Personal Almanac Of Unspoken Words

On the pursuit of happiness one meme at a time.

[poemswords]

[sunsetquotes]

“Travel far enough, you meet yourself.”

— David Mitchell; Cloud Atlas

[sunsetquotes]

“I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the stregth to start all over again.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[undeafenmyheart]

Sometimes you just have to appreciate and realize the vastness of this earth. You will then realize how absolutely small you are. You’re but a speck of dust in the light, so insignificant. Yet, when you find the one that makes you flutter, you’re filled with what seems like the happiness of whole world.

[escafeism]

“It’s really nice when someone actually wants to talk with you. By talk, meaning to understand you more than what you’re saying.”

— 𝓭.𝓻.𝓷 

[undeafenmyheart]

Just like me they long to be close to you.

[gagolangako]

You're my "tangina okay lang basta ikaw" in this world of "puta sagad na sagad na talaga ako"

[inhinyerongmakata]

Not all heartbreaks are the same, but all are painful if the relationship was serious. Emotionally broken na nga, physically weakening pa. Yung tipong malungkot ka na nga, di ka pa makakain kahit masarap ang ulam. Minsan other tends to suffer also from spiritual weakening. Yung tipong you just keep on asking our loving God why situations like these happen.

You’ve been listening to every sad songs in your playlist. Cried every tears na tila bang mata mo ay dehydrated na; talo pa ang tigang na lupa sa bukid. You also became angry at God throwing words to Him, describing Him as a God that He’s not, opposing the loving God you’ve once known. Yung tipong mala John Lloyd ang pagbato ng linyang, “Akala ko ba You are good, but why should this relationship needs to end.” Why do heartbreaks happen? Why would a loving God let this happen to me? How could I move on in a Christianly manner? Should I try to enter relationship once again? Will I ever find the right one?

God is love.

We need to understand that He is perfect in all His ways, and we’re not . That He knows what is best, and were not. That not all the answers we’ve been praying for are not always “Yes.’ We view relationship as something that we can control, something that we can work out on our own, that in the end, hindi niyo na alam that it was already broken. Even Christians are not also immune to broken relationship.

Pinangungunahan kasi natin ang plano ng Panginoon. When we think the time is right, but the motives are not, we are heading ourselves to the pit. “Lord, ramdam ko na, siya na.” “Lord, patrang right time na.” Not knowing, when we enter such things like these, we are preparing na already for marriage. Paano kung right timing, at right motives? To answer that is also a question, why did the relationship gets broken? How did you handle it?. What God had plan (right person) for you, He will never separate, even in hard times. If you’ve given it up for such reasons, then maybe that person is not for us. For love is worth fighting for and never seeks the wrong of others.

Of all the things I have learned from love, it is more than just a feeling na kung ramdam mo ay siya na talaga. Sometimes we base love according to our emotions. Minsan according to the looks or to the attitude.We thought love is all about matchmaking. “Maganda siya, funny ako. Bagay kami.”  Hindi dapat ganun. Since pinangungunahan natin ang Lord, we tend to commit these things that lead us into our own destruction.

Broken relationships happen. We may have different stories, but the results are all the same. Broken. Masakit.

Why do this situation happens?

I remember a verse in the Bible that says “ Do not awaken love before it is ready.” Song of songs 8:46b. In fact I memorized it by heart. Yet I never learned from it. God gave me the warning, pero sadyang makulit ata talaga ako that soon leads to being broken.

Of all the things that God is teaching me, it is always patience. I’m always in a rush na tila ba mauubusan ako ng panahon kapag di ko masubukan ang magmahal. As I was meditating on that verse, I have found my own fault.

IT WAS NOT READY.

Isang malaking sampal na babakat sa gwapo kong muka. I found myself trapped sa salitang “parang.”

Naalal ko ang aking kaklase, nung nasambit ko ang salitang ito. Sabi niya, “Oi Da, kapag sinabi mo ang salitang ‘parang’ may katumbas na kabaliktaran. Walang kasiguraduhan.”

“Parang madali” sa “parang hindi madali.”

“Parang siya na” sa “parang hindi pa siya.”

Walang kasiguraduhan. When you are truly ready and sure, love will also be awaken.

