We are the Untamed Houndz (or Hounds). we have many names but you can call us Hound (or the Untamed Houndz/Hounds). we are a DID (CDID transitioning to HCDID) system of 100+ and we are namely; protogenic, traumagenic, willogenic, neurogenic, and addgenic. we are also technically a gateway system. some headmates' are spiritual in nature but, due to trauma, we are uncomfortable referring to it as spiritual.
Please use he/it to refer to us collectively. we use plural pronouns over singular pronouns. For our general IDs and specific headmate IDs go to our prn.cc (link)! We don't include transIDs there nor is every headmate there but it should give y'all some general info on us.
We rarely engage in discourse regarding specific beings!! If we interact with a being who is genuinely harmful, please let us know!! We just don't like getting involved in drama between beings unless they are genuinely harming other beings!!
ID list under the cut!
ID list (we frequently forget aspects of ourself — will add to over time)!
CisIDs: autism, NPD, STPD, CPTSD, plural, polyfragmented, nonhuman, sweet tooth, problematic, insomnia, ARFID, tourettes, trypanophobia (needle phobia), dissociative amnesia, MaDD, bad memory, psychotic, night eating syndrome, czech, german, yumeshipper, clinodactyly of toes ("curly toes"), synesthesia, medical trauma, dyscalculia, BIID
MUDs: addictive alter forming disorder (AAFD), obsessional force split and expand system disorder (OFSaESD), capability incongruence disorder (CID), burnt commitment disorder (BCD), avoidant attention syndrome (AAS), abyssal alienation syndrome (AAS), species dysmorphic disorder (SpDD), plural dysphoric disorder (PDyD), fluctuating addiction disorder (FAD)
we are also a paraphile (both disordered and non-disordered) though we don't feel like explicitly stating which paraphilias. we will state we are anti-contact for paraphilias that would cause harm to act on. so basically we're anti non-consensual harm. more or less we are fine with contact that is actually consensual and we're against anything that is not consensual. our contact stance is just very nuanced and hard to describe. sorry if this is worded badly.
blue means we are actively transitioning for the ID and purple means we want to transition but aren't (yet)!
No DNI! follow your own. we also block freely.
stances we have : pro-para, proship, profic, pro-rq (we are more rq-adjacent but interact with rqs), pro-endo, pro contradictory labels, anti-noncon harm, pro-consent. . . we may have forgotten the rest — our contact stance is too complex to label as well.
Hi! In your bio it says that you are prorecov for people who have paras, does that mean your prorecov for offenders/preds as well?
Im not going to elaborate on this too much just because my opinions on being pro-recovery is somewhat political (and I don’t want to talk about politics on my blog lmfao) but yes, being pre-recovery does also apply to (former) offenders and predators.
I do not like seeing people as evil monsters solely because of the crime(s) they’ve committed. Treating former offenders like irredeemable criminals without giving them the chance to recover from their actions and reintegrate into society as a healthier person will only make them more likely to reoffend or not willing to try recovery.
There’s always a reason why someone has committed a crime and it is NOT solely because they are inherently an evil or malicious person…
Another thing about the permamonika situation , i dont like the doc being called the jay files / the monika files , it feels disrespectful to EA survivors , like the official doc is called that . I also hate the comparison that people are doing with l0li and actual CSAM , like " oh he has CSAM and loli !! " . . . Im worried for the CHILD , MINOR , UNDER 18 VICTIMS of his GROOMING !! Also we need to stop going against our rq values in this and calling him a pedo as an insult or even the doc refers to him as a pedophile in the context they mean pred , guys say the words , SAY THEM hes a PREDATOR and an GROOMER !! Attractions cant cause harm but permamonika did , permamonika can be a pedophile but his actions wherent attraction , they where grooming and praying on young children ! ( all this in purple cuz its important )
We have "no DNI" because we think they're pointless (from personal experience). But we will say this:
If you support permamonika we will block you. We've looked at both sides of things and don't support monika. We're all for recovery but nothing we've seen as of now shows that they're genuine about recovering currently. Even if they are recovering we're still skeptical. Plus, personally, we think they're handling the situation badly. But that may just be our personal thoughts on it.
But anyways, to put it shortly: we don't want to be associated with permamonika or supporters. We will not attack you or anything if you support them, we will simply just block and move on. We are making this post so that any being who is uncomfortable with this can block us themselves if they want.
