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MYR·:
they play a dangerous game each time they interact in the company of others, and it is entirely why myriam avoids it when she can ( though her heart bids her to flock to him ). their capability to ignite passion in each other is a breeding ground for trouble in the public sphere. but what exists between them is an inexplicable tug that brings them back to time & time again. so , she merely continues to play. for what else is there to do ?
myriam nearly takes a step back as a hand is extended towards her , but remains steadfast. behind closed doors , she might have taken it , and laced her own fingers betwixt his before telling him what a drunken fool he was making himself out to be. she releases her grip on the goblet , eyes flickering towards their hands. once the object has transferred ownership , she quickly retracts her hand as if it had been licked by flames. he speaks of wisdom & desires and she’s grateful to the mask that can partially conceal the way her eyes roll.
it’s just like him to become prickly when she says something he does not want to her. speaking truth to him is as good as a death sentence to an evening that might have otherwise been spent pleasantly. does he not realize that in this evening they had been granted a rare opportunity ? the half-anonymity brought on by masks , gaudy costumes & too much wine made them veritably free to mingle with each other. and yet here he stands , a brooding lord - - the same as all the rest; discontented with privilege and too keen on expressing it. tonight , he could be with her , and still he chooses to indulge in the cynicism of his peers without so much as a glance in her direction. he tries to convince her that becoming a velaryon has not changed her , and yet the proof presents itself plainly to her.
in the space of one breath to the next he tells her that he would gladly vocalize his desires , and she’s reminded that it’s all that he does. he speaks of desire - - of a future & a life. then , does nothing to act upon it & dares to challenge her for being reticent. her eyes do not falter from his gaze , jaw tensing ever-so-slightly. she lowers her voice , head canting to the side. ❝ i ask nothing of you in such a state , ❞ she remarks , pursing her lips. ❝ words spoken while your head is so clouded , my lord , are simply that. words. they are not action , or promise. if you were to vocalize your desires now for all to hear , it would be so very easy to redact them come morning & blame it on the drink. no one would bat an eye. ❞ except for her, perhaps.
she allows a beat of silence , quickly scanning over her shoulder. there’s something about the way he is challenging her now that feels almost cruel. he must know , surely he must , that she will not ask it of him. so , he has perfect leave to dare her to. ❝ not like this . ❞ she almost pleads. she has half a mind to turn away from him, but her hand outstretches this time , attempting to reclaim the goblet from his grasp. ❝ enough. please. you’re going to make yourself out to be a fool if you continue one like that. is that really what you want ? ❞
it is to the faintest degree sobering to hear her suggest his words hold no weight . to her credit she is an expert wordsmith and as such knows how to execute a retort that might go over the heads of the nobles keen on watching the spectacle but that would leave the lord feeling nothing if not a bit dazed . the phrases ‘ in such a state ’ and ‘ while your head is so clouded ’ center on the now but there is history and hurt in the words she speaks ; a torrid history none listening are privy to . he stands before her the man who she knows to have broken his greatest promise to her . he stands before her and alludes to his desire for a life with her but beyond that makes no move to put his desires into motion . there is no part of her torment that he does not try in earnest to understand , and he thinks he does , but this complacency was birthed by the both of them .
he wants to ask her then how many times he has proposed she be his wife , if she thought the times he had pleaded with her were simply words . words that would lead to no action ; all smoke and no substance . he wishes to ask her if she honestly sees him as so fickle . “ is this the truth of it then ? ” his reply is more likely to confuse onlookers , the inebriation and her obvious hold over him stirring up an emotional response . he is not a man defeated , not yet , but he is wounded and it shows . she might be thankful for the shielding of their true identities in this moment but , in keeping with the theme of the night , lucerys could care less . “ have you lost what little faith you have left in me ? understand that if i gave voice to my desires for all to hear i would renege on nothing . i am rather deep into my cups , my lady , i’ll grant you that but this may very well be the one thing i would say in such a state that i wish i could say with a clearer head . i would have an excuse , yes , but an excuse for finally speaking my mind . ”
he watches her send a look over her shoulder and it’s his turn to roll his eyes , the exasperation presenting itself again in the form of an unamused snort . perhaps it was wrong of him to be so garish but as it stood his mind did not want to focus on the rightness or wrongness of the situation , no matter how unkind . “ then let me be a fool away from prying eyes . would that suit , my lady ? ” instead of allowing for her to reclaim the goblet lucerys does take her hand in his this time and his grip is surprisingly light , allows for her to break his hold whenever she wishes as he slowly parts through the crowd of people with her in tow . only when they are out of the hall and away from the boisterous crowd does he relinquish hold of her hand . getting away from the overly curious westerosi nobility had been his aim , to somewhat save face , but him leading her out of the gathering so suddenly might’ve done the opposite ––– there was sure to be talk of the peculiar exchange between a foolishly drunken lord and a levelheaded lady tomorrow . maybe he was sobering up .