We tend to rush things out of patience, that even when we are not yet ready, sinusunggaban na natin. We cry because we tend not to balance things out. Priorities over love? We hurt ourselves in the end dahil alam nating hindi pa oras para pumasok sa relasyon. Kaya nga kapag pinagsabay sabay na nating lahat, nahuhuli na nga ang pag ibig, dehydrated pa ang mata mo kasi di mo na mapagsabay ang lahat especially love, dehydrated na nga, napag iwanan mo pa si Mahal, then it leads to heartbreaks. We should also make sure na hindi lang dapat tayo ang sure at ready, dapat ready at sure din si the one. Why? Because if two are both ready, he or she can understand no matter the situation is.

Love knows its time, and will always know when it is ready. You can not force it.

Funny to say, we tend to limit God about the fact that He s always all knowing. Even in the matter of choosing kung sino si The One. God knows, but because we tend to seek decision on our own, instead of a beautiful rose ang nakuha natin, we always get the thorns.

God know the masterplan.

Yes, you’ve been trying to find thae right one. Yes, you’ve been finding answers. Jeremeiah 29:11 says

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ”

Alam ng Lord ang plano ng buhay mo. Alam ng Lord kung ano ang best para sayo, even in the aspect of relationship at kung sino si The One. If you’ve been finding the right one, put God always on the equation. Why? as we read the verse, God says He knows the plan in our live. Hindi ikaw ang may bhawak sa plano ng buhay mo kundi siya. If only we separate our own choices and follow His own then maybe situations would be different,

“Pero Kuya, sira na relationship namin. Hindi ko na kaya.”

Jesus said, “In this world, you will have trouble.” John 16:33

Jesus di not promise us that life in this world will always be easy. In fact, ang sabi niya’y makakaranas tayo ng pighati at problema. Bacause of our own doing, pinapahamak natin ang sarili natin. Even though we commit mistakes that lead to trouble, God can turn these problems into testimony.

“Have courage, take heart. I have overcome the world.” Tibayan niyo ang inyong loob. Napag tagumpayan ko na ang sanlibutan.

The warning that tere are troubles in life is a promise that He has overcome the world. Akalain mo yun! You’ve been broke, yet take heart! God is with us.Turn these afflictions into something that makes a better you.

“Pero kuya, siya na kasi talaga!”

I am not here to say na tigilan mo na. In fact I don’t have the authority to judge if that relationship is worth the fight. Hindi ko sasabihing “Mag sorry ka sa kanya.” or “Itigil mo na.” Ang katotohanan is is Him alone, mas totoo pa sa feelings mo sa crush mo. Listen to the still small voice that comes from Him. Sabi niya, “The truth will set you free.”

Don’t try to include emotion in deciding over relationship. You’re broke! But God is also close to you. Another promise from Him. God knows the desires of your heart and He is all knowing. God knows best. Pray for understanding His thoughts in making decisions and not by your own emotion. Why pray for understanding? Isang simpleng sagot sa isang simpleng tanong. Because His thoughts are always higher than us. It is hard for us to decipher or intindihin ang mystery ng buhay that only Him knows the answer.

Paano naman ang mga broken in pieces, still praying for the one.

“Kuya, should I still enter relationship once again?”

The answer is simple. FAITH! if you believe na may Right One na darating, then by faith, enter relationship, but before entering, make sure that both of you are ready. By faith, mahahanap mo din siya, and by faith God will bring him or her closer to you at the proper time. Hebrews 11 talks about faith. In this chapter, FAITH is defined as the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen, it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

If you believe, it will happen. Take relationship maturely, as God is so extravagantly serious for giving us the right one.God knows best. Always. Aam Niyang we are not created to be alone in this world kaya He made si The One. Unless You have the gift of celibacy. (Hindi makakapangasawa.) Pero sabi ko nga, if you believe, magkakatotoo. What God had created for six days is for the benefit of men. That includes right relationship. By faith if you believe na may Right One ka, the I repeat, it will happen.

Girls be a matured Christian woman. Boys be  a matured Christian men.

Yes, you are broken. maybe you’ve been crying for that broken relationship. Maybe you’ve been playing for sad songs on repeat. Take heart! He have overcome the world. Instead, think of all the good things He had done and also a promise that there is more to come.

A line from  a song says “Waiting for the day ‘til I hear You say here is the one I have created just for you.’“

Believe and it will happen. Also, always remember that God is love no matter how heavy your situations are. Kaya smile, you’re worth loving

 Believe and it will happen.

