“I didn’t know you were in a relationship.” I mean how could I know that… we haven’t been in touch since…forever. I wish I could ask you about her, about your relationship.., I mean of course I can ask, but what would I do with your reaction. Would I be able to cope with your answer? Would I believe it? Would I even get any from you, a sincere response, not a general, avoidant one. What do I want to hear? Why do I want to torture myself, again? I’m jealous or more envious I’d say. You said she was moving to another city and therefore you decided to follow her there. Wow. She must be something special. Your relationship must be something. Why it didn’t work out for us? It’s been a while now since I could see love in your eyes looking at me. “How did you two meet? And where?” “Wow, you’ve been together for about 2 years, that’s a long time…” I see, no fear of commitment anymore. No avoidant attachment. All is gone. Is it still you, the one I thought I used to know. Her, I want to hear about her. Is she a foreigner? Is she similar to you? Is she so much different than me?