suddenly he cannot ( will not ) face her , keeps his back to her to shield himself , and he cannot pin down if it is because he is still angry or if he is ashamed . “ there is a part of you that despises me . ” he does not mean after his oafish display in front of a building crowd , no he speaks of the man he has become and her disdain for that man . there comes a sardonic smile to the lord’s lips at his own insistence that he is not a velaryon for it is in this moment he realizes that whether he likes it or not , whether he prattles on about it or not , he is . “ i can feel it . you challenge me to what end ? to provoke the side of me you hate ? to unearth the velaryon in me so that we can both glimpse it ? please help me understand because that –– whatever that was –– did not feel well intentioned or as if you were trying to save me from myself . ” he has become a master at shifting blame , gives it all over to her without accepting the part he has had to play .
MYR·:
her heart does not flutter when she sees him as it used to. the sudden thrill of receiving a letter has long since faded , replaced with a ceaseless ache for a life ( and a love ) that will never quite be hers. her heart does not flutter anymore , because she’s no longer young & idealistic. instead, it wreaks havoc on the cage of her chest, crying out for him. she makes no real show of it - - she never does in court. they’ve both settled into their roles , and to acknowledge true emotion amidst the prying eye of the public would risk them both.
but this is a masked ball. surely , the same unspoken rules that she rigidly adheres to do not apply. ––– she wanders , visibly aimless , between the crowds until she stops just short of him. glittering smiles are flashed at nobles who might think to pay visit to one of her establishments once the wine has gone to their brains. she smiles at him , too , though there is something almost wry about it. the way he speaks does not sit comfortably with her. if he cares so little for this life , she reasons , then why does the VELARYON name mean so very much to him ? elegant hand seeks out a cup of her own , as if searching for a drink had been her sole motivation all along.
❝ is this not your greatest desire , my lord ? ❞ her words are not cold or insincere , but they are far too formal for two who are so well acquainted. ❝ ––– to be acknowledged as a part of the pack ? ❞ she knows too well that challenging him often leads in arguments, but a crown of stars sits atop her head & her mask makes her bold. ❝ you are a man of wealth and station. it might behoove you to play nicely with your peers rather than sulking as you are now. ❞
at first he believes he imagines the sound of her voice , that she works as his conscience hammering away at a thought that he knows to be true on some level . but when she continues he understands his momentary confusion to be linked to the mead he consumes almost ravenously . she is here , she is beside him , and she is goading him . her words and her presence inspire a war of sorts within him one that sees him both overcome with yearning yet rife with a sudden irritation from her provocation . he turns his head so that he might glimpse her and he is struck by the sight of her ––– though that is not a new occurrence .
he sets aside , for all of a second , the agitation that pricks at his skin like brambles and reaches out to her . the lord would say he has not forgotten himself and though he places his hand above hers as if to reach for her goblet his touch , which is altogether too familiar , says otherwise . he lingers for far longer than is acceptable fingers dancing across the skin of her knuckles , appearing as though he means to curl them ‘round myriam’s and take hold of her hand , before he finally resolves to remove the cup from her grasp and be done with his little game . his own mug is sat on one of the numerous serving trays that have passed him by all night and , though he should not , he brings the cup that previously belonged to the woman at his side to his lips taking a heady pull .
“ ah , the lady has seen fit to grace me not only with her presence but her endless wisdom as well . ” he half speaks into the cup before emptying it entirely . the civility lucerys lacks comes twofold when he wipes wine stained lips upon the back of his arm as if he had not been raised a lord at all . “ you know what my greatest desire is ––– or do wish for me to speak it aloud ? ” the rational part of his mind tries to work in vain against the alcohol that serves as a ridder of the lord’s inhibitions . you are not in your right mind , the voice in his head reprimands , but it does not stop him from shifting to face her full on . she has his undivided attention and he makes a show of giving it to her .