Feel free to use our trauma posting as, like, inspiration for your trauma if you're transtrauma. Or OC lore. Or anything else. We really don't care. As long as you don't come into our comments or inbox saying "I'm using this as inspo for my (trans)trauma/OC lore/etc :3!" you're good.
We wonder if any being went through anything similar to this... So feel free to comment if you did? /nf
Honestly we think that having our basic needs and stuff we need for emotional regulation/support/etc taken away really fucked us up.
Like specifically we had our pillows/blankets/etc taken away a lot. Like oh you acted up (cause traumatized child)? You're only allowed a mattress and a singular thin blanket :) no idc that it's the middle of winter and cold. We've even had our entire bed taken at least once (we only remember once but it very well could have happened multiple times) and made to sleep on a concrete floor while it was cold. With only a singular blanket. Even though that floor got 2x as cold as it was outside or even colder.
We also used music and rain noises to cope with our congenital sleep disorder too. We couldn't sleep well / barely slept as a child, so we used music and rain noises to help us sleep. And it actually worked. That and our plushies were the only things that actually got us to sleep as a kid. But guess what? When we "acted up" those were taken away too because "you don't really need it"! Then our parents would get mad when we physically couldn't sleep because we relied on those things to properly sleep. Like we genuinely got eye bags so bad as a kid people thought we had a "black eye" (bruise) because they were genuinely so bad. And that didn't only happen once.
That specific type of abuse was genuinely so bad we developed headmates who specifically engaged in self punishing behaviors. Not SH but they'd do stuff like taking objects we relied on for comfort/emotional regulation/etc and put them in a box and hide them. The amnesia between us was low enough we could remember the objects were hidden for a while (though we'd often forget after a week or so) but high enough that we usually couldn't remember where. One time it got so bad that we lost the plushie we relied on so heavily for emotional regulation for months. Because someone put her in a tiny box under our bed. It was genuinely so bad. We only vaguely remember the consequences of that but we do remember we had really bad meltdowns and episodes in private. That also probably worsened the psychosis we had when we were (chrono)11-12 because we relied on her so heavily for our emotional regulation that we just couldn't function without her. Plus we were never taught any other (self) emotional regulation skills at all ever.
We also remember that when we did find her we held her and just cried and apologized to her profusely. We don't remember how long but we probably cried for a while.
We actually still have heavy urges to do this when we think we "deserve" punishment too.... Which, now that we think about it, it probably contributed to the whole moral OCD. I mean we have OCD due to a mix of genetics and trauma but that specifically probably influenced the moral part of our OCD. Like the self punishing in relation to it.
Oh! And a lot of the "acting up" was usually either just our autism or typical symptoms of trauma in children. Very rarely, if ever, were we ever intentionally bad. Like whenever we were "bad" we either were A) acting out due to trauma or B) didn't understand why it was wrong due to autism / it not being explained / etc.
The only apology we ever got for our abuse was from our mom. Specifically in relation to the one time she beat us. She only did that once. Her bf (who did most of the abuse mentioned above) never apologized and probably never will. Even though he was the main abuser and did stuff to us (outside of the above abuse) that probably does qualify as TBMC. But we don't want to get into that. Kai wouldn't like that we don't think...
No user box cause we don't feel like it. No DNI, just behave yourselves.
We really hate discourse but we want to say something.
Post below is us more or less us getting something off our chest about the radqueer and radqueer adjacent community (as a system in said communities). May delete this later.
If we ever leave the community it is going to be because of how unsafe we feel around beings who are; pro-noncon, actual groomers, and other beings who cause nonconsensual harm who are given platforms in this community.
Yes, this includes the original/old definition of xenosatanism (we don't mind peri-xs though), basedqueer, LSDqueer, and literally any other being who is pro-noncon. And also groomers who are still actively in the community with no proof that they've recovered or stopped grooming other beings. Or beings who have abused people and haven't changed. Or beings who are actively (nonconsensually) harming other beings. Or beings who justify (nonconsensual) abuse for any reason (like saying "well [victim] lied about a few things so I think they deserved it").
We genuinely think it's odd how beings who are actively causing or supporting nonconsensual harm are given platforms in a community that's supposed to be anti-noncon harm.
