used to pull down my sleeves, used to put makeup on, so everyone would think i'm fine and nothing's wrong
hey everyone, it’s avery asphodel thomas, back in style after my former blog was abandoned.
i buried all the pain, used to feel so ashamed of all the things I wrote about myself with razor blades, but i'll keep holding on, until the final page, survive the story 'cause the ending changes everything
i have a weird situation of gender. i’m genderfluid, but only between nonbinary genders. please ask my pronouns each time you interact with me :)
and now i wear my scars just like tattoos, because i'm so damn proud of what they put me through, i've learned without a doubt every mark that makes you feel worthless can give you a purpose
my tags:
#avery’s depressing thoughts - my token tag, used for everything (except for posts that are solely song lyrics because i tend to do that a lot, the other alters don’t tho)
#avery's school struggles, for posts about my school life. god i hate it. we all hate school though, anything else new?
#avery’s gender & attraction, for anything that’s even remotely gay or trans about me or us
avery’s food thoughts, for posts where we obsess over food. we have an eating disorder, and our alter ana is behind it. we’ve tried to kick it out numerous times, and succeeded for about a week. then it came back. (i’m honestly not sure how much of ana is an alter versus just a personification of our eating disorder, but the other alters insist.)
#avery’s social life, for posts about my friends and/or lack of friends
#avery does a happy, for happy posts
#avery’s weird brain, for when i want to post about: autism, adhd, mental health struggles, or plurality
#avery writes stuff, for posts where we write stuff and i want to share it
#avery sings in harmony, for posts where i interact with other members of the harmonic~collective.
and now i wear my scars just like tattoos, 'cause i'm a miracle, every cut is proof, another chapter written in the story, what couldn't kill me made me something so brave
miscellaneous facts:
our time zone is est-us in case you’re wondering.
the system is anattractional and abroplatonic, because some of us feel platonic attraction more than others.
i’m grayplatonic, which for online friendships means i may not interact with you much unless you persist.
i don’t have object permanence, which means i remember you exist, i just forgot to interact with you. (irls for some reason you’re exempt from this.)
oh by the way, rylie is my canonical sibling within the system. we’re fun like that.
i wear 'em like tattoos
-avery asphodel thomas (lyrics from tattoos by citizen soldier)
