Obscurity.

veronicadeebee | 26 | texas | mixologist | artist | cat-enthusiast | equality supporter | friendly human | INFP | aquarius | IG, Snapchat, Kik- veronicadeebee

[stuff-from-web]

clouds and sunsets

[pre-party]

[jacularmetteld]

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[veronicadeebee]

I always forget about my Tumblr. It's nearly 4 am and I'm feeling really conflicted. I haven't had feelings for anyone in a long time and I thought I might for someone these past few months...and I thought they might feel the same. Now I don't think they do but I'm wondering if I really actually did or if I just really like them as a person and want them in my life. Or this could just be a defence mechanism for being rejected...I don't know. What I do know is that I really care about this person but certain events have made me hesitant about the level of friendship I put in. Was it really just me being a friend or was I wearing my heart on my sleeve? I find it impossible that they could possibly be unaware of my feelings...but who knows. I had a plan and now it's ruined but that's okay. At least I know I'm capable of feeling like this about someone and I'll be able to feel this again. Its not like I was ready for an actual relationship and it's not like I was even 100% certain of these feelings since there is a giant obstacle we haven't crossed yet. Its still too early to say but I have to let go so I can live a healthy life without thinking about them so much. Its pretty ridiculous how it's made me these past months... They aren't even doing anything wrong. Its me. Its all me. Well I'm making a choice now to get up and go with the flow for real this time with no ties to anyone that can grasp at my heart. That sounds dramatic af but I don't care. No one will read this and I feel a bit better about doing this for myself. So maybe you weren't waldo...that doesn't mean I won't find them at some point. By then I'll have to be ready.

[veronicadeebee]

That thing...

I’m 25 and made a 2 year commitment… I wonder at what age I’ll feel that thing that ‘‘normal’‘ people feel when they want and NEED to be with that one person. The game changer. I just wonder…

[lavenderandpear]

The man holding this #BlackLivesMatter sign is Richmond (CA) police chief Chris Magnus, whose department has not lost an officer or killed a citizen since 2007, the year after he took over. This is not an accident, this peacefulness is the direct result of his leadership. Police departments across the country should be looking to his department as an example to be followed.

‘Chief Magnus changed the department from one that focused on “impact teams” of officers who roamed rough neighborhoods looking to make arrests to one that required all officers to adopt a “community policing” model, which emphasizes relationship building.

“We had generations of families raised to hate and fear the Richmond police, and a lot of that was the result of our style of policing in the past. It took us a long time to turn that around, and we’re seeing the fruits of that now. There is a mutual respect now, and some mutual compassion.”’

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the interview is pretty awesome if you want to watch it: https://www.yahoo.com/news/richmond-california-police-chief-chris-magnus-talks-community-policing-in-katie-couric-interview-044448393.html?ref=gs

[sabbatine]

They also do regular officer trainings with roleplay scenarios and airsoft guns to teach them how to de-escalate, how to avoid firing when fired upon, and how to deal with people with weapons in a way that doesn’t end with a shootout.

They also apparently go through the details of officer-involved shootings elsewhere, picking them apart and using them as teaching tools for what NOT to do or what the officer could have done to avoid shooting the person.

Essentially, they take a proactive approach to not shooting people and put time, money, and effort into it. Richmond isn’t a low-crime area. Other cities could follow their model and almost certainly see results.

[brinconvenient]

Who’d have thought it would take so much work to learn how to just … NOT shoot people

[trashmouse]

These are the sort of police officers who deserve respect.  The ones who take the time to build a relationship with the community they’re supposed to be protecting, and work to actually protect people instead of just shooting anyone who looked scary.

[oswinstark]

In before anyone tries to say that the only reason this works is because Richmond is probably like “not as bad” as other places in the US

I grew up here. I’m close to Richmond. It used to be one of the most dangerous cities in America. Literally. In 2006 it was #11 in the Most Dangerous Cities in America. 

Now? It doesn’t even break the top 100.

What changed? This guy became police chief in 2007.

IT’S SO FUCKING WEIRD HOW THAT WORKS! *looks pointedly at every other police force in America*

[infomics]

[floorwildcat]

Holy guacamole and cheddy cheese!

[anomalousdata]

“I mean, that’s not really that impres–JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.”

[joeal-kaysani]

insp.

[veronicadeebee]

Lmfaaaaaao

[cucumberbenny-deactivated202109]

(x)

[themostfuniveverhad]

[veronicadeebee]

Just thinking about this little ball of rainbows and how he responded to me 4 times last year this month 👌👌👌

[webkinzyohoho-deactivated202111]

where’s the lie @danisnotonfire

[shelovessuperfruit]

😭❤️

[veronicadeebee]

And I was there! So close to all of those angels, they were SO incredible. I'll never forget that show. Love you!

[officialonewe]

mitchy baby ♥

[veronicadeebee]

This video was EVERYTHING

[r-oving]

LA LA LAND MEDLEY (feat. Kirstin Maldonado)

[veronicadeebee]

I am so DEAD

[les-beautiful-and-damned-deacti]

[phanfathers-blog]

so tol yet so smol

[veronicadeebee]

I love him SO much.

[veronicadeebee]

I wish I could relive this 😪 I'm so proud of them! The show was a true tribute to all their years on YouTube and the storyline was just so AMAZING. A lot of people don't really understand the show and that sucks...but you can't please them all. I'm 26 and I enjoyed every moment. I left feeling such immense joy and surprisingly also very inspired. Great job Dan and Phil on tatinof and everything you do! I look forward to many more years of their success💘