“ if my lady’s memory fails her and she wishes to hear my greatest desire she need only say so . ” the words bring with them the dipping of his head and his eyes bore into her own as if silently daring her . it is his turn to test her and though he notices some of the nearer lords and ladies redirecting their attention to their exchange he cannot bring himself to back down .
WYLLA·:
The throbbing in her head got worse and heavier as the night progressed. Before they had even announced the Harvest King and Queen, it had felt like her head was going to pound right off of her neck. It didn’t help that she’d been talking to Lyarra and Cassana this evening. The two had brought a rush of memories back to her. Each memory came with it’s own round of guilt and not necessarily regret, but something damn near it. It was a pain that couldn’t be washed away, only numbed for the moment, and she’d imbibed drink after drink to dull her senses. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt to let loose this one time.
Wylla giggle, that’s right- giggled, at the man’s words. “They’re all tired of them. Except for the exceedingly stupid ones.” She said as her eyes looked out over the mass of people. “Everyone is so determined to live up to expectations of their families instead of being happy for themselves that they come to the weddings, the tournaments, the balls, and everything else in spite claiming to detest it, which they all do. Almost as much as they hate each other, but look at all the smiles.” She turned and smiled at him. “So why not leave? Expectations? People you’d disappoint?” Her face fell. “I know the feeling.”
the voice cuts through his own dissatisfaction like a warmed knife and sees him peering over at the woman ––– a familiar face he’d seen on occasion to the capital . her words continued to work in the way knives do slashing at him , cutting to the bone . there was too much truth in them . he was self involved and often thought only of his own discontentment never once considering the fact that perhaps these games played at court were tedious for all involved . “ you truly believe that they all loathe these most enjoyable occasions ? i won’t argue that a great many might despise these gatherings but my own siblings could hardly wait for the ball . ” he would never go so far as to openly undermine the intelligence of his younger siblings , no matter how closely he danced to the edge of indecently drunk , but on that matter he would also not argue .
it unsettles him that each time her lips part her words cut a little deeper , past the bone now and to the nerve . she feels it almost as deeply , he notes , as the way her smile falls suddenly from her face does not go unnoticed . lucerys allows his heavily lidded eyes to drop to the floor half expecting to see it there ––– the girl’s smile , shattered and forgotten , but he finds nothing . “ you have no idea how badly i wish to leave . ” to leave this place and all the people who encompass it . “ but it is as you said we all have expectations to live up to . i represent my house now , and unfortunately , my desires pale in comparison to my . . . duty . ” his eyes snap back up to her and he is greeted with her sullen expression as a reminder . “ oh ? and which part of the feeling might that be ? the weight of the expectations or the weight of the disappointment ? ” if they were being candid , let them be candid .
he looks out at the night’s festivities , at the pomp and frill of the lives of the highborn of westeros , and yearns to be an ocean away once more . or perhaps simply upon the ocean , either would do nicely . to be away from driftmark had been all the lord had wanted for months preceding this moment , and while he did not miss the halls of his ancestral seat , his least favorite occasions were balls ––– the tyrell ball , a family bursting at the seams with a comfortable wealth , putting any ball he’d been to before to shame . there is jovial music , endless feasting , and a floor filled with dancing lords and ladies alike but the merriment does not extend to lucerys despite how deeply he may be in his cups . only he could find a way to cut through the intoxicating pull of the mead and remain a sour sight .
“ how no one tires of these grandiose displays of wealth and station are beyond me . i grow wearier with each invitation . ” if the alcohol has not lightened his mood at the very least it has loosened his tongue , and he speaks too plainly and far too openly to the person at his side without a thought or care to the lack of civility and regard that colors his words .
♛ LUCERYS VELARYON
↳ details; male, 32. ( b. 473 AC. ) ↳ status; heteroflexible, widower, bastard daughter –– alaena waters. ↳ faceclaim; alexander dreymon. ↳ hails from; driftmark. ↳ loyalty; house velaryon.
↳ title; lord of house velaryon. ↳ religion; keeps faith with no gods. ↳ spoken languages; high valyrian, bastard valyrian, common tongue, dothraki, trade talk. ↳ reason in kings landing; as a notable house of the region and a steadfast ally of house targaryen house velaryon offers their undying support for their queen and her princeling.
♛ PERSONALITY
↳ type; INTP. ↳ alignment; true neutral. ↳ star sign; capricorn. ↳ positives; dutiful, poised, undaunted, clueful, alluring, intuitive. ↳ negatives; headstrong, cantankerous, detached, unconstrained, cold, dissatisfied.
