ch heist series especially.......)

[tsuiokuno]

and if i say kusakabe took miwa on as his protégé because she reminds him of himself (her desire to financially support her family & protect her siblings) and his sister (her hair in particular). what then

[noahsresources]

IN CHARACTER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT QUESTIONS .

send an emoji/series of emojis for my muse to answer any of the following questions in character! for some questions, there are fields italicized and bolded for you to fill in with the name of a person/place/event/etc in the muse's life. please remember to fill in these spaces in order for the question to make sense! each emoji is described in case you can't see them, and they are listed alphabetically. ♡

✈️ AIRPLANE — have you traveled anywhere that helped you discover something about yourself and/or about the world?

😠 ANGRY FACE — how easy or difficult is it for you to express your emotions? if you find it difficult, what do you think is holding you back?

🎨 ARTIST PALETTE — what are some hobbies that you like to partake in? do you think they're just to pass time or to distract yourself, or do you believe some of them potentially have therapeutic outcomes for you?

🎈 BALLOON — what is something you've created and/or accomplished recently that you're proud of?

🖤 BLACK HEART — what would you say is the darkest thought you've ever experienced? what do you think caused you to have that thought? have you ever planned on or fantasized about acting on it?

🏹 BOW AND ARROW — if there's something from your past that you'd give anything to go back in time and redo, what is it?

💔 BROKEN HEART — is there anyone in your life you wish you had a better relationship with? if so, how come? what makes this person important to you?

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your favorite holiday and why?

🌙 CRESCENT MOON — what would you say is your current biggest dream and/or career aspiration and why?

❌ CROSS MARK — how would your life be different if [name of person] had never been in it? would it be better or worse?

⚔️ CROSSED SWORDS — do you have any skills that you are absolutely grateful you have and that mean a lot to you? how do you usually use these skills? would they come in handy if someone you cared about was in trouble?

🔮 CRYSTAL BALL — what is a core memory from your childhood that you think defines you today?

🗡️ DAGGER — what is something or someone you know you can't afford to lose? how far are you willing to go to make sure you don't lose it/them?

💧 DROPLET — are you grieving something or someone? do you feel like you lost something or a part of yourself with it/them?

😶‍🌫️ FACE IN CLOUDS — is there something you're hiding from the people you love? if so, how urgent is it for them to hear it? what's holding you back from sharing it?

🍂 FALLEN LEAVES — how would you metaphorically describe your life and the journey(s) you've been on?

👻 GHOST — is there someone or something that you feel is missing from your life? do you know if there's any way to find it/them?

🩶 GRAY HEART — what kind of friend do your friends consider you to be (mom friend, uncle friend, funny friend, etc) and why? what do you think this says about your personality?

🤝 HANDSHAKE — do family or platonic relationships mean more to you? or do they mean different things to you?

❤️‍🔥 HEART ON FIRE — what angers you the most? what triggers this anger, and how do you cope with it? what does this anger feel like, if you had to describe it?

💋 KISS MARK — if you had to share a romantic kiss with a loved one, where would you share that kiss and why? are you thinking about giving this romantic kiss somewhere other than the other person's lips?

✝️ LATIN CROSS — are you a religious person? did you grow up religious? does your faith mean anything to you today?

🩵 LIGHT BLUE HEART — what do you fantasize about the most often (generally/sexually/etc)? are there any people that are significant to or that you can see in this fantasy and why?

⚡️ LIGHTNING BOLT — how has [significant event in muse's life] impacted you? what has it made you realize about yourself? about others? about the world?

💄 LIPSTICK — have you had any romantic or sexual experiences that made you realize something about yourself?

🪄 MAGIC WAND — would you describe yourself as a superstitious person (someone who believes in superstitions)? do you believe in luck?

❤️‍🩹 MENDING HEART — how strongly do you experience your emotions? does it depend on who you're interacting with and/or the context of the situation?

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what song lyrics do you think most accurately describe you? your journey through life? who you are as a person?

