I expected the sdv brainrot to be gone by now... it is not. I got too attached to Sam, I analyzed scenes and dialogue like a detective, I gave him angst and family trauma that's coming out as "I must be overly positive 24/7 to make sure other people are happy and so I don't have to think about my life. this is my purpose" as a result. My man is coping by being whimsical and acting like nothing bothers him but he definitely cries in the shower and has notebook pages full of angry pencil scratching instead of lyrics. He has no healthy or safe space to express emotions because he's worried about stressing out and bothering his mom even more so he just does nothing, all thoughts and feelings that aren't "good" go into the guitar case in his brain and shut tight. Just playing the role so he doesn't cause problems for anyone because that's the last thing he wants, that's why he never stands up for himself and is afraid of conflict, very "can't we all just get along?" as people walk all over him
Sorry to Sam post but I love him, I want to ship him off to therapy asap then wrap him in a blanket and give him a forehead smooch afterwards. His life makes me so sad and I'm weak to "look how silly and happy I am!..... *crying noises*" characters. That's truly my kryptonite

















