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How to get myself to stop thinking about shitty episodes in a show I like lmfao

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When people call a character you love a trait and it's like definitely true but it still makes you cringe really fucking hard and feel shitty

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You ever just want to be your favorite characters to escape your disgusting life or

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You ever just see an interpretation of a character and you immediately recoil at it but then it feels like your brain just. Can't let go of it and it's like some switch where all of a sudden you agree with it or smth but like....you really don't want to and you liked your original interpretation

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Nobody:

Me: gets attached to the random side character that's a gremlin

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You ever just randomly get a knot in your gut and you don't know why but it won't go away

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When you realize the shame you feel over thinking about your comfort character comes from the fact that he thinks different and misses things sometimes (some people call it oblivious but I. Really don't want to) but like it doesn't line up with how you've interpreted him over the years and it's like "....k. what now."

Like I physically can't see him as "oblivious?" No matter how hard I try? Even though it's there in the text.

....although to be fair halfway through the show he's in this trait DOES get exaggerated a LOT thanks to new writers. I just can't tell if I feel weird because my brain is just deleting his character traits or if my interpretation is closer to the correct one, and a trait of his that was part of a few jokes or like...very specific situations just got exaggerated to hell and back.

Like idk but it's really harshing my daydreaming vibe and it sucks :/

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Actually you KNOW WHAT, FUCK THAT, IT'S NOT. I WAS SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT AND I REALIZED. IT'S NOT HIS OBLIVIOUSNESS. IT'S HOW HE'S TREATED LIKE A JOKE ALL THE FUCKING TIME FOR NOT GETTING THINGS. AND HOW HE'S ALWAYS TREATED LIKE HE'S ACTUALLY TERRIBLE. AND HE'S ALWAYS PUT IN THE POSITION OF BEING THE PROBLEM. FUCK YOU. HE'S A BEAUTIFUL CHARACTER AND I LOV HIM A LOT.

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@oodideas THANKS I DID

I just have the anxieteed because I wasn't thrilled with every single aspect of his arc and also like, half the fanbase hates the character so I ALSO have to look at that and it makes me go "what if I don't actually like this character anymore ):" and then I actually went through that process and was like "....no, I physically can't do that" and so I ACTUALLY thought about what my problem was and a lot of it was shit like

-exaggerating character traits in later seasons to the point of it almost being ooc (like him being slightly childish due to being selfish in nature was inflated into a full blown immaturity and it was just DIFFERENT)

-always treating the character like a nuisance/problem of the day

-making the character the butt of the joke a lot

And like >:/ fuck you writers

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When you realize the shame you feel over thinking about your comfort character comes from the fact that he thinks different and misses things sometimes (some people call it oblivious but I. Really don't want to) but like it doesn't line up with how you've interpreted him over the years and it's like "....k. what now."

Like I physically can't see him as "oblivious?" No matter how hard I try? Even though it's there in the text.

....although to be fair halfway through the show he's in this trait DOES get exaggerated a LOT thanks to new writers. I just can't tell if I feel weird because my brain is just deleting his character traits or if my interpretation is closer to the correct one, and a trait of his that was part of a few jokes or like...very specific situations just got exaggerated to hell and back.

Like idk but it's really harshing my daydreaming vibe and it sucks :/

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Actually you KNOW WHAT, FUCK THAT, IT'S NOT. I WAS SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT AND I REALIZED. IT'S NOT HIS OBLIVIOUSNESS. IT'S HOW HE'S TREATED LIKE A JOKE ALL THE FUCKING TIME FOR NOT GETTING THINGS. AND HOW HE'S ALWAYS TREATED LIKE HE'S ACTUALLY TERRIBLE. AND HE'S ALWAYS PUT IN THE POSITION OF BEING THE PROBLEM. FUCK YOU. HE'S A BEAUTIFUL CHARACTER AND I LOV HIM A LOT.

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When you realize the shame you feel over thinking about your comfort character comes from the fact that he thinks different and misses things sometimes (some people call it oblivious but I. Really don't want to) but like it doesn't line up with how you've interpreted him over the years and it's like "....k. what now."

