Il pensiero è un cavallo a briglie sciolte

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Affondano la lama nel tuo petto e poi si aspettano, anzi, pretendono che non sanguini.

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Ti ostini a tenere il pugno chiuso, ma perché? Hai paura di perdere quello che stringi o temi di aprire la mano e trovare il palmo vuoto?

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Se solo potessimo liberarci delle persone come della merda nel water...

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Worst solo time ever: my instrusives thoughts and me, replaying all the shit that happened over and over again.

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Io, che sono brava e mi comporto bene quando mi dissolvo nello spazio e nel tempo, quando resto nello stretto ambito di esistenza che mi è stato allocato e non sconfino, non mi manifesto al di fuori.

Ma perché tolleriamo, accettiamo e ci sottomettiamo a certa merda?

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Non può esserci un epilogo se prima non c'è stata alcuna storia.

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Faccio sempre tutto da sola: io metto il coltello in mano alle persone e io indico dove colpire.

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Why the only way to tolerate this sorrow is by physically abusing myself? It's like a punishment for always being so stupid. For believing in people and giving them a way to hurt me. Over and over.

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Quanti, come me, farebbero meglio a scrivere nella chat con se stessi piuttosto che cercare, ostinatamente, un contatto con persone che NON lo vogliono?

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Such beautiful words, so little meaning behind them..

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Una delle storie più vecchie del mondo: parlano, dipingono scenari, alimentano speranze, discutono di organizzazione e soluzioni e poi il nulla cosmico. E la colpa è tua che avevi delle aspettative, non di chi le ha create.

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C'è ancora qualche dito da mettere nella piaga? No perché evidentemente non è già abbastanza un periodo di merda, il caso, o la sfiga, deve metterci pure le ciliegine sopra.

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I know I'm late as f**k but... I just saw the last episode of Sherlock yesterday and I don't seem to be able to recover from it. Like yeah, I was fond of the Johnlock ship and in the 4 season suddenly it sunk. The authors just had to pull out of the hat Irene Adler, I thought she was gone 4ever but no! In the second episode Sherlock received a message from her and in the third episode it is implied that they had sex!!!!! And in the last minute of the last episode we can see he is typing "you know where to find me" (my mistake, this text it was to Lestrade 🤣 as I watched the last season now and the other three years and years ago, I didn't notice it was the same scene from the first season... A nice way to say that no matter what happens and the changes that take place, something never change). There my ship was pulverised and I can't recover from it.

Just WHY? We didn't hear from her for a long time and then this! Untill these scenes I was still able to dream about Johnlock, but now it's impossible. I can no more make this couple work in my head.

Yeah, John was married, John had a lot of girlfriends (all of them left him because he was too much into Sherlock lol) and John kept saying "I'm not gay!" but it's different... John goes from one woman to another easily, and even though he married, he is now a widower with child.

But Sherlock... I think he is really engaged in relationships. He started off not caring about others but in John he found a flatmate, a colleague, a partner in crime, a friend... And from there he starts to open to other people too, and when he cares I think he does totally, there no half measures for him. He was convinced he needed no one, he thought that emotions and feelings were useless, an hindrance to logic. He believed that all he needed was himself. But then John happened and all his beliefs shattered and his traumatised heart warmed up. If it wasn't for Watson, Sherlock wouldn't be alive, if it wasn't for Watson he probably wouldn't have opened up to The Woman. He got involved with John and he started to feel, to be emotionally alive.

So to hell with Irene Adler, I hate that she popped up like that at the end and destroyed all my fantasies. I can't erase her because she is canon 😭

I just want John and Sherlock together forever with no one in between. The hurt in Sherlock eyes is real at John and Mary's wedding, like there is no place for him anymore, like he is losing someone really important, like he doesn't want to let go and he is feeling lonely. Why did they bring Irene Adler up like that...

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Ci ho stretti così forte nel mio pugno per non perderci, che avevo i crampi. Le unghie scavavano nella pelle. Faceva male. Se questo però voleva dire non rinunciare a noi, non perderti, allora non importava. Ma tu... tu hai rotto una dopo l'altra le mie dita, finché, impotente, non ho potuto fare altro che guardare mentre scivolavamo via, lontani. E nonostante tutto questo, nonostante sia stato tu, impugnando un martello, a fracassarmi la mano, la colpa è ricaduta su di me, io che non sono riuscita a mantenere la presa.

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This anxiety is so unbearable.. it feels like someone is stepping on my chest, crushing me. I feel so suffocated, breathing is hard, my head is in turmoil and my heart is racing like it's going to tear apart.

Am I to live like this, like a prisoner of my own mind? A cage from where I'm unable to escape... This anguish about living is maddening.

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Se gli occhi sono lo specchio dell'anima, o io ne sono priva o la gente è analfabeta e non sa leggere ciò che porto dentro.

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Why does it always seems like it's the end of the world, like I'm going to drop dead, mentally exhausted and pained? And yet here I am, going through some other shit again... I know it's just "a moment", but this moment is tearing me apart. I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. The hurt is killing me.