Mindless Nothings

[unfriendlly]

all your blood in the water and i could still wade through. and i will again. and i will again. and i will again with everyone i lose.

-andrea gibson

[undeniableemotions]

Also worrying about you because it seems you're not really active on social media. I fully it if being absent on social media is helpful, by the way! And not seeking/asking for intel on your life (unless you actually want to share)! Honestly just sending you the best and hoping for all good things for you!

I’ve just come to realize that most things going on I prefer to keep relatively quiet. I’ve had a lot of big stuff happening but sharing with many people who are relative strangers to me doesn’t feel like the best way to go at this stage of my life. I’m still active on instagram mostly in terms of seeing what others are up to and messaging, and sometimes I’ll post a story related to what’s happening in my own life but that’s about it for me these days.

[undeniableemotions]

How are you? Been worried not seeing you active here or elsewhere very often... I hope you are ok and have enough support!

I’m hanging in. I don’t come on here much at all anymore and generally have been using social media less, which I think is good for me overall.

[undeniableemotions]

taylor swift played haunted at my show after i talked to mama swift and told her that the wait for midnights and then the eras tour had been keeping me going for months and cried and taylor made eye contact with me and andrea said something about my jacket that i painstakingly hand placed rhinestones on (and andrea liked it!!! and scott too!!!) and i’m choosing to believe that taylor played haunted for me specifically even tho that is delusional but like blonde knows that jacket girl is haunted by some shit so she did that for me, that’s my story in my head.

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

screaming

[undeniableemotions]

I am trying to do a “no-spend” challenge for the next couple of months. In order to decrease my level of my personal world suck and financial stress. Which means no more Starbucks/other coffee shops and only Awesome Coffee Company coffee. What are people’s strategies to make it in bulk for cold brew? Is there a good large cold brew container I should use? Or maybe make smaller batches of concentrate every day? What is the best ratio of beans to water?

Please help.

(P.S. john if you see this TATWD literally changed my life and I have made art with quotes from it and made my therapist read parts of it to better understand my brain, and I had just started seeing her at the time so it was very helpful to have that)

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

bro is twitter that dead

Twitter is much worse than merely dead.

I'm not sure you've ever been in this situation, but once someone who'd caused me a lot of trouble and pain and fear and torment died. And after they died, I thought, "Oh, thank goodness. Now I am free." But actually I was not free, because the trouble and pain and fear and torment were still present, even if the person was past. And then it was in some ways worse, because I realized that the trouble and pain and fear and torment were not contingent upon the life of this person; those feelings could survive even the person who caused them.

I know this is not entirely relevant to your question; it is only to say that twitter is not dead, and even when it is dead, it will still be capable of causing harm. Anyway, this is not the kind of stuff that I, as a coffee company who is not an individual, usually talk about. But it is late at night on a Thursday, so we're making exceptions.

[funnytwittertweets]

[mintytrifecta]

[p33p33p00p00]

can you please elaborate on this

[shortgremlinman]

hey uhhhhhh OP. im begging you. tell us more

[literary-squagon-deactivated202]

OP this is gonna keep me up at night

[mintytrifecta]

DNCJSJSJDJSJ OKAY SO

Donald’s family is composed of three branches. The McDuck Clan, Coot kin and the Duck family.

Coots are smaller birds that often get mistaken for ducks and while Coot can be used as a last name like how Duck or Mouse are common last names in the duckverse (like Johnson or Smith etc) I doubt that Barks and Rosa went out of their way to give them a last name without it having some biological meaning as well.

Donald’s dad, Quackmore Duck, is the son of Elvira Coot and Humperdink Duck. Now, unfortunately we don’t know much about Humperdink’s parents but we’re given enough tools at our disposal to figure enough out.

Donald’s mother is Hortense McDuck, a fiery duck from Scotland. As far as I can tell, duck is all she has.

So that’s it right?? Donald is part duck part coot??

NOPE

THERE’S SOMETHING ELSE

DONALD’S PART GOOSE AS WELL

The guy who looks high at the bottom left corner of the picture there?? That’s Gus Goose. He’s a semi-distant cousin of Donald’s related to him from his father.

Now it’s implied from the family tree that the goose part for Gus came from Luke Goose which is fine and dandy and it could very well have been from him. But again, it doesn’t have to be the only source of goose in his family. (and it already isn’t considering Gladstone Gander canonically being half goose half duck)

Humperdink’s parents are unknown right?? Who’s to say he isn’t part goose as well? Maybe he got it from his dad or mom who knows they’re not in the tree. And if he’s part goose part duck, then Quackmore is goose-duck-coot mixed.

Going by all of this, we can say that Donald Duck is 2/4ths Duck, ¼th Coot and ¼th Goose.

[mintytrifecta]

[calamity-unlocked]

@izzizzels

[undeniableemotions]

so. my cat is sick. i don’t know what it is. she’s had symptoms for a while that the vet’s been treating and the past week/5 daysish things have gotten worse. she has an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow. i wish i felt like i had a grasp on all of the things it *could* be. right now my thoughts are lymphoma and ibd.

it’s so painful. she’s acting okay other than the stomach symptoms and loss of appetite, but she’s been eating these high calorie kitten supplements i found (she loves them, eats them so fast). otherwise she’s acting normal, her usual snuggling and sleeping and playing with her laser pointer. there was a day she was hiding more and i called the vet and got some pain meds while we wait for a diagnosis and better idea of how to move forward, and the meds have helped.

flit became my cat months after the abuse ended. and then i went to college and was away from her when bad things happened again. but she has never been with me when something bad has happened. she’s my protection, she is the world’s truest emotional support animal. she sits with me while the flashbacks and body memories and panicked racing thoughts build up, she’s groomed tears off of my face, she is there when i wake up from nightmares. she’s kept me going for a long time.

i don’t know how serious what’s going on is. i don’t know what decisions i’ll have to make for her. but i know that i’ve had people who were supposed to take care of me make horrible decisions for me that have caused so much pain and suffering and confusion, just for their benefit. and i will never do that to her. i will make decisions that put her first always, regardless of how painful they are to me. and for now, i will snuggle with her and play lasher tag and give her the treats she likes and just love her as fully as i can. this cat saved my life, and i will do everything in my power to make her life as good as possible.