♛ BIOGRAPHY
↳ family lineage.
lucerys might’ve been born the second son of lord jaehaerys’ second wife naella of myr but he would be the first child the lord fathered who would bring shame unto house velaryon. a year into the lord’s impassioned marriage lucerys had been born and, much to the perplexity and discontentment of his lord father, the boy looked nothing like himself or naella. he had come out his mother’s womb with a head blanketed with thick brunette hair and skin tinged with the natural kiss of the sun. house velaryon, like house targaryen, were one of the very few westerosi houses known for having the traditional look of old valyria ––– light eyes, fair skin, and even fairer hair ––– and while lucerys possessed eyes of blue that rivaled the summer’s sky in their clarity there was nothing remotely fair about the boy.
thoughts of lucerys’ true parentage afflicted jaehaerys from the second he’d laid eyes upon him and his half mad ponderings had, for a time, managed to remain just that until the rumors of the boy’s potential bastardy began to spread like the ravenous flames of wildfire. it did not take long for murmurs of how naella had taken a secret lover and forced her bastard upon her husband to build from a whisper to a roar that swept the whole of the island and these baseless claims seemed only to embolden the ruling lord’s own deranged beliefs. with the ceaseless speculations came the sowing of an incurable bout of mistrust in him toward his wife and an intensified revulsion for his own son that had been growing steadily since the boy had entered the world.
despite naella’s protests that lucerys had simply inherited genuine myrish traits, stating repeatedly that her own golden hair amongst a people known for their dark features was a rarity in the same way lucerys’ dark hair seemed to be for house velaryon, jaehaerys would hear none of it and her pleas on her innocent son’s behalf fell on deaf ears. and they would continue to until he grew tired of the sound of her voice altogether, tired of the never ending lies she told, and called for the death of his own wife for bringing forth a bastard and forcing him to raise the damned boy as a trueborn. during naella’s execution a mere five year old lucerys was made to watch as his lord father, who promised he would meet a similar end if even a single tear slipped from his eye and touched the apple of his cheek for his whore of a mother, drove a blade into her neck and separated her head from her shoulders. it was on this day life itself seemed to drain of color for the boy who might as well have been orphaned on the spot; for the first time since he’d entered this most cruel and needlessly hateful world he found himself to be utterly alone.
life without his mother’s steadfast protection was almost unbearable for lucerys. when his father was not ignoring him entirely he was turning his cruelty upon the boy or allowing others to. where lucerys’ older brother daemon was treated with the respect a trueborn should be afforded he was regarded as nothing more than the bothersome bastard of driftmark, a stain on house velaryon, and was proclaimed the bastard of the tides. lucerys thought pride at the very least would inspire in his father a need to bring a stop to the sheer disrespect aimed at his own son but jaehaerys saw lucerys not as his son and therefore cared not. in jaehaerys’ eyes he was but a burden left behind by a treacherous woman and the goading of the boy more than anything for a time seemed to please the pitiless lord–––to know naella’s bastard suffered delighted him. these were the moments that would mold him and make him understand he was bastard born in all but name. as if being a second son wasn’t already a mark for insignificance his unofficial bastardy made him of absolutely no worth to his father, and by extension his house, and he was cast aside without remorse.
perhaps this was why when the lordling reached the age of a man grown by westerosi custom he boarded a ship to essos and, for a time, never looked back. years spent living under the harsh scrutiny of his lord father and watching the man fawn over the fair haired children that came after himself, children Lucerys was not allowed to interact with in front of their mother or his father, had caused a bitterness to blossom where once hope had thrived however desperate. he was not the firstborn like daemon, nor was he loved or favored like his younger siblings, so there left no purpose for him at home on driftmark and he would take full advantage of his position. he left home at the age of seventeen and his travels took him the world over he visited all nine of the free cities, the summer isles, the kingdom of sarnor, qarth, sothoryos, the dothraki sea, the flourishing port cities of yunkai, meereen, and astapor in the reformed bay of dragons, and everywhere in between and beyond.
during these travels he met a girl, a braavosi courtesan then, and it was the first time he could recall experiencing love without condition. he met her when he’d first stepped foot in essos the rowdy band of men he’d been traveling with having paid for her services so that he might become a true man grown, but instead of baring himself he bared his soul and following their first interaction they never lost touch. the five years he spent traveling he also spent detailing colorful tales of the adventures he embarked on in letters he would write especially for her from the selling of his sword, to fighting in the pits in meereen, to things he’d never thought he’d be able to admit to another living soul. their love reached a head when the young lord ventured back to braavos, his last stop before he was to return briefly to driftmark, and promises were made; promises of a life together, one that would be brimming with adventure––a life that featured themselves, the sea, and the world.
