swallowing seeds on my deathbed

mj, 28, they/them, lesbian student/organizer/musician icon by hongmunmu previously fenrishawkes

[tyelperinquars]

hello everyone, it's mj

i haven't used tumblr regularly for about five years, subsequently my info is out of date and i haven't gotten the chance to sit at a computer to update it

i'm 32 now and otherwise nothing much has changed. still a tolkien devotee and anarchist. my tolkien collection has tripled, i'm in charge of the bookstores now, i have one tattoo. that's about it

[tyelperinquars]

update to this post, still can't update my blog info so. still mj, 34 now, still a tolkien devotee and anarchist; i run two small used bookstores and i'm a tolkien collector and future professional scholar. my twitter is @ tolkiengay, find me there and follow my silmarillion quotes bot!

[pepsiprophecy]

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[staticwaffles]

ANDOR gifs (13/?)

[deadmansfarty]

wait its fenris friday

[tyelperinquars]

what's up everyone i took a real detour in my life the past couple years, i survived my mom passing away, i divorced my wife, i'm about to celebrate my one year anniversary with my boyfriend from mexico entonces hablo español ahora, i met liv tyler, elijah wood, and sean astin last weekend, i'm going to europe with my dad at the end of april for my 36th birthday, going to visit tolkien's grave. still making it through this existence and even finding a lot of joy these days

[seabeck]

Ivy

[readingismyfavorite]

“Extracting yourself from a cocoon takes time, fierce resolve, a willingness to be exquisitely vulnerable. It feels safer to stay in the space you’re used to, cramped and dark but familiar. Everyone sees that inspiring transformation from caterpillar to butterfly, but did you know that the process of unfurling your wings hurts like hell? You step out of your familiar, comfortable life into the vast, uncharted territory of another. You step with intention into that wide-open space, turn your face to the sky, throw your arms and your eyes and your heart wide open and just pray you’ve got enough grace to accept all that comes. You just stand there, more exposed than you ever thought possible, and say, ‘This is my truth.’”

“Awakenings: Navigating the Spaces Between In and Out” by Jeanette LeBlanc; Dear John, I Love Jane: Women Write About Leaving Men For Women, ed. Candace Walsh and Laura Andre

[zhihuie]

lethendralis 🗡✨️

[1five1two]

'Stormy Landscape'. Penry Williams. 1855-1885.

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happy franz kafka peach embarrassment day

[morticianart]

Memento

[peanuttoffee]

[tyelperinquars]

gonna b real with you all i am very close to ending it. life just doesn't feel worth living anymore and i don't care about anything. i'm in love with my boyfriend but he will move back to mexico and i'll just be here getting drained by everyone else forever of everything with nothing given back and i'm just not about it anymore. death was peaceful at the end for my mom. idk.

[tyelperinquars]

did y'all know that grief turns you into someone you don't recognize and you can never return to your former self

[rwin93x]

Visit Original Link

Los Bunkers - Nada nuevo bajo el sol

Lo intento todo para ser  mejor de lo que fui  de lo que fui hasta ayer  no hay nada nuevo bajo el sol  ni escombros de un amor  que pueda recoger no tengo nada que esconder  no tengo nada que esconder 

[fravery]

Evening By The Pond

by Jan Schmuckal

[notwhelmedyet]

[image: Oil painting of a landscape at sunset, with the sun reflected on a lake.]

The artist has a website where you can see more of their art here.

[tyelperinquars]

hope everyone's doing well in the wake of my mom passing i broke up with my wife and started seeing a guy from mexico who is absolutely blowing my mind in every way. my life is insane but alejandro is a good reason to keep going for a little while.