[euphonystar]

I

Akin nang tatapusin ang mga gabi ng pagluha Mga tanong na walang tugon na makuha Ang paggunita sa iyong mukha Paghihilumin na mga sugat na tinamo Ng pusong nasaktan nang husto

Salamat sa lahat ng lungkot at ligaya Sa mga masaya’t mapait na ala-ala Sa mga aral na sa ‘yo'y aking nakuha Sa sandaling panahon na tayo'y nagkasama

Handa na akong tanggapin na wala ng Tayo Na sandali lamang ang parte mo sa buhay ko Na hindi talaga ikaw ang para sa puso ko Pinapalaya ko na ang aking sarili Mula sa tanilakang ala-ala ng dati

II

Masakit man ang ginawa mo'ng paglisan At ang iyong biglaang pag-iwan Hindi na hahayaang manirahan Ang galit sa aking puso’t isipan

Paunti unti ay akin nang susubukan Na kalimutan ang ating mapait na nakaraan Ngunit kung sa paglimot ko ako'y masaktan Tatanggapin ko kung kinakailangan

Ako'y magsisimula ng panibagong landas Hindi na muling babalikan ang mga oras At ang mga pangako ng pag-ibig na wagas Buburahin ang lahat ng natitirang bakas Ng pagmamahalan na tuluyan nang nagwakas.

Collaboration by: @euphonystar (first) and @scribblermikay (second)

[matabangutak]

Masaya yung relasyon na cool lang, yung relasyon na sobrang open sa isat-isa. At the same time nirerespeto pa rin ang bawat karapatan ng mga ito. Napakasarap magkaroon ng relasyon na halos parang kaibigan mo lang din kung biruin mo, yung parang walang nagbago sa inyo, may pinang hahawakan lang kayong dalawa na salitang “KAYO", “TAYO”.

Napakasarap nga naman kapag naging consistent yung pagsasama niyong dalawa, yung dumaan talaga sa proseso at hindi talaga biglaan lang ang lahat ng nangyari.

Kakaiba nga naman kapag palaging game ang bawat isa sa lokohan, at lalo na palaging nagbibiruan na may kasamang harutan. Mga pasimpleng banat ni lalake at mga pasimpleng lambing ni Babae. Hindi man perpekto ang relasyon, ang mahalaga masaya ito.

- Isa sa Page ng Pag-Ibig Thingy Book.

[medyopogiperobastos]

“I’m the type of person who easily gets attached to the people around since I do care; most especially when they show to me that I am appreciated and wanted. But it’s one of the things I hate about myself because you know, some people are deceit. They will show you that they care for you then one moment, they’ll treat you like trash. And the moment they ignore me– the fire for me to feel like shit will start to ignite. It sucks, terribly sucks. That’s why as much as possible, I’m trying to build walls around me to save myself and my heart from being broken.”

—

[themostawesomebitch]

Some nights, I cry because I miss you. I close my eyes and struggle to breathe. How can I inhale without wanting to take you in? Other nights, it isn’t as hard as this. I think of you and distract myself then I move on. I read our past conversations, laugh at how good we were then sleep. But nights like this, it’s hard to ignore. Everything inside me is yearning for something that it will never have. How can you satiate this kind of longing?

All that I can think about right now is that I want you. I want to straighten your collars to make sure you’re good for the day and kiss you on your cheeks to make the other girls jealous. I want to hold your hand just to assure you that you are not as empty as you seem and I am not as hollow as I assume to be. I want to touch you, undress you, show you that the world is not as lonely as how you write it and prove to you that you belong somewhere. That you belong to me. I want you to know that even if it doesn’t eventually get better, I will not go away. That even if you’re surrounded with everything temporary, I will remain constant.

I want to love you in a way that you deserve to experience it. No tragedies. No teeth. No bleeding. Just the pure kind of love that isn’t contaminated with doubt and guilt and pain. I want to unwrite your scars and undo your misery.

But I am afraid that the moment I let my heart bare in front of you, you will run away. You will shut your door and severe every tie that connects me to you. I want to keep you so much that I am willing to let the distance stay just so I can watch you from afar. Missing you is better than not knowing anything about you at all.

And now I keep on thinking about how cruel the world can be. How you can love someone with the greatest intensity and you can not have the chance to show it, to express it for real. How you can meet the one then realizing that they can not be with you. How you can cry at night because of how you miss someone and how it is all that you can do about it.

There is something permanent about the way I love you. So maybe I will miss you forever. Spend all these kind of nights crying forever. And it’s funny because I don’t even believe in forever. But I believe that my heart might always belong to you even if we might never meet at all.