of course life was not so simple nor were it’s paths ever so straight. upon his return home lucerys experienced firsthand the way life’s paths could curve at a moments notice and take you places you’d never thought possible. at the age of two and twenty he returned home with more worldly experience than men ten years his senior and a maturity that had cut and sculpted his face and mind. on his return he found that, despite his dark features, he was beheld as the splitting image of a young lord jaehaerys and looked more the image of his father than any of his fair haired children. to lucerys’ shock he was embraced not only by the people of driftmark, but by the man who had spent the better part of his young life casting him aside with disdain. no longer was he seen as the bastard of the tides but he was revered instead as the truest born son of house velaryon and he could see, for the first time, palpable regret swim in his father’s eyes no doubt for allowing distrust to drive him to take the life of his loyal wife and shun a son that had always been his.
following his reinstatement as a velaryon in the eyes of his father lucerys’ life was no longer his own. there was no time to even think of venturing back to braavos to reclaim the woman he loved for, regardless of his status as that of a second son, he was most sought after as his brother was already married and had been for some years now. he became quite popular amongst ladies of houses seeking to form an alliance thanks almost in full to his striking features and his father was all too eager to negotiate terms of a betrothal to further strengthen house velaryon. lucerys found the idea of being bound in marriage to anyone apart from the woman he loved to be a suffocating and loathsome thought but he had little say in his future and before he was three and twenty he was wed to lady joanna of house marbrand. their marriage was comfortable but it was not one abound with love or elation. lucerys was rarely unkind to the lady joanna but he was not a faithful husband to her, either. he took many a lover during their marriage the eventual knowledge of which made his wife sick with steadily mounting grief and jealousy. joanna tried tirelessly to keep her husband’s attention and affections from wandering but it was to no avail. for a time she thought she could come to accept her husband’s wandering eye but she had been painfully wrong. learning that he had come to father a child with a tavern wench was the nail in her coffin as giving her husband a child was something she herself had yet been able to do. she had grown to love lucerys with the whole of her heart and knowing his heart did not, and would not, solely belong to her was the driving force behind her untimely departure from this world.
the years tailing the death of his wife see lucerys as a man who clings still to the title of widower though he stopped mourning his late wife some years ago. they also bring about the unfortunate and untimely death of his elder brother daemon velaryon the true heir to driftmark who was murdered during a sailing trip by the pirates who inhabit the stepstones more than likely looking for plunder aboard daemon’s lavish ship. lucerys was expected to step up and take his place as the future heir to driftmark without question and though he found the whole of the situation to be maddening he did what was expected of him. with the passing of time he has become more a velaryon than he would like to let on and now fully accepts his new leading role, putting the good of his house first and in turn making his father proud. these days lord jaehaerys pushes more and more for his son to make a match and find a betrothed so that when the time comes for him to rule he will be prepared in every way but lucerys pushes back against it not wanting to be forced into another marriage. he does not wish to, once again, take a backseat approach to his own life and is determined not to allow jaehaerys to steamroll him as he did when he was a boy, but his father has other plans. so the future lord has set his sights on something more realistic and now believes he need only hold out for the frail and elderly man’s end.
↳ personality.
he is not so unlike his father–– standoffish and sullen. and grows more so by the day with his newfound status of lord heir. in another life there used to be a spirited, captivating, and playful side to the lord but within recent years it takes some unearthing to witness. there is a natural regality about him that is noted quite often and it has, with time, only served to inflate his sense of self. he thinks rather highly of himself and his ability, although it manifests in the way he carries himself and the sharpness of his tongue as opposed to boasts and brags. all in all he can be a rather tough pill to swallow depending on who you are and where you stand.
↳ lannisters ruling.
why are they in kings landing, what are their thoughts on the current ruling family, have they been to the capital before? – as a member of one of the vassal houses of the crownlands , and the official proxy of house velaryon, to refuse the crowns invitation would be unthinkable. more to the point, house velaryon has always and will always back house targaryen. though the throne was usurped by her own husband house velaryon shall show their continued support and respect for rhaena targaryen the rightful queen of the seven kingdoms. beyond that, lucerys may be looking to enjoy himself a bit whilst in the capital as it has been quite sometime since his last visit.
♛ STATUS: TAKEN