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My Opponent Is Palling Around With Sex Workers, Street Gangs And Rich Oil Companies.

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Giving up certain privileges

Hey online world I know it’s been a while. Money is tight for me right now.  So even buying data is a privilege. Unfortunately I have to use carefully the little data I have. From December il only be able to use it WhatsApp and blog and tweet once a month. Being unemployed is rough but not being able to help out at home is even worst. I’m currently looking for a part time job which will be more…

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Deactivated my Facebook

Lately I found myself depressed by going on Facebook. The truth is I am a little jealous when I see how much people got going on, in their lives compare to mine.  I know I sound petty.  Maybe anxiety is to blame or I want to blame anxiety. Facebook shows me beautiful women that I know I can’t have.  So much temptation.  So Facebook has been bad for my mental health and so I decided to deactivate…

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How much more therapy do I need?

Hey bloggersphere its me living in my own little anxiety world filled of worries and stress.  Doesn’t sound fun right!  Cause it isn’t. This past weekend I almost found myself lashing out at my mom in anxious rage because my mind was going crazy with anxious thoughts. I could hear them so loud in my head and I’m trying to focus and my mom talking to me and it began to irritate me. I was wanted to…

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A heart breaking situation

This past Thursday I was disappointed to learn my neighbour was moving!  Why? Because I love their dog Jackie who always visits me as you made of read in my last post. The disturbing news I got was my neighbour wasn’t really moving but actually they got kicked out for not paying rent.  They had some family issues when my neighbour retired from work he collected a substantial amount of money which…

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Jackie I will miss I had to wake up early because I had an appointment with my psychologist. So I went to the hospital and came home about 2 in the afternoon.

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I've been struggling

I’ve been struggling

Hi it’s your friendly neighborhood blogger spiderman just kidding. I know I haven’t been consistent lately with my blog Posts.  There’s a reason.  If you read my blog or stumbled upon it you will know I have an anxiety disorder. There are days I don’t want to get out of bed.  It’s takes a lot of effort to do the simplest of things like go outside,  take a walk,  visit a friend.  It feels…

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Feeling Pressured

Lately I’ve been feeling really pressured in all areas of my life ever since I’ve been to a neighbors funeral this past tuesday. Life is short and the day has only gotten shorter ever since I’ve set goals with deadlines.  Anyway going to that funeral got me thinking! Right now in my life I’m a Loser to peoples standards.  Still I want to achieve success in my parents life time,  while they still…

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I met the perfect girl for me but!

Hey its me again. It’s finally the weekend and didn’t have much plan till a family friend invited my family for a birthday party.  My mom wasn’t to well so I decided I’d go with my dad.  I was really dreading going there. Like?  Whom will I talk to.  Hope we there not to long. Finally we arrived there I was anxious to want to go home.  I was feeling uncomfortable. Social anxiety you could say.…

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The most boring weekend ever!

It’s Saturday not so much a yay day.  I’m actually bored out of my my mind.  Usually my neighbour’s dog Jackie a Jack Russell visits us every day but today she’s nowhere around.  Also no friends in sight.  Hey probably with their wives or girlfriends.  I honestly don’t know what to do. I did start writing a book.  Only wrote 2 chapters it’s about anxiety.  Still I’m not in the mood to do anymore…

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Last night movie primer

Last night was kinda a special night.  A friend of mine made a movie and had a premier for it. I went with him to show my support and I’m glad I did.  It was a great event. Red carpet,  photographers,  selfies with actors and actresses. The atmosphere was amazing. Oh and not to forget the free popcorn and coke. Even though I had a fall out with this friend in the past due to personal issues. I’ve…

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New anxiety medication! Prescribed

Today I woke up about half past five this morning to go to the hospital to see the psychiatric doctor.  The worst thing about going to a government hospital is the long lines in front of you.  It’s why I had to wake up so early to beat the crowd so I can get a good spot in the line to see the psych doctor.  Minutes felt like hours for someone suffering with an anxiety disorder.  It was…

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Dogs are better friends than humans!

Lately I find myself to have a best friend called jackie! She’s a dog, breed: jack russel. Cute brown and white dog and so small that you can easily carry her. She’s not my dog but my opposite neighbours. She’s in and out my house most of the time with a small hole in the fence she made. I honestly don’t mind either do my parents. They have also taken a liking to her. Anyway as for my blog title.…

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To be a just a graphic designer or an illustrator!

Lately I found myself thinking  a lot about the type of graphic designer I want to be. I mean everyone now days knows how to use photoshop and add a few text and effects and you got a poster! But with illustration it starts from scratch and the design is what ever you want it to be. 100 per cent your creation. Of course there are people who actually do know what they doing in photoshop as graphic…

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Last night's Graphic design and novel conference was awesome

Last night’s Graphic design and novel conference was awesome

Hi bloggersphere finally I have some good news to post. Before I get to last night’s design event I must tell you how I got invited to such an event. A while back I saw a graphic designer in the paper and she suffers with anxiety like I do and even lives in the same town that I live in. I had to friend her on Facebook and tell her how much her story inspired me. After that we gotten a bit…

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Finding my place in this world!

Hi dear blog family, I know I kinda got lost lately. I’m sorry! Its just that I’ve been going for therapy because I’ve been falling apart. It seems I’ve been diagnosed with pathological anxiety which is worse than generalised anxiety. I’ve just been struggling to cope, worrying about getting a job, getting better as a graphic designer, getting married and so on and so on. Its why I haven’t…

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