Like I physically can't see him as "oblivious?" No matter how hard I try? Even though it's there in the text.

....although to be fair halfway through the show he's in this trait DOES get exaggerated a LOT thanks to new writers. I just can't tell if I feel weird because my brain is just deleting his character traits or if my interpretation is closer to the correct one, and a trait of his that was part of a few jokes or like...very specific situations just got exaggerated to hell and back.

Like idk but it's really harshing my daydreaming vibe and it sucks :/

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Catch me feeling a hole in my heart where the happiness from my main daydream character gave me. Suddenly it's just not working lol.

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I COULD just let go but the catch 22 is that I'm so emotionally attached I don't want to just forget completely... probably just gonna cut daydreaming or like, start trying to introduce something new without like... completely forgetting about the character that means a whole lot to me.

If anybody has any advice... I'd really appreciate it.

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I suppose maybe just ...taking a break from daydreaming/the para in general might be good for me.... I'm just scared I'll forget him forever and I just, don't want that.

Although I guess if I'm happy it's not as big a deal as I'm making it out be....but....I have gone for periods without daydreaming and I Feel like I'm missing him, so....

Idk this has just been a comforting action for a long time and now it's just not really working and it's really upsetting me. Wish I could go back to the good old days when I first found my character.

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Catch me feeling a hole in my heart where the happiness from my main daydream character gave me. Suddenly it's just not working lol.

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I COULD just let go but the catch 22 is that I'm so emotionally attached I don't want to just forget completely... probably just gonna cut daydreaming or like, start trying to introduce something new without like... completely forgetting about the character that means a whole lot to me.

If anybody has any advice... I'd really appreciate it.

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Catch me feeling a hole in my heart where the happiness from my main daydream character gave me. Suddenly it's just not working lol.

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Feeling sad about my comfort character today folx. New day same problem

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Tfw all of a sudden your main daydream character suddenly. Doesn't work, and all the problems you've had with the way he was written in Canon come crashing down on you because the things you've made up for him in your mind and the problems you've projected onto him just like, feel like they don't actually exist

Like I know this is basically the whole canon/fanon debate but sometimes thinking about canon in relation to what I've done with the character just. Make me feel the sads because ultimately I'm disappointed in what canon did and idk what to do about it

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Like I genuinely love this character a Lot and he holds a special place in my heart but at the same time when I think about what happened on The Canon Show it's just....meh idk it feels like what I've done is meaningless in a sense? Like I'm lov him a lot still but it's getting hard to ignore the feelings I get about this, and like on one hand my brain is just going "just daydream about something else!" But at the same time I feel like....I don't want to let go of something that's brought me so much happiness and is so special to me.

If anybody has any advice I'd genuinely appreciate it, I know I'm kind of screaming into the void here but if you perchance happen upon this post then please spare some knowledge

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Tfw all of a sudden your main daydream character suddenly. Doesn't work, and all the problems you've had with the way he was written in Canon come crashing down on you because the things you've made up for him in your mind and the problems you've projected onto him just like, feel like they don't actually exist

Like I know this is basically the whole canon/fanon debate but sometimes thinking about canon in relation to what I've done with the character just. Make me feel the sads because ultimately I'm disappointed in what canon did and idk what to do about it

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Me when watching my favorite comfort character be a jerk and fuck up: lmao I love him so much, he's the best, I love characters that are jerks

Me after with my thoughts and Anxiety: wow he really was a jerk huh ): really cruel and egotistical huh ): ):

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Honestly it's probably mostly just the fact that he's the type of character that's hit or miss for some people, which DOES tend to happen with characters who aren't really so Nice Tm, but then I have to see people like. Fucking hate him and then it seeps into me which SUCKS because I'd just like to enjoy something that's really important to me emotionally without having to get anxiety about it

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Me when watching my favorite comfort character be a jerk and fuck up: lmao I love him so much, he's the best, I love characters that are jerks

Me after with my thoughts and Anxiety: wow he really was a jerk huh ): really cruel and egotistical huh ): ):