most are hurt/comfort and fluff! english is not my first language so do expect grammar errors :) my inbox is always open, enjoy reading! likes and reblogs are appreciated.
So…I’ve once again hit the 100-link limit way too early this month and completely lost track of just how many fics I actually read.
At this point, these posts are basically just self-callouts for how chronically online I am. I swear I was going to do better with my screen time this month 😭
But since it’s the last weekend of the month, I figured now’s as good a time as any to finally post this massive list of fic recs. So y’all can settle in, get comfy, and hopefully join me in my chronically online tendencies for a bit, lmao.
Hope you have as much fun going through these as I did this past month!
As always: please like and reblog the fics you love. Tell authors what their work meant to you. Engagement builds community. It genuinely makes a difference.
And if you’ve got recommendations? You already know I’m all ears.
Massive shoutout to @cafekitsune for the insane number of dividers I'm obsessed with.
Key: A - Angst | F - Fluff | S - Smut | C - Comfort | HC - Hurt/Comfort
Other Monthly Lists: 2026 Masterpost
Clark Kent | Superman:
> Curiosity Will Never Let me Go by @kryptidfiles
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 2k
Description: Clark's from out of this world. Not in the abstract, romantic, larger-than-life way the rest of the world said about Superman. No, your boyfriend was factually an alien. Kryptonian. What you do not know, and unfortunately cannot stop thinking about, is how far that whole thing went.
> Superman Day by @/kryptidfiles
Tags: One Shot, F + C
Word Count: 1k
Description: Quick drabble. Fluff, a little angst for my tall, dark, kryptonian 🥀 happy belated Superman day.
> Too Short by @satellite-evans
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 5.2k
Description: You cut your hair too short. Clark still thinks you’re the prettiest person he’s ever seen.
> No Harm Done With a Little Fun by @/satellite-evans
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 5k+
Description: You love Clark Kent more than anything, which is exactly why you’ll never stop pranking him <3
> Just Me And You by @/satellite-evans
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 1k+
Description: You and Clark share a quiet, intimate moment where he finds peace in you.
> Every Inch Of You by @/satellite-evans
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 7k+
Description: In the quiet of his apartment, Clark and you share a deeply intimate moment where being seen becomes something sacred for both of you.
> One Moment At A Time by @/satellite-evans
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 6k
Description: You and Clark being first-time parents means soft moments, overwhelming love, and a daughter who’s anything but ordinary.
> My Constant by @onlyasteelmancanbealover
Tags: One Shot, Chubby!Reader, Smallville!Clark, F
Word Count: 8.7k
Description: Clark lucks out with a best friend who loves comics. Talk about universal irony.
> Oh. That's New. by @theworstwolvie
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 2.7k
Description: Clark's got a big secret to tell you. Too bad he sucks at timing it.
> Breaking News: Clark Kent Confirmed As Tits Guy by @/theworstwolvie
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, C + S
Word Count: 900+
Description: Clark's got a fatal attraction to your tits, but how could you blame him? They're right above your heart.
> Home by @honeyy-darling
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + A + HC + S
Word Count: 8.7k
Description: What was supposed to be a gentle evening exposes Clark’s deepest fear: that someone else could give you the life he can’t
> Cupid at Your Service by @blank-tato
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 5.2k
Description: You're something of an oxymoron. A matchmaker that doesn't believe in love. You can literally see emotions, so if love were coming your way, you would see it coming. It just never has. But when you meet Clark Kent, the journalist tasked with writing a story on you, you find yourself questioning everything you thought you knew.
> "What's On The Menu?" by @bucksplum
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 2.9k
Description: Your very adorable regular, Clark Kent, walks in and you make the mistake of assuming you were closer that you are—some fumbling later, both of you have to confront that conversation but it comes with an easier relief that you thought.
> Weakness by @funeraldollgirl
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 2.7k
Description: Gentle physical affection, emotional suppression, depression?, anxiety, ignore typos <3
> Little White Lies by @rosenclaws
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 1.6k
Description: Clark is a total sweetheart so it's no surprise you've developed a massive crush on him, it's also why you've been lying to him since you met.
> Clark Kent x Reader by @maiamore
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.5k
Description: The five times you try to break up with Clark Kent
> He's Just Not That Into You by @sc3ptre
Tags: One Shot, A + F
Word Count: 6.2k
Description: Dual identity (Kal-El x reader and Clark x reader), slight miscommunication trope and love confessions
> Clark Kent x Reader by @luveline
Tags: One Shot, C + F
Word Count: 414
Joel Miller | The Last of Us:
> I Owe You by @lillaydee
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Series (Ongoing), F + A + HC + S
Chapter Count: Pt. 13 | ...?
Description: 15 years ago, you begged Joel Miller for a favour, receiving only silence in response. You left Boston thinking he wasn't interested in your lame bargain. You found out, too late, that Joel Miller actually did do you that favour, fulfilling his end of the bargain, leaving you indebted to him. Now, all these years later, he arrived in Jackson, and you found yourself living your life, wondering - will he collect?
> Tender Payment For Our Sins by @3pirouette
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Series(