Just a Dreamer.

Javier | 17 | Trans ftm 🌈| Little Artist| I'm Tired

[ugh-its-him-blog]

Your boy just finished and submitted his UC app. Hopefully I get accepted 😩

[transpositivity]

While I may not agree with how she portrays trans individuals, I agree whole-heartedly to this quote.

No child, no adult, no person should ever have to feel the pain many of us feel. 

[twinkbugspray]

blink, blink, blink.  this fucking cursor on the screen telling me to write.  something.  anything.  fuck you, cursor.   how many times do i have to tell people my name before i give in and listen to the wrong one.  i listen to hear “he”and “him” like breaths of fresh air, and take ever “she” and “her” like a bullet.  i dress as a man and walk as a man and don’t smile because that makes my eyes light up, makes me pretty - but then i open my pretty little mouth at the cash register, yes, i’d like change, and the game is up.  ”i’m sorry ma’am”.  yeah well, fuck you.   too short.  too curvy.  too pretty.  ”you’re cute when you’re angry.”  yeah, i bet you say that to all the boys.  will i still be cute in a few years with a voice deeper than the grand canyon and scars on my chest?  i hope not.  i hope i meet you at the grocery store and you don’t recognize me.  i’ll ask you if you still think i’m pretty, and you’ll look at this random guy in plaid pj pants and three day old scruff and think he’s crazy.  but i’ll fucking know.  so fuck you.   i got a haircut today, short on the sides, long on top, and i think i recognized myself in the mirror for the first time in years.  only 369 days until i’m 18, and then - oh fuck.  then i’ll be able to sign my own shit.  i’ll be a legal adult.  i’ll be able to start taking testosterone.  fuck.  too far away, and yet almost within reach.  fuck you, mom.  fuck you, everyone who asks me if i’m sure with concern in their eyes.  fuck you, everyone who can’t quite remember to use the name i want them to.  thank you, to those who do.  you the real mvp.  sigh.  just junior year.  i can make it through junior year.  i can do it.  i can do it.  i can do it.   fuck.

an irritated trans dude at 1:37 am (via leggyboy)

Just gotta wait 8 more months and I'm free to live my life as me, not as the illusion painted by them.

[areecepeace]

It breaks my heart when someone says “I’m not out in real life”. Like, their friends and life online are just a fantasy. Well, let me tell you something. Just because you’re not out to your parents or even the friends that you see every day, doesn’t mean that this world online is just a fantasy. Every like, comment, or message has a real person behind it that lives and breathes just like you. They know who you are and know how you feel. Not only are you accepted and respected, you are CELEBRATED.

[healing-better-faster-stronger]

Shout out to people with eating disorders, body dysmorphia, and all other body image issues.

•These problems do not define you. •Relapses don’t undo your progress! •You’re more resilient than you know. •You’re worth it, so never stop fighting! •Recovery is full of ups & downs; it’s never linear. •Give yourself a break– you need time to heal. •Your body is perfect. •Every body is perfect, flaws and all. •You’re worth more than your physical appearance. •People love you for who you are.

[ugh-its-him-blog]

I'm sick, stressed, emotional, and tired What's new with you guys?

[walden-west-deactivated20170623]