Beings like that actively make the community unsafe. But yet so many beings actively platform them anyways. We will never understand it. So yeah, if we leave this community it is 99% likely that it's directly due to this reason. This reason was also why we were so hesitant to "truly" join the community for so long despite knowingly holding radqueer (adjacent) beliefs.
And before any being decides to harass us about "is this about me??" this isn't about any one being. This is about groups/types of beings. Though, yes, we can think of a few beings who fall into this.
Also yes, we do think abusers of any type can recover. It just takes time + they need to be willing to recover. But so many abusers that claim to recover haven't actually recovered and use it as an excuse of sorts. We are always skeptical of beings who claim to be recovered abusers due to this unless they show they've changed (e.g. having genuinely better behavior).
We have no DNI but if you are pro-noncon harm or supporting beings who are pro-noncon harm we will block on sight.
> Also sorry if any of this is worded badly or weirdly. We do not intend to offend any being. We have a hard time wording things and can attempt to re-word if needed. We are not trying to gatekeep the community, we just wish there were less active/non-recovered abusers / pro-noncon beings here.
"I'm pro-noncon because I have no empathy and can't physically care!" THAT'S NOT PRO-NONCON THEN. "Pro" indicates that you support it and probably see it as a good thing. It doesn't imply not caring. Genuinely if you physically can't care about noncon harm due to lack of empathy/a disorder then at least label yourself as "apathetic-noncon harm" or neutral or some shit. Something that doesn't imply you support noncon harm.
And before y'all attack us — WE are low empathy. We have little to no emotional empathy and fluctuating cognitive empathy, at times we have no empathy at all. We understand not being able to care. But there's a difference between not being able to care and supporting.
If you genuinely don't see a problem with noncon harm at all we think you shouldn't be on the internet tbh. We don't care if you can't physically care but if you don't see a problem with it then that's.. a problem.
If we made a side blog, and/or even a private twitter account, for our headmates with "grosser" paraphilias to talk about it would y'all be interested? For context we'd follow back most beings on the private twitter (plus we'd feel a little less paranoid about twitter)
interest check
YES — both
YES — side blog only
YES — twitter only
not interested but hell yeah
fuck no
Remaining time: 3 days 19 hours
We will say, due to our OCD and delusions, we are paranoid about beings who are openly chronominors interacting with NSFW accounts owned by us. We don't mind ageless accounts or accounts that don't mention chronoage. But we are extremely paranoid about breaking certain laws. Cause our brain (irrationally) thinks that "chronominors seeing NSFW posts w/o pictures = go to jail" even though it's not completely true(??). So take that as you will?
Okay so, no one has voted but we made the twitter account. It is private so we will have to accept follow requests. We have it private cause of Paranoia™.
Also here's the link here (link) if you don't want to search us up :3.
We'll post about all sorts of paras + fantasies but it's made so that ones with "grosser" ones can freely talk about it without the Fear Of Being Burned At The Stake™.
If we made a side blog, and/or even a private twitter account, for our headmates with "grosser" paraphilias to talk about it would y'all be interested? For context we'd follow back most beings on the private twitter (plus we'd feel a little less paranoid about twitter)
interest check
YES — both
YES — side blog only
YES — twitter only
not interested but hell yeah
fuck no
Remaining time: 3 days 19 hours
We will say, due to our OCD and delusions, we are paranoid about beings who are openly chronominors interacting with NSFW accounts owned by us. We don't mind ageless accounts or accounts that don't mention chronoage. But we are extremely paranoid about breaking certain laws. Cause our brain (irrationally) thinks that "chronominors seeing NSFW posts w/o pictures = go to jail" even though it's not completely true(??). So take that as you will?
Honestly looking back we think we may have unconsciously shifted (reality shifting) before? Like without knowing what it was while still doing it. None of those DR ever stuck, we kinda went through them. We always just kinda thought it was our maladaptive daydreaming but looking back some of it feels way more like reality shifting (just unintentional). Plus it would make sense. We've always been interested in and believed in alternative realities, dimensions, and universes. Hell, we're also a gateway system technically. We've had headmates who come from other realities.
We kinda realized this after an experience today. We had a moment where we just kinda slipped out of this reality before being forced to focus back on our current reality (we were at the store with family for context). Then, later, we saw posts of beings describing reality shifting and went "huh, that sounds really familiar".
Also probably explains our interest in reality shifting too.
