Digital Diary

I wish that this horrible sickness in my head could just go away

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I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

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I think I lost my ability to love

Because food is bland, music is noise, words are repetitive and my friends are just people. I don’t love these things anymore and thats why life got meaningless and feels like a never ending chore

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You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened The world ended when it happened to me

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Society makes me feel guilty for existing

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How do I tell them that I want to end myself?

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I’m on antidepressants AND antipsychotics and I still can’t manage to keep myself alive

Give me a fucking break atp

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I can’t do this by myself anymore… I’m thinking of reaching out for professional help but I feel like I need some courage to finally talk to a therapist🥹

Anyone got some spare words for me?

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i dream too much and i dont write enough

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Why am I su!c!dal again? Literally nothing happened that could have triggered me lol

I need lobotomy

[uffjustme2]

Tumblr and Reddit are my go to research platforms lol fuck Wikipedia

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Hell fire is warm tho and I love warmth

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And I’m grieving a life I could have gotten if only I felt safe in my childhood

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Go give him everything and watch how you get nothing in Return

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I need to change my ringtone to a good song so I can dance and sing to it whenever someone calls me lol

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My worth depends on other peoples neediness of physical touch btw

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Im screaming in pain begging for help but my words mean nothing because no one can hear me

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Do y’all also swallow A LOT because of sensory issues?? I HATE the feeling of having spit in my mouth!! But forcing myself to swallow hurts after a while because my throat eventually gets really dry lol