Killing all the flies

Hello, my name is Sophie. I'm very boring. I post things on the Internet.

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Im meant to be packing my room but I found lots of things that make me sad. A lot of things I probably shouldn’t keep anymore but throwing it all away seems wrong. Maybe I will just post it. Emotions suck. Gonna vote and then eat all of the food and avoid thinking about anything. 

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Joy

© Nur Uretmen

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When your new therapist is shit but you have anxiety so can't ring up and request another person so just have to pretend your fine even though you aren't and you've waited 5 months for an appointment anyway. Actually cry.

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francesco scognamiglio fw 15 / details

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Some wonderfuly fuzzy photos of me that Minto took on a crazy camera. This is what happens when you google yourself and find peoples uni coursework you forgot you were a part of. Love you Minto.

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Pros and Cons of basing my project on my mental wellbeing

Pros: Can be very cathartic Making work about the house is good when your anxiety is so bad you can't leave I've managed to blag a project on my mental breakdowns and making badly designed pieces and lots of lists A place to rant I got to burn stuff I can see small changes in myself Cons: I can't avoid things I don't want to think about Seeing it all on paper makes it real Going over things can make you go from feeling stable to going back to the dark place of 4 months ago The people I need to see it never will

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Look how weird my legs are? My body has changed a lot this year and I'm not too happy about it but trying to accept growth is natural in all of its forms and some months I might be bigger but also I needed to change in order to heal. Listening to fleetwood Mac in my pants making art about how I kind of feel okay right now. I've been scared to let go of this sadness because that's the last connection I have to that part of my life. I need to focus on the future and do everything I can to make it positive. Also look at my new lovely tattoos :)

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Hayao Miyazaki’s Spirited Away Layouts Animated To Life  (no. 2)

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Fox Fur Ballerina Bag @ Ulyana Sergeenko F/W 2015 (Details)

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Second semester. 70 days since it started to fall apart.

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Today is brought to you by pineapple hair and low mood/anxiety. Weak look as always.

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Update

Someone we trusted and brought into our home robbed £200 from one of our rooms which was meant to be rent. Since living with us from January he has only given us (the other 8 people living here) £25 each.

So the past 3 days we have been hiding in our rooms in fear that he will come back because he refused to leave his key. We can’t call the police because the money was from illegally subletting the room. 

This person has been emotionally manipulating me and everyone else since he moved in, has had a massive affect on my recovery, making me relapse multiple times. I feel scared in my own home.

All of this has been happening when I have my deadline tomorrow and am too nervous to even go downstairs alone. 

All over someone misreading a text because they are too high to function. I have no more time for the people I have helped and brought into my life and my friendship group just for them to laugh at me, call me a bitch, physically rob my money and make me terrified of any sound I don’t recognise.

It makes me so sad that people are so lost in their own world they will always see themselves as the victim and refuse to take any responsibility for their actions or even acknowledge the people they are hurting around them.

Fuck you Sam and Ed, literally go fuck yourselves and get the fuck out of my life.

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