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venting all my woes

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So one of the few people I trust just tried to sexually touch me. I refused hin and thankfully he withdrew but I'm fucked up over it.

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2017 going on 2018

Still bad. Got a stable job. Still dead inside. Thankful I have my mum, but it feels like I am slowly drifting away from her. Don't have any motivation, don't know what to do and feeling very lost.

Some hot guys at work but feeling very hesitant to start something with them. Already had bullshit drama during summer, I don't want to go through that again. At the same time, this is the loneliest point I have ever felt on my life and I am not sure if I can call these guys my friends.

Just very lost and very lonely atm.

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“if there were a cure for your disability, would you take it?”

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You’re cute and I’d ask you out for a date. I’m sorry people act so stupid with anything that diverges from the ‘norm’, and that we’re stuck on this planet with them.

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[ventmyspleenout]

Tfw everytime I think of time travelling and meeting my past self, the first thing I’d do is punch myself in the face. Everytime.

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Biggest weakness

Interviewer: What is your biggest weakness?

Me: I'm a perfectionist, but straight up the real deal cause I got dx'd with OCPD and I'm never happy with what I do. Time constraint is just an illusion.

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I know I shouldn't complain because they're minor stuff, but all put together it's like adkjadhkjhk and somedays there shouldn't be so many inconveniences and I feel like I'm the only one in my damn country who has all of them  so there's no one to relate to and they're driving me crazy cause I'm a fucking perfectionist who can't do shit about my body.

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I can't tell where the depression ends and my personality begins.

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Frustrated at apparently being the only metalhead in this country who's into metallic hardcore and sludge metal. I've got no one to talk to, no one to get excited about bands with, no one to plan to go concerts overseas with. I'm lonely damnit. Wish I could emigrate elsewhere but I honestly can't. 

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Is soya milk a good substitute for milk if you have PCOS or is it bad news? 

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What society says to thin people: It's ok you're beautiful the way you are What society says to fat people:  It's ok you're beautiful the way you are What society says to people with acne or scars: GTFO 

So much for 'everyone is beautiful'.

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So my blood sugar sometimes drops when I eat, especially when I eat at restaurants, and I tend to feel 'out of it' for about 5-10 min, you know a little dissociation, nothing serious. What pissed me off was that mom kept insisting that it was that I was spacing out and feeling 'out of it' because I was in 'tranquility', she didn't accept my explanation of the drop in blood sugar. Fuck I hate that mum and sis have these damn new age ideas in their heads. They don't accept anything I say cause it doesn't fit in with their beliefs.

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When you plan on doing some useful shit for the day, but then:

Period used incapacitate. It is super effective!

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I'm worrying about the ovarian cyst and all the problems it could cause. Again. And I'm wishing I was born a guy. Again. damnitdamnitdamnit.

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Of course I'm fucking heavy

So i said several times during the years to my sis that I can't find people who like doom metal like I do (aka the stoner drone kind).... so it's not like me liking heavy metal is a secret or anything (and she heard me playing doom,hardcore etc songs ). I told her that I can't go to a gig cause it's not heavy enough for me.....She expresses surprise that 'I'm that heavy'... she knows I went to some extreme metal festivals... and she's surprised that I'm heavy. Da fuck sis this just re-enforces the fact that you don't know anything about me. 

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I have a useless piece of meat I'd be more than willing to donate and I can't cause "it's still functioning". Well so do Wisdom Teeth but we take those suckers out, so why not this too?