Nameless Poets

"Every cloud eventually falls as rain" idk, just a place where i post my poems!

[vigen7r7]

i swear i will write something positive about love (i can't im bitter)

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3. “Love Isn’t Even Real”

Loathing in silence my heart will slowly ferment, Onto lingering feelings of an ardent admirer, Voraciously awaiting your infatuation's slow increment Even if for me it burns as bright as a raging fire Intimate lover, what can I do to be yours? So blinded by love of such little adore No matter the signs or the lies I ignore Too fixated on waves that wash up ashore Ecstasize me with your brief warm embrace Vagariously tell me my love was misplaced Eat up my heart as I follow and chase Now left in the dark, just left with your name Rid me of you, and I lose all of my reasons Either undo my fault or your heart's treason Ardent admirer, our worlds have long lost cohesion Leave me in silence, and my heart's stone cold concretion

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2. "City of Cries"

It fades into the night, slips into my eyes All that I lose, and all that I might I don’t know what to do in this city of cries Living vicariously through the ghosts of the night So I buried my joy into hardening cement And I made into words all the tears I had wept Into seventy-seven pages of night long laments Describing a promise I’d never had kept Keep walking along as I try to forget I’m as fragile and see-through as glass Keep sulking alone to my life-long regrets I’m a red flag, a fool, and a mess But I couldn’t tell you, and I had to fake it Had to pretend it didn’t matter at all But inside I’m dying, and I couldn’t take it Had to revise and put up all these walls But now I’m alone, there’s nowhere to go No text on my phone, no message to close All sins to atone, just space to dig holes I’m fighting a memory of my only hope So I slip into the night, and I close my eyes And I hope to god someone reads what I write But it’s just one more cry in a city of cries Living vivaciously in a world full of lies

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1. “Insanity and Coffee”

I was once lost in your eyes, in a gaze of silence As if I had seen a semblance of love in this world of violence Now I dread to look your way, and your voice is stridence As if the choir of my soul had been stripped away of violins I had pledged to stay away, to never speak to your heart And yet the memory of you stays and never leaves me apart I had pledged to look away, to only gaze at the stars Yet the shadow of you lingers in the passing of cars How in the world do I get over you? Over this passing silence, in the words you undo Over my ceaseless questions, of what I’d ever do Over the painful memory of having ever loved you Because the gust of wind of the rooftop carries me away To a place that I wish was nowhere near to today Every step near the edge was a step closer to numbing All the memories of a love that’d never be coming So I say to the illusion of you, that I’m sorry But I couldn’t do it, not one step away I’ve fallen in love with your insanity and coffee Two things that always keeps me awake

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“Wisteria”

I write away every piece of me that longs for you,  In tumultuous poems, in gloomy phrases, Covertly wishing the ink of my pen diminishes, So I don’t have to write you away in empty pages As our love is like Wisteria, wrapping around the roof of a broken patio, Flowering this disheveled world, but waiting to be disentangled I mustn’t need your hanging promises, nor the smell of your rose Yet the loneliness I’ve been used to, you’ve made newfangled So I shall write again, and again, about the love I’d not found And I’d cry again, and again, until I whimper no sound To whom I had loved, to whom I have tried to, I will write of you till I forget who I was writing to

[vigen7r7]

Love to you, must be a fleeting moment; like a stranger passing by, a leaf fleeing in the wind, thunder striking the ground, or cars speeding past the highway. It leaves as quickly as it comes.