🫂 PEOPLE HUGGING — generally speaking, do you feel very supported by the people in your life? how strong and cohesive is your support system, if you have one? do you often feel like you're at the front of the line or pushed to the side by the people in your life?

❤️ RED HEART — what is/are your love language(s)? how do you use it/them to communicate your feelings about others?

💞 REVOLVING HEARTS — who and/or what are you most grateful for in your life?

🎀 RIBBON BOW — how confident are you with your physical appearance? is there anything about it that you are insecure about? is there anything about it that you are happy about or gives you confidence? how do you think people perceive you based on your physical appearance?

🧪 TEST TUBE — if you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what is one thing you absolutely have to resolve and/or do before then?

🤔 THINKING FACE — what three emotions tend to dominate your mindset? do you know why they do?

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — is there something or someone you find yourself thinking about more often than other things? if so, why do you think you do this?

💀 SKULL — how has [name of person] 's death influenced your outlook on life, if anything?

☀️ SUN — would you describe yourself as more of an introvert or extrovert, or are you somewhere in between? how come?

🪽 WING — if you could choose to have one superpower for a day, what would it be and why? what would you do with it?

✍️ WRITING HAND — what is one thing you wish you were better at? this can be a tactical skill, social skill, hobby, etc.

[paintingflcwcrsarchive]

popular text posts + ask memes

❛ i don’t know what i’m doing with my life, but i know i’m doing it wrong ❜ ❛ i am so cute and bitter ❜ ❛ my life is one part ‘wait’ and another part ‘what’ ❜ ❛ my #1 talent is saying stupid things to people and immediately regretting it ❜ ❛ i love sleeping to avoid problems ❜ ❛ i hate myself a lot but i get offended when other people do ❜ ❛ i’m hungrier than the neopet i neglected for nine years ❜ ❛ hit me up if you wanna date a piece of shit ❜ ❛ we need some new and more powerful swears ❜ ❛ i get progressively uglier throughout the day ❜ ❛ i’m so miserable, but i laugh at everything ❜ ❛ i need something that is more than coffee, but less than cocaine ❜ ❛ just because you’re trash doesn’t mean you can’t do great things. it’s called garbage can, not garbage cannot. ❜ ❛ 90 out of 10 people agree that math is fucking lame ❜ ❛ if you think i’m ugly now, you should have seen me in 2009 ❜ ❛ 2010 me would literally be terrified of 2016 me and i love it ❜ ❛ i have a rare skin condition called close the fucking blinds ❜ ❛ hey babe, i made you this mixtape for valentines day. i don’t know many love songs, so it’s just uptown funk 18 times in a row. ❜ ❛ there are people who know me in real life who think i’m straight and that’s really funny to me ❜ ❛ i was cursed with expensive taste and a low budget ❜ ❛ yo dude i trusted you wtf the fuck? what the fuck?? what the fuck what the ❜ ❛ open flannel shirts and lingerie are the hottest thing and nobody can convince me otherwise ❜ ❛ i’m the weird dad, wine mom, vodka aunt, and gay emo cousin all in one person ❜ ❛ that awful moment when you wake up ❜ ❛ damn haha i’m going to have to deal with that sooner or later ❜ ❛ are we gonna fucking hold hands tonight or what bitch ❜ ❛ people our age have children what the hell i am a children ❜ ❛ i don’t like your clothes. take them off. ❜ ❛ why am i only motivated to sort my life out at 4 am? ❜ ❛ after i die, i’ll probably still complain ❜ ❛ people are so petty and then here i am, me, an angel ❜ ❛ if i don’t insult you daily, it means i don’t like you ❜ ❛ do something with your life that would make a 1950s straight white man angry ❜ ❛ i need to get laid… to rest. put me in a coffin. let my soul ascend. ❜ ❛ i’m trying to be a better person, but some people are testing me ❜ ❛ i’m overstressed and underfucked ❜ ❛ i can’t wait to be a piece of shit with a bachelors degree ❜ ❛ my emo phase never went away, it just aged like fine wine ❜ ❛ my whole life consists of wondering whether or not to make the bitchy comment ❜ ❛ i don’t have time for people who don’t believe in aliens ❜ ❛ the lack of cuddling i am experiencing right now is upsetting ❜ ❛ why do good concert tickets happen to bad people ❜ ❛ i can’t play hard to get i’m already hard to want ❜ ❛ i’m still pissed off about growing up ❜ ❛ if you listen carefully, you can hear me whisper ‘shut the fuck up’ at least once every five minutes ❜ ❛ when i die i want my heart donated to NASA so they can finally see what a black hole looks like up close ❜ ❛ single and ready to take a 20 hour nap ❜ ❛ write ‘nothing is set in stone’ on my grave as both a witty joke and a subtle warning that i will be back ❜ ❛ how do people even put up with me like i can’t even put up with me ❜ ❛ the opening riff to mr. brightside could literally raise me from the dead ❜ ❛ stale cinnamon roll, been in this world too long, too cynical  ❜ ❛ sorry, i’m poor. i can’t afford to pay attention ❜ ❛ aziz ansari’s voice in the back of my head faintly telling me to treat myself is going to be my downfall ❜ ❛ is it too late to wrap myself up like a baby and drop myself off on a billionaire’s doorstep? ❜ ❛ my neutral expression makes me look like i’m always in a bad mood which is convenient because it’s usually true ❜ ❛ i never run voluntarily so if you ever see me running you should start running too because something is coming ❜