[sophielovesbooks]

How old were you at the lowest point in your life? Reblog this and put it in the tags, plus your current age maybe. I'm trying to see something.

[undeniableemotions]

i don’t have the social media following or the ability to publicly say some of this in a way that could get to various family members but all i want is to personally tell taylor swift how much would’ve should’ve could’ve and bigger than the whole sky have meant to me. how would’ve could’ve should’ve put into words something i have been unable to, that i’ve cried and sobbed and felt heartbroken because i was just a kid, i was so little, and hearing taylor’s music say “give me back my girlhood it was mine first” hurts and feels so relatable all at once. i was a *child* and they took it. they took that from me.

and bigger than the whole sky came at a really poignant time for me. the people who follow me on my private instagram will likely understand why. the grief i feel that i feel no right to feel, but that i carry and that suffocates me anyways, that i feel so alone with as i celebrate my best friend with some exciting news for her that triggers the waves of grief and overwhelming sadness and loss for me. at this time of year specifically.

so if anyone knows of a way to somehow tell dr taylor alison swift what these songs have meant to me, how much her music kept me going both as a kid and with this new release. how my mental illnesses and trauma have consumed me and knowing that this album was coming kept me alive. and the tour is hopefully going to do the same.

[undeniableemotions]

Wha happened with your borderline emotionally abusive skating ?

she legit just sucked like she told me that i had a tummy/was fat when I was like 8 and screamed at us just so unnecessarily and legitimately told me i wouldn’t go far in skating and so many other things i was with her teams for 7 years and it really really affected me, a lot of other girls on her teams have felt the same way and a large number have dealt with varying mental illnesses and feel that she is a contributing factor

[undeniableemotions]

I don't know why but looking through super old posts and if anyone cares- the us center for safesport actually just finished a super long 2+ year investigation and found that she was, in fact, abusive! and she is on probation!

tbh they dismissed some things that i don’t think they should have and i actually like a week after they made the decision got access to medical records that like discuss some of the shit they dismissed (like she restricted our water intake, and at least 2 of the older than me skaters at the time had to get prescriptions from their doctors to be able to drink water when needed... but she/other people said that we got water breaks every 20 minutes so apparently it’s fine that people passed out and puked from dehydration until they got notes??? I don't know the examiner for the investigation also just does not understand how difficult skating is and like 20 minutes of some skating things i’d be fine without water but if I did a 4 minute run through and had to wait 16 minutes for water and do more intensive stuff i’d probably pass out?) and i debated sending it to them especially because she was considering asking for a hearing to contest the decision but she ended up not doing that and i decided that for now i am too tired to deal with it. 

i did email the team she now coaches with (her team fell apart because she lost hundreds of skaters because of how awful she was and then they sucked and lost the club’s sponsorship and then the only people left graduated) and tell them about the investigation because they don’t post probations publicly on the safesport website (which seems dumb) but i felt they should know and tell the parents/skaters because like had we known that some of what she did was actually abusive she would’ve been reported years earlier (the investigation literally spanned like 13 years and they found evidence that there was abuse that whole time). they let me know they were talking to the center for safesport to understand what was “best practices” so i have no clue if they told anyone.

[undeniableemotions]

I need to see lupin in a dinosaur fit end of story

Ask and you shall receive

[undeniableemotions]

Omg stop both your pets are actually so cute!!! Very beautiful babies

THANK U I AGREE

(i am currently trying to decide what lupin should be for halloween, dinosaur of sorts is currently my top idea but ups driver carrying a package is also up there, will take suggestions from y’all)

[undeniableemotions]

how does Flit eat without teeth? i guess the question is more what does she eat :D

If you feel alright sharing it, why does she have no teeth?

she actually can eat hard food, i guess most cats don’t really chew lol, but she eats it too fast and then gets sick so i give her a wet food that’s meant for senior cats (she will be 14 in december/january ish). i’m currently looking into switching her wet food actually to one that comes in the smaller 3oz cans instead of the bigger 5.5oz because she wants it as fresh as possible but doesn’t like it when it’s cold from putting some in the fridge. i also don’t want to microwave it and have the apartment smell like wet food lol.

we got flit when i was 13 in 2010 and she was probably like almost 1.5 at that point. prior to that she had been kinda an outdoor cat that my friend’s family took care of, and they took her inside when she was pregnant. my friend and her family moved overseas and my family initially was just taking one of her kittens, Miracle (who was my sister’s cat), and then we ended up taking Flit too. so prior to that i don’t think she’d had any veterinary care tbh. and the vet we used i just don’t think ever recommended a dental cleaning and exam! so when she came to school with me in the beginning of 2018 and i got her set up with a new vet, they did a dental and all her teeth other than one were needing to come out due to gum disease and other things, so they ended up taking them all including the one good one since that probably would’ve ended up needing to come out later anyways.

thank u for asking pet questions, i am always down to answer things about my babies

[undeniableemotions]

Toothless yawn photo?

ask and u shall receive