Rotten & Forgotten @urgaydemise - Tumblr Blog

Feeling like I wanna run away and start a new life somewhere while also maintaining good relationships with my (few select) family and friends

#todays vibes #yesterdays vibe #tomorrows vibe probably

Someone pointed me in the direction of people who like bigger women but not in a fetish-y way lol cause yes im tryna work on my weight but id like someone to like me for me rn lol

#bbw #plus size #dating #dating apps #thicc and curvy #also im just bored and have no idea what apps to try lol

I wanna do one of those guess my age posts but im so scared yall are gonna say im much older than I am

#guess my age #bored #moisturize me #ask tumblr #idk at this point im just buzzed and bored lmaoooo

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I love Josh’s anti-classism so much. I grew up in a single parent household that didn’t have time/the ability to cook. I taught myself as an adult and ended up loving it. I cook with this stuff a lot. Shit, the RealLemon juice ends up in a lot of my cocktails. Sure, I like fancy ingredients when I can afford them and I have things I get picky about using - but I have bad hands, mincing garlic is painful as fuck. There’s a lot to be said for knowing how to work with what you have. Don’t shame people for trying, don’t shame people for feeding their families things that they enjoy.

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if you are only a good cook if you have access to premium ingredients at whole foods or above prices then you arent really a good cook

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I think about this post a lot because of the phrase "i'll cook anyone's ass under the table."

#hannigram #thinking about will having only these ingredients in his kitchen #hannibal finds out and either stocks wills kitchen for him #or kills him quicker for simply living that way lmaoooo

I’m watching Hannibal for the first time and you’re not

That's great! Im so happy for you! 😀

#i say through gritted teeth #hannibal #will graham #hannibal nbc #hannigram #gnawing biting scratching feral

I know it has to be out there, a fanfic where everything is the same but Will is a therapist (same mannerisms and personality) and Hannibal is a cop/professor (also same) and the show is the exact same but Hannibal is obviously Hannibal and will is will and idk what im really saying but I need to read that ASAP

#will graham #hannibal nbc #hannibal #hannigram #fanfic #fanfic rec #if its out there i NEED to read it #or i will write it #ive never written fanfic before #thats a lie i have #but it was #vampire academy #and #maximum ride #and i havent written anything beyond 1 page plays since then

Thinking about the time will sensually sexually suggestively leaned against the ladder in hannibals library..... yeah

You know the scene

ASGFGHHHVHIHCCG

#will graham #hannibal #hannigram #aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh #intimate hannigram moments #it lasted like .2 seconds but lasted in my mind forever #how do i recreate this with my partner lmaoooo

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Real talk, how do i explain to my partner of 2 years, who's never had a Tumblr, was the cool guy in hs, and thinks Paul Mulaney (sp?) is peak comedy, what Tumblr is??

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JOHN MULANEY

Who tf is paul mulaney??? Why did I think that was his name???

#john mulaney #sobbing screaming crying throwing up #im so fucking stupid lmaoooo

Real talk, how do i explain to my partner of 2 years, who's never had a Tumblr, was the cool guy in hs, and thinks Paul Mulaney (sp?) is peak comedy, what Tumblr is??

#relationship goals #but not really #no fr cause he knows NOTHING of my fixations!!!#new to tumblr #tumblr #ask tumblr #paul mulaney??#paul malaney??#the dude from big mouth #cocaine skinny guy #???

What's my vibe? Drinking a sour grape four loko on a Tuesday night because I work weekends and its my day off

#four loko #i think im lowkey an alcoholic??#safely drinking at home binging #schitt's creek #cheers 🥂

I wish I could go back to the first time i watched Hannibal or what we do in the shadows, what a time to be alive

#will graham #hannibal #hannigram #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #maybe i miss it because i had less responsibilities and my knees didnt pop when i bent squatted

Some reflection:

I think the reason i left tumblr wjen i did was because i had nothing to fixate on, lile literally nothing (suprise turns out it was depression all along!) Nothing interested me, not books, hobbies, topics, shows, NOTHING. So i deleted the app and so mich has happebed since then, in the world and in my life! Anyways im in a gpod place mentally and all my interests are back, i thought about making a new acct but i like seeing all my weird lil posts when i was into shows lol. None of this really matters tk anyone but me but thats one of the reasons i love tumblr, i can rant and rave and post whatever i want and maybe someone will see it and be like yeah me too or somerhing or maybe no one will and thats okay :)

Anyways, i need to change my layout and see what other interests to pursue.

#ranting #back on my bullshit #i wonder whats changed since i left?#guess whos back #text post