Have any other beings had experiences with unintentional reality shifting? Like specifically doing it unintentionally (or mostly unintentionally) before knowing what it was? Well, some of ours was probably semi intentional in the sense of "I like the feeling it gives me so I want to try and do it again :D" without understanding what it really was.
We have most of the "big 3" and other paras that are considered "harmful" (to antis and shit) in our system. Except necro (not counting autonecros). Well, until last night at least. Last night a fragment formed an identity and he considers himself a necro. Though he's picky with it.
VAGUE descriptions of bodies / necrophilia under the cut (for those who may be uncomfy with it?)
We think a large part of the reason we never had any necros (not counting autonecros) is because we find the idea of rotting stuff disgusting (due to our OCD) but he kinda went "well I like dead people, just not ones that have already rotted :p" (so like, fresh bodies, y'know). Though he would never actually interact with dead bodies, probably still wouldn't if he/we had pre-death consent. We think the rest of us would just feel icky/guilty/etc if we did cause Moral OCD™ (we are anti-contact for necro except in the cases of pre-death consent — but even then OCD isn't rational).
We just thought it was interesting how we've had zoos, MAPs/AAMs/AAMAPs, biastos, and pretty much any other ""harmful"" para in the system until like last night. Also kinda funny considering we have moral OCD and used to really hate ourselves for our (uncontrollable) attractions. Our brain is weird.
It'll take 1-2 weeks to make it. Then 1-3 business days to ship?? We think. So we may or may not have it for our beach trip later this month, we'll see. We just hope it doesn't get here while we're at the beach... Cause our mom's bf and his dad are staying home and they're nosey... Though it probably will get here during the trip, so we're kinda scared. But we'll leave a big note saying "DO NOT TOUCH MY PACKAGE IF IT GETS HERE -[deadname]" and hope they listen.
We really don't want our transphobic (step)family to see our packer.
really hate to say this but some parts of this community are genuinely shitty and I am sick and fucking tired of it
yes, antis will take the worst examples of us they can find, but they can only do that because some of you KEEP FUCKING ALLOWING BAD EXAMPLES
get pro-noncon beings the FUCK out of our community
get abusers the FUCK out of our community
get literal fucking PREDATORS the FUCK OUT OF OUR COMMUNITY
stop fucking supporting predators, stop allowing predators into the community, stop letting predators do whatever the fuck they want
EVERY TIME YOU POSITIVELY INTERACT WITH A PREDATOR/PRO-NONCON BEING, YOU MAKE THE PROBLEM WORSE
"I don't wanna be involved in discourse!!" PREDATORY BEHAVIOR IS NOT DISCOURSE, IT IS ACTUAL FUCKING HARM AND WHEN YOU CALL IT DRAMA OR DISCOURSE YOU DUMB IT DOWN LIKE IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL
even if you still don't want to comment on predatory pieces of SHIT, that's fine, but at least fucking REPORT THEM and ESPECIALLY IF THEY'VE DONE ILLEGAL SHIT
THE SPREAD OF CSEM IS NOT "DISCOURSE."
YOU ARE NOT BEING "ACCEPTING" BY SUPPORTING ABUSERS.
IT IS NOT "DRAMATIC" TO CALL OUT PREDATOY BEHAVIOR.
stop fucking complaining and actually get off your fucking ass and DO SOMETHING about the bad people in the community, FOR FUCK'S SAKE.
Very excited cause our worst dysphoria (gender + species) will be dealt with... Next thing we should buy is a binder as well, though we can wait on that as our chest dysphoria isn't as bad as our dysphoria about our genitalia.
We know species genitalia dysphoria is considered "taboo" to talk about to most beings so we've been anxious about talking about it. Our partner is the only IRL who knows we're buying an animal packer. Our friends know we're buying a packer, just not an animal one.
We're also nervous about our parents asking. Our mom already did ask and we told her "it's a private thing" and we hope that wasn't too suspicious... We're nervous about her bf though as he's transphobic in general, so he probably won't be happy about us having any type of packer.
i saw it in a comment section but i feel tha need 2 saw it out loud in a post, slapping a prefix on2 ur nonconsensual assault n abuse of others doesnt make u a radqueer icon, it makes u a willing predator, n tha fact that this community thinks s ok 2 befriend n uplift these beings is disgusting n honestly it scares me 4 tha minors bein brought in2 this community (including myself)
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