things I’m looking forward to experiencing again (based on my past experience):
a prettier, more proportional face
dropping from a DD to an A/B so that I can go braless and bralettes are comfy
running my hands across my bones
a prominent bony breastplate
collarbones that could collect rainwater
freckles settling in on my bonier face
makeup looking more flattering
my hair framing my bonier face
wearing my bodycon and shape framing dresses
wearing super tiny-waist skirts
lifting up a loose shirt or sweater to see my ultra skinny body
my boyfriend jeans hanging off loosely
fitting in only the smallest of sizes
wearing my hair up without worrying about how my face is framed
bloating after eating no longer makes me look 6 months pregnant
shutting up anyone who thinks or tells me i look fat
perfect manicures on my slender nails
shopping for food doesn’t make me embarassed because I’m skinny
occasionally getting “junk food” isn’t embarassing
qualifying for modeling if i wanted to
being stopped on the street and told I’m pretty
my favorite clothes fits me flawlessly
one less problem to worry about
wearing white & light colored jeans without it looking grotesque
wearing shorts knowing they actually flatter me
wearing belts with everything to keep it on me
clothes being too big on me
a sense of accomplishment and pride
fitting into my aesthetic
people mistaking me for a model
walking around a beach without shame
knowing i scare people with how perfectly skinny I am and how little I weigh for my height
not being embarassed to change in front of someone
not embarassed to get a massage (unless they comment “you’re too bony”)
being able to go to restaurants from time to time or pick special days when i can actually eat what I’d like to or try new food
saving a ton of money on food & spending it on other cooler things like traveling or clothes
being light enough that if someone tries to pick me up or give me a piggyback ride, I’m lighter than they expect & thus not embarassed
being more awake even when tired bc I’m always hungry
less surface area to shave
occupying less area in general
being able to not eat for long periods of time
walking around in lingerie without being embarassed
surprising people who havent seen me in a long time with how much skinnier and prettier ive gotten
control over an aspect of my life
control over something that no one can mess with or take away from me
not sweating anymore unless its over 40 degrees C
looking skinny even in snow gear
being cold at night during summers so i can cuddle in a duvet or warm blanket like in the winter
bruising from things hitting my hipbone reminding me of how skinny i am
the power of saying no to food and starving myself
being my own thinspo and thinspo worthy
giving advice & feeling worthy of doing so
feeling worthy of my blog & of going on tumblr
holidays, family time & memories suddenly become so precious
people jealous of my successful weight loss
being a pro at walking bc my endurance from so much walking is really high
a walk to the shower is more fun bc my reflection is skinny
getting a pastry in a nice cafe is charming and appropriate, not laughable
being as skinny as a faerie or a nymph