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Honestly one of the worst parts of an eating disorder is knowing otherwise, knowing better. Knowing it’s completely illogical, having that full sense of self awareness and still feeling completely controlled by it. That complete disconnect between facts, feelings and behaviours and being completely unable to consolidate it together.

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me: why am i so tired?

also me: eats less than the recommended caloric intake for a 6 month old

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my biggest fear is that you’ll start to see me the way i see myself

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I need art, I need affection, I need passion, I need rawness, I need stability, I need honesty, I need connection, I need communication, I need love.

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my brain has too many tabs open

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i hate when ppl make fun of others for being quiet or shy i’m going to fucking kill you

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i have social anxiety karen

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“Hello. You are beautiful. No matter how much you say you are not. You are beautiful.”

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me: *wakes up*

my depression, anxiety, suicidal tendencies and disordered eating : hello motherfucker

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I guess cats aren’t so cold after all

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Depression is not just sadness. Depression is weight that keeps you in bed. Depression can feel empty, like nothing at all. Depression can be unexplainable. Depression keeps yout stuck. Fun can’t fix it. Instead it isolates you from what you love. Depression is an overwhelming numbness.

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a common misconception about eating disorders - and often our own misperception - is that they involve huge amounts of discipline. they don’t. even the most severely self-starved anorexic is not exercising self-discipline. we are sick, and we have misguided brains that are driving us to deadly behaviors. we lack control completely.

the discipline enters the picture in recovery. can you make yourself keep eating when you’re in literal “flight” mode and your mind is screaming at you to get away from the table? can you stay on the couch when your brain is screaming that if you don’t go for a run, you will die? can you ask for the support you need when YOU’RE TOO MUCH is looping non-stop in your head? can you push thru the shame? can you do what’s healthy when the only way you knew how to feel safe was being sick? it’s not for the faint of heart.

people in recovery have the kind of discipline that saves lives; people w eating disorders have the kind of illness that takes them.

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No one really understands how much compliments actually mean to me, like I sometimes brush them off with a joke and a quick “thank you,” but really, I remember compliments forever, so if you’ve ever complimented me or done something nice for me, thank you so much.