WONDERLAND 02
Hoseok x f!reader
Notices: Explicit sex! Mentions of abuse! Murder! Mental problems! Schizophrenia! Obsessive themes! I tried to have a big focus on psychological horror! Distorted reality! Use of drugs, strong medicines and other doping agents!
Synopsis: You always thought that Wonderland was just a childish delusion, the consequences of a terrible accident. But things change, and maybe Wonderland is more real than you'd like to admit. Especially when an old friend goes out of his way to convince you to stay in the wizarding world.
->Chapter 01
People have always made a point of reminding me that my head is defective.
Always calling me crazy and saying that I have no right to speak because my head doesn't work.
Apparently they think that because I have mental problems I am dysfunctional.
But I never cared. I know my own capabilities.
But even I can tell when something is out of whack.
When I showed the scribbled letters to Seokjin, he started acting strangely.
Even though he told me that I had written it myself in my moments of panic, he was sweating a lot and seemed more tired than I was.
Before, he would talk to me about the situations in my dreams, trying to make me reflect and justify them, and then he would give me the medicine.
Nothing has changed, except that now he doesn't try to justify and reflect on my dreams, but he still gives me medication.
But it's getting worse and worse.
My hallucinations are stronger, and I can physically feel much more than before.
Clearly the medicine isn't working, but even if I tell Seokjin this he gives me others with the same effect.
But I'm tired.
Tired of all these hallucinations, tired of these crazy dreams and most of all, tired of that man.
He's always in my dreams, no matter where he is, he'll appear at some point.
I'm currently heading towards a drugstore.
I need stronger medicine. My thoughts aren't even the same anymore, nothing around me seems to make any sense.
When I push open the door of the drugstore, a little bell echoes in the empty space. The inside of the drugstore is impressive; its milky-white walls are nothing like the outside of the store, with dirty stone streets and dark corners.
"Can I help you?"
A very pretty girl asks me with a friendly smile, her white clothes match the place. Her smile almost seemed to tell me hope.
"I need your best antipsychotic"
I confess that I was unsure about buying medicine alone, I thought I would need at least permission from Seokjin. But to my surprise, the smiling woman in front of me didn't care and handed me the medicine. Her smile never wavered and her eyes never left mine.
And I thought I was the weird one.
I don't say anything to the woman, I just hand her the money and take the medicine. I try my best to avoid her constant gaze, which has gone from being cozy to being psychotic.
The path to my house is silent, I can't even hear my thoughts, and my steps are automatic.I quickly unlock the door and enter the apartment, relocking all the locks.
I look at the medicine box in my hands, debating whether I should actually take it.
"No..."
There it was. The man's hoarse, stressed voice in my head.
"Don't do that..."
The voice in my head kept saying, getting deeper and more irritated. My vision was starting to blur.
I needed to stop this madness immediately.
And without thinking twice, I run to the bathroom. In the toilet, I vomit even what I hadn't eaten.
My God, am I going to die? That man is going to kill me...
In front of the mirror I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand, and place three antipyretic pills in my hands.
"I'm warning you not to do this honey, you better listen to me..."
The man in my head mutters amid voices and hisses. But as soon as my vision starts to blur again, I put the medicine in my mouth and swallow it, lowering my head I drink the water directly from the tap, feeling the medicine go down my throat.
And like magic, the voice stopped, the hissing stopped, and my vision returned to normal.
Wow, I didn't think it would be effective immediately.
Lifting my head and looking at my face in the bathroom mirror, my dark circles were huge and my tired look was evident.
When suddenly. The bathroom mirror takes on a slightly strange, bluish hue.
But before I can question anything, two arms come out of the mirror, now as liquid as water. The strange hands grab the sides of my head before I can react.
I quickly let go of them, who are still trying to grab me, I take two steps back, still in shock.
When the arms lean on the wall around the mirror and push whatever, or whoever, was inside it out.
Again, that man comes out of the mirror. His torso and head were outside the mirror.
It was him. He was coming out of the mirror in front of me.
When his head lifts, I can see his eyes as dark as night.