[writingpromptneeds]

winter prompts. ❄️

'It's snowing!' 'I can't believe how much snow there is!' 'Did we get a blizzard?' 'Look at all this snow!' 'How do you not enjoy winter? The snow is beautiful.' 'I want to get cozy by the fire.' 'Some hot coca and a fire would be great right about now.' 'I'll get some wood for the fire.' 'Come on, we'll cuddle by the fire.' 'Let's build a snowman!' 'What happened to him? You ruined a perfectly good snowman!' 'Snowmen are over. It's time for snow dinosaurs.' 'He's so cute! Just look at the snowmen!' 'Wanna go sledding?' 'Don't you dare crash my sled.' 'Have you ever gone sledding before?' 'Oh, come on, that hill is perfect for sledding!' 'I can see it already. Death by sled.' 'Is this your first time skiing?' 'Nothing like zipping down a mountain on some skis.' 'Winter sports are the best part about winter.' 'Yeah, that's a no. I'll just hang out at the lodge.' 'Skiing is overrated. Snowboarding is better.' 'Wanna go snowboarding?' 'I want to do some jumps, come on.' 'You're definitely a snowboarder. You have that vibe.' 'Make sure to bundle up, it's cold outside.' 'Don't forget your winter coat!' 'Mittens! I love them!' 'You should get your hat, it's pretty chilly out there.' 'I can't believe how cold it is.' 'Better break out the winter coats.' 'I am not wearing five layers of clothes.' 'Are you declaring snowball war?' 'Duck for cover!' 'Snowball fight!' 'Hey, watch my head! You almost got me in the face!' 'Don't you dare shove snow down my back!' 'That is not a snowball, that's an iceball!' 'I got some gingerbread kits, wanna try one?' 'You ate half of my gingerbread house!' 'The kits are for cowards. I don't need instructions to build a structurally sound gingerbread house.' 'Yeah, so, all those candies were decorations. Not just a snack for the builder.' 'You bit my gingerbread man's head off!' 'Well, I've seen worse gingerbread creations.' 'What a time of year.'

[tsuiokuno]

ooc. new theme installed✅ muse list updated✅ kaiki's profile written✅

[tsuiokuno]

ooc. kaiki is so funny to me. it's not as apparent in the anime but in the novel he does one thing and then scrambles to mentally justify said action for a full paragraph if not more. and he does this with almost everything he does & say.

[tsuiokuno]

ooc. hii im still alive. i meant to resume activities on this blog as soon as my winter break started like a week ago but then i received a news that got me in such a bad mood that my brain stopped working lol. but i do want to get back into writing so here i am.

anyway i'm thinking of reworking/condensing my muse list, and maybeeee moving tatsuma here bc he was originally meant to be part of this blog.

also!!! i've been reading a bunch of light novels including the koimonogatari/hitagi end arc novel, so i might add kaiki into the roster.