200 things you can put in my ask

200: My crush’s name is: 199: I was born in: 198: I am really: 197: My cellphone company is: 196: My eye color is: 195: My shoe size is: 194: My ring size is: 193: My height is: 192: I am allergic to: 191: My 1st car was: 190: My 1st job was: 189: Last book you read: 188: My bed is: 187: My pet: 186: My best friend: 185: My favorite shampoo is: 184: Xbox or ps3: 183: Piggy banks are: 182: In my pockets: 181: On my calendar: 180: Marriage is: 179: Spongebob can: 178: My mom: 177: The last three songs I bought were? 176: Last YouTube video watched: 175: How many cousins do you have? 174: Do you have any siblings? 173: Are your parents divorced? 172: Are you taller than your mom? 171: Do you play an instrument? 170: What did you do yesterday? [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: 168: Luck: 167: Fate: 166: Yourself: 165: Aliens: 164: Heaven: 163: Hell: 162: God: 161: Horoscopes: 160: Soul mates: 159: Ghosts: 158: Gay Marriage: 157: War: 156: Orbs: 155: Magic: [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: 153: Drunk or High: 152: Phone or Online: 151: Red heads or Black haired: 150: Blondes or Brunettes: 149: Hot or cold: 148: Summer or winter: 147: Autumn or Spring: 146: Chocolate or vanilla: 145: Night or Day: 144: Oranges or Apples: 143: Curly or Straight hair: 142: McDonalds or Burger King: 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: 140: Mac or PC: 139: Flip flops or high heals: 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: 137: Coke or Pepsi: 136: Hillary or Obama: 135: Burried or cremated: 134: Singing or Dancing: 133: Coach or Chanel: 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: 131: Small town or Big city: 130: Wal-Mart or Target: 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: 128: Manicure or Pedicure: 127: East Coast or West Coast: 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: 125: Chocolate or Flowers: 124: Disney or Six Flags: 123: Yankees or Red Sox: [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: 121: George Bush: 120: Gay Marriage: 119: The presidential election: 118: Abortion: 117: MySpace: 116: Reality TV: 115: Parents: 114: Back stabbers: 113: Ebay: 112: Facebook: 111: Work: 110: My Neighbors: 109: Gas Prices: 108: Designer Clothes: 107: College: 106: Sports: 105: My family: 104: The future: [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: 102: Last time you ate: 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: 100: Cried in front of someone: 99: Went to a movie theater: 98: Took a vacation: 97: Swam in a pool: 96: Changed a diaper: 95: Got my nails done: 94: Went to a wedding: 93: Broke a bone: 92: Got a peircing: 91: Broke the law: 90: Texted: hour ago [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: 87: The last movie I saw: 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: 85: The thing im not looking forward to: 84: People call me: 83: The most difficult thing to do is: 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: 81: My zodiac sign is: 80: The first person i talked to today was: 79: First time you had a crush: 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: 76: Right now I am talking to: 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: 74: I have/will get a job: 73: Tomorrow: 72: Today: 71: Next Summer: 70: Next Weekend: 69: I have these pets: 68: The worst sound in the world: 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: 66: People that make you happy: 65: Last time I cried: 64: My friends are: 63: My computer is: 62: My School: 61: My Car: 60: I lose all respect for people who: 59: The movie I cried at was: 58: Your hair color is: 57: TV shows you watch: 56: Favorite web site: 55: Your dream vacation: 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: 53: How do you like your steak cooked: 52: My room is: 51: My favorite celebrity is: 50: Where would you like to be: 49: Do you want children: 48: Ever been in love: 47: Who’s your best friend: 46: More guy friends or girl friends: 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: 41: Have you pre-named your children: 40: Last person I got mad at: 39: I would like to move to: 38: I wish I was a professional: [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: 36: Vehicle: 35: President: 34: State visited: 33: Cellphone provider: 32: Athlete: 31: Actor: 30: Actress: 29: Singer: 28: Band: 27: Clothing store: 26: Grocery store: 25: TV show: 24: Movie: 23: Website: 22: Animal: 21: Theme park: 20: Holiday: 19: Sport to watch: 18: Sport to play: 17: Magazine: 16: Book: 15: Day of the week: 14: Beach: 13: Concert attended: 12: Thing to cook: 11: Food: 10: Restaurant: 9: Radio station: 8: Yankee candle scent: 7: Perfume: 6: Flower: 5: Color: 4: Talk show host: 3: Comedian: 2: Dog breed: 1: Did you answer all these truthfully?

[alittlel0st-alittlef0und]

Please

[cranky-blue-crew-blog]

guys please i’m sad again

[shassieobsessed]

Guys guys ask me anything omg 

I’m ready

[ugh-its-him-blog]

Hey, its your local, friendly neighbourhood trans man, wishing those who see this post a happy thanksgiving. I know it can be challenging visiting and seeing family members who don't approve or can come off as difficult. In the end, cheer up guys, I'm proud at how far you've all managed to come as a whole. You are definitely worth the fight and battle that insignificant people throw your way. Smile and love yourself every day.

[ugh-its-him-blog]

My shoe….be looking uglyyyyyyy

[ugh-its-him-blog]

New Project…………..so far so good?

[simplydarko-deactivated20180228]

TRUTH.

[cute-butdeadly-deactivated20190]

My mind cannot be changed to fit my body, but my body can be changed to fit my mind and that is what I need to be done so I may live as I want.

[cute-butdeadly-deactivated20190]

I’m the boy that was born as a girl, and has to prove to myself everyday that I’m man enough for the world.

[ugh-its-him-blog]

Holy shit, that’s me. Anyways, I felt like randomly introducing myself, despite having like one follower lol. Anyways, my name is Javier and I’m a transgender man. I recently created this account to be able to inspire and support those who might be in a similar situation as I am. I hardly ever see any transgender women or men of colour, so I am hoping to inspire a wave of our voices to arise. My art is just art, my dudes. I might use it to simulate an event. But well, yeahh. Feel free to message me if y'all need someone to rant to or for simple advice.

[ugh-its-him-blog]

The eyes got me fucked up. What is life without Halloween all day, every day? Yes I’m late, like hella, but so what?

[mcdannell]

I’m so tired of these generations.. Like where’s the girls who appreciate a guy picking them up, going out on a date not “ Netflix and chill” type shit either, old school shit, buying flowers opening doors, complementing a girl without using the words hot or sexy..dates where your focus isn’t about the hook up but it’s about getting to know someone and enjoying each other’s company, finding out who they are and what they want in life, Instead of a long txt message that takes 5 seconds to read, what about a nice letter that you can’t just deleted with a button, I’m tired of this shit man, be loyal, honest, respectful tell someone how you feel and be straight up with them ..realize what you have when you have it especially the rare people that are in your life the ones who called to make sure you got home ok or the people who asks about you on the daily. The day ones, the people who were there for you when you were at your lowest who saw your raw pure tears flow out of your eyes bc you hurt so bad and you trusted them and only them so much you finally let them in and they stayed for you, the ones who deserve your time, I’m serious, keep those people close bc if you keep pushing them away one day they’ll realize you’re not worth their time..open your eyes and see this world in a different view. Stop staying on this stupid bullshit. Communicate. Be real.

Keegs (via mcdannell)

[ugh-its-him-blog]

So hey guys! I'm new to tumblr and I'm just a small town boy who's struggling to become himself. Name's Javier and I'm hoping to at least inspire a diversity of people!