He stretches out his arms again and holds my shoulders tightly. "Enough of this, let's go home my love..." He says in a strangely slurred tone, and as fast as I can blink he pulls me towards him, as if I weighed no more than a towel.
I feel nothing, I see nothing. Is this what it's like to be dead? Wait, do dead people think?
Blinking a few times, I start looking again. The slightly orange blue sky, covered by clouds, is the first thing I see. Could it be paradise?
"You look so beautiful in the sunlight." The man's voice is present, and I quickly stand up.
He was beside me, sitting on the floor with his knees bent. He had a warm smile on his face.
"What's up dear? Surprised to see me?" He asks with a smile and bright eyes. I don't answer him, I just sit further away from him and look at the environment around me, trying to figure out where I am.
It was an open field, I could see tall trees in the distance, looking up I realized that we were sitting under a tree that was smaller and thicker than the pine trees that surrounded us. The tree was filled with small, pink flowers that swayed in the light breeze.
"You're still as beautiful as the time you disappeared"
At the sound of his voice, I turn to face his serene face again.
"What are you? What do you want with me?"
"It's a shame you don't remember me, or the times we had together..."
He says with his smile faltering at some point.
"But don't worry, my dear, I won't let them take you away from me anymore."
He stands up, stops in front of me and gently holds the sides of my face.
"What do you mean? You're the one in my head, I'm sure this is just another one of my delusions"
His gaze remains intent on my eyes, he says nothing, not even his expression shows anything that I can identify.
"It doesn't matter what you believe, love. The important thing is that now I have you, and I want to see who will take you from my arms again"
He brings our foreheads together, taking my lips in a long kiss right after. I don't have enough strength to separate him from my body, I just close my eyes tightly, hoping it will end soon.
When he separates our lips, he brings our foreheads together again and gives me a sinister smile.
"See... do your hallucinations kiss you all the time?"
He laughs, as if mocking my attempts to rid myself of my hallucinations.
"So, my dear, answer me. Did the great medicine that you needed so much have the effect that you wanted?"
It was as if all the memories of my therapies with Seokjin, and all the medicine I took, had flashed through my head.
"You did something, didn't you?"
I face him, as I watch him walk away from me and take my hand, leading me somewhere.
"And what can I do? After all, I'm just a hallucination..."
He says in a drawl, with a damn mocking smile. I didn't know where he was taking me, or what he had done. But I needed to find out, and most importantly, I needed to find out how to get out of this place and how to get rid of him.
Enough is enough, he's making me hot-blooded. It's obvious he controls this whole fucking place.
Damn...I have no idea how I'm going to get out of here. After our little chat in the tree he dragged me to some part of the forest, we didn't walk for five minutes before a staircase appeared that led to a house on top of a hill.
How did that shit get there?!
Okay, never mind, I'll find a way out. I can't lie that the first thing that crossed my mind was to beat him until he was as big as my sanity, but what would I do then? He seems to be much stronger than me.
"ladies first..."
He was holding the door of the house open for me to go through, I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even realize that we had already gone up the stairs. Oh no, I can't go into this house, how am I going to get out of it after?!
With my delay, his face darkens, the smile he had disappears, and I can tell he is getting irritated.
"Get into this damn house s/n... You don't want to see me angry"
I let out a "tsck" with my mouth, and turn my head to the side. I can see his irritated face in my peripheral vision.
Then before I can do anything, he wraps his arms around my waist, and lifts me off the ground as if I weighed nothing.
"What?! Put me down!" I say, punching his back with all my strength, but it has no effect on him.
"I hate having to do this. But not even you will stop me from getting my love back."
What? What was he talking about? I can see the rooms of the house we passed through. The sun was setting, so few rooms had enough light for me to see anything.
Damn. What does he intend to do to me?
I can hear him opening a door, but before I can do anything, he throws me onto a big, soft bed. Of course I don't have time to feel where I am, he climbs on top of me and holds my hands next to my head, leaving his face very close to mine.
"Welcome home... darling"

