[weltenwellen]

May Sarton, The House by the Sea

[cderiva]

[text, 2:29am] if you’re the one saying it, it doesn’t count. can you read minds?? [text, 2:35am] maybe you leave more of a lasting impression than you think. [text, 2:37am] what got him crying? like did he start crying out of nowhere or was he talking? [text, 2:37am] not exactly “parent of the year” behavior but maybe he needed that moment more than he’d ever admit. still not your responsibility tho. [text, 2:38am] how young are we talking here? bc my brother used to bribe me to clean his room when i was like, 6. [text, 2:39am] are you saying this conversation isn’t the highlight of your night? wow. [text, 2:40am] anyway i just know i'm not getting any sleep so i’m watching this infomercial for world's flimsiest okonomiyaki flipper and waiting for the demo guy to drop the whole thing.

[tsuiokuno]

[text, 2:30am] and why would my perspective not matter huh??? [text, 2:36am] yeah right. [text, 2:38am] uhh we were talking about how suzu's doing at school, and then at some point he said that she's looking more and more like mom as she gets older before going real quiet. [text, 2:39am] after a minute i realized it's because he's crying. [text, 2:39am] so like i get where he's coming from but i also don't know how to respond to that. [text, 2:40am] or if he'd even remember anything when he wakes up. [text, 2:40am] so i just started taking sips from his glass instead :P [text, 2:41am] what the. why would you even trust a 6y.o to do your chores. [text, 2:41am] 10-11y.o i get, but 6??? they're so small, what can they even do. [text, 2:42am] huh. let me know if he does actually drop it.

[tsuiokuno]

not me writing about kusakabe feeling like he didn't leave a strong enough impression to his classmates for them to still be thinking about him post graduation while also hc'ing that he actually had a few people crushing on him during middle school that he just never noticed.

[cderiva]

[text, 2:21am] oh, no, you’re right, who even are you again? atsuya… kusa… whatever. total blank. i already forgot you existed. tragic. :(

[text, 2:22am] you're a very dramatic man. what do you even mean no one will remember you??

[text, 2:23am] i guess that beats the other drunk types but a mellow drunk who cries is still not great. you’re too chill about this, and now i have to be mad on your behalf. like, where’s your break? if i could teleport, i’d do your chores just so you could nap, but alas, my powers are limited.

[text, 2:24am] can’t you bribe someone at the dojo to clean for you? siblings used to pull that on me all the time.

[text, 2:25am] i mean yeah, you're going to be grumpy either way because that's like your whole brand. but at least 2am grumpy is less soul-crushing.

[tsuiokuno]

[text, 2:25am] no i mean. like. remember as in having a strong impression. or shared memories. that kinda stuff.

[text, 2:25am] i'm not being dramatic i'm saying it because i myself don't think i really had any with them.

[text, 2:26am] well i got to swipe a glass of liquor for myself, so i considered us even.

[text, 2:26am] like the only reason i got to drink was because he was too busy crying AND trying to hide that he's crying.

[text, 2:27am] hah?? of course not. they're mainly younger kids.

[text, 2:27am] it's almost half past 2 already is there even still a point to this discussion...

[tsuiokuno]

jjk verse hareluya would def be very intrigued by new shadow style and the simple domain... but would also insist on doing it with his metal bat.

[tewwor-arc]

everyone's favorite driving stress ball ( accepting ) — @tsuiokuno

"I— I'm okay, really." Both hands are lifted in surrender? Reassurance? Defensiveness? Ijichi's not quite sure, but the overwhelming need to downplay the shortened recovery time has him resist any suggestion to rest.

[tsuiokuno]

“you sureee?” he asks, tone clearly conveying just how much he doubts the man. “aren't you like, almost my pop's age? just go take that nap if you need it, man. we got it handled here.” (he is, of course, fully ignoring both that his father is fit and strong—almost scarily so—for his age, and that the manager is definitely nowhere near his father's age.)