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#77 "The Only Constant"

To my favorite person, to my sparkling twilight, to my sunset, to my nightfall, I'd like to wish you words through this poem as if you were a falling star As if my unfeigned expression is enough to make your salient heart fall, As if telling you again could reach and touch your soul from afar And yet despite all these "if's", I still chose to write to your heart Because despite everything changing, some things remain as they are Like the conservation of energy, the warmth of the sky, and the colors of art The strings of the universe unravel, all from a paper on an escritoire Because something about you makes you so hard to forget Is it your hair, your smile, the most attractive I've ever met? Maybe it's your spark, your words, your limitless glow, Maybe it's you that I just want to get to know And yet when we sit together, I get cold, I get quiet Running out of words to say, when I'm so lost in your silence Treasuring our every moment, counting the minutes of every call That if I have never met you I’d have no idea what perfect is at all You are the autumn, the winter, and every one of the seasons, You are beauty, complexity, and all of my reasons You are the castle, the knight, the queen, the king, You are the soon, the now, forever, my everything You need not answer this poem, I just wanted to let you know How much I wanted to thank you, how much you've alleviated my sorrow How much I think of you, how much you make tomorrow How much I appreciate the time from you I borrow As trees will fall and stand, as time will mold mountain ranges, As words will tell wishing fountains, as dunes form from grains of sand, As even if change is constant, some things really never changes For my love for you in this world, remains as its only constant

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this is so random, but i just want to share a passage from my journal

"I am so obsessed with "everything". So obsessed with mistakes, with solutions, with delusions, with, well, everything. This is my life. A drop in the bucket, a leaf in a bush, a branch of a tree, a cog in the machine. Floating, swaying, falling, spinning in the intricacy of your design. But even in the machine i become a part of, the millions of people that pass by, the hundreds I get to meet, I don't know a single one of them. Not a single one. Not even you"

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ts is so me 😭😭

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#76 "Masochist"

The river of blood I'd seek to bind to, Calls out to me like a violent cry "I am all that you'd love and you'd hate to, It is pain that makes you, it will keep you alive" So I drown in your stream of flaws And I live like the wolf and the rabbit, I sink into your sharpened claws, And I’d willingly sink again like a bad habit, Cut me in pieces, make me bleed, Pull out my hair like lawns with weed, Make my skin crawl, give me a laceration, Make me befall and feed my fascination, Because I’d rather die in your arms, Live with your scars, Live with these lies, Than live without it Even if I’d likely be harmed, Ran over by cars, Meet my demise, Or forever submit Though why do I love you, sweet hurt of mine? Why do I enjoy the bruises you leave behind? Why do I long for your callous knives? Your razor-sharp words, that’d make me cry Maybe the pain is distraction, From the sadness of reality, So the torment of our interactions, Makes me forget life’s triviality So river of blood, let me sink into you, Let me cry out a sorrowful brew, You are the pain that I hate, but the pain that I need So cut me again, and that is all I would plead

[vigen7r7]

i think ive hit a literary roadblock, i cant think of anything to write about because my life is boring as hell, help

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#75 "Hangman"

Threading fiber, sleek and thin, Woven out and woven in, He cast the rope and let it sing, A lullaby that keeps his world a spin, Stood in the midst of a meadow, Under the shadow of a gloomy tree, Where he reaped the tears he sow, Where he forgot life’s glamor and glee, “The world is all just melancholy, My death will leave the world the same, My tightened necklace is not an act of folly, But my tears are an admittance of shame, I am not wanted, I am not needed, I am simply cleaning the mess I made, I was prideful, and I was conceited, Now I am nothing, that I am afraid” So he strung the rope around his neck, And the clouds started to cry with him The scene was grizzly and grotesque, His thoughts were sorrowful and grim Then he heard her, galumphing and calling out from the rain “Oh lost love of mine, don’t you drift into that endless sleep!” Her voice was comfort, as if it was his heart’s remains “Don’t leave me! The world hasn’t ended, can’t you see?!” He didn’t answer, acting like he couldn’t hear anything “You think your death means nothing? As if nobody was here? If you die here my love, you change everything, Because everything you could change disappears!” The two just stood standing, in the pouring rain Where they stared at each other, when love began, Under strikes of thunder, in such grueling pain, Where they stood playing lover and hangman

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#74 “Obsessive”

It is by my retort, to the painful truth That this love of mine is gruesomely true To this trail of yours that I blindly pursue To my mistakes that I thought were far and few It is all but my own misunderstanding It is by my eyes, That I wept to this lonely romancing It is by my words, That I be left alone in my ramblings I must make the world uncomfortable I must make the world in unease I must live a lie and a fairytale I burned my only forest and tree Never love again, I say to myself, Never talk to anybody, I write in my journal Never hurt again, I carve into my wrist Never love again, cause I'm not normal It is only by solitude that I can live normally I’m past all forms of emotional prevention I’ll be left alone, and then maybe I’d finally, Leave all this behind, both denial and obsession

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#73 “Make-Believe”

Betwixt the sorrow and shortcomings of life, Lie my hopeful flickering candlelight, In the midst of everything wrong and right, Lie the heartfelt words that I’d want to recite, And yet how could I tell you all the reasons why? Why I cast you my wishes, why I smile all the time, To my pen that I hold that confess when it writes, All troubles seem to fade when I am by your side So don’t ever let go of my hand darling, Don’t ever break the heart you’ve sewn together Even if that heart is frail and scarring, Even if our love’s sentence breaks into letters Because the days I spent with you has taught me, That love is not some long forgotten mystery, That it is as real as beach sand and blue seas, That it is as fierce as fire blazing from dead trees Speak your melody in my mute madness, Brush your color in my monochrome world, Tell me jokes in my realm of sadness, Hold my hand if loneliness unfurled, Even if you were to disappear My love for you will never leave For I’d never expect that you my dear, Would teach me that love isn’t make-believe

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#72 “Syncope”

Under the veil of the somber night’s sparkle, Whistling languidly all that leaves you bereft Was the gal of the evening that made me fell, Was the missing part of my soul that had left, But why had you left me as so, my dear? Has your journal been rewritten?  Have you been struck by fear? Have I in your mind been ridden? Had I left you in tears? So frugal with your longing,  So hasty with your touch, Yet to yours truly belonging, All of me and as much I still love you my dear, even if we are worlds apart Even if they indict you as a witch,  Even if it was venom you impart, Even if you leave me in a ditch, Even if for years you depart, Because I still adore you, my love I still miss the words we’d say I still miss your brilliant eyes I still miss the afternoon day Where you’d force me to smile So over the enchanting lights, sat upon a seat The most beautiful thing that the eye could see That precious smile, your words so sweet, Just talking to you could give me syncope

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#71 “Fate of False Love”

Look to the stars above, to the trail you cast Over your midnight love, in your troubled past Occlude the misery of reality, but leave the breadcrumbs of faith Keeping me lost in totality, but string me along in your wake Anxiously holding your hand, when I know you will let go Trying to carry the sand of hope that blows away Mystic words of yours I fall for, promises made long ago Yet were made to be broken, to be kept for a day Eyes of your that I’d wholly admire Yet the gaze fell upon the dim mire Evenings I spent with all of your lies Spent love for the cost of demise And yet I still adore the words you have told me Night after day before you left me here lonely Destined to love but to be unloved for Destined to long but to be unlonged for See the stars above and realize how small was the trail you cast Eager to find an answer in the murky waters of your troubled past Even then, I search for the breadcrumbs of faith you left me that night No longer strung along in darkness, but willingly lost in your sight

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#70 “Evening Aspen Tree”

These tarnished lint swing in the sway of the wind Aspen trees, your quaking leaves, dance along with your kin Keen eyes of yours that keep the world aspin Even skies will follow when you cry, colorful with your tinge Yellow tree, set me free of my own seclusion Offer me shade, but let me see past your inclusion Usher in assurance, let me breathe a sigh of relief Rest your branches on me, let me start to believe Thicket of leaves brazen with your affection In the wooden bark lie our love's foundation Meager sticks of ours that hold it together Evening Aspen tree, you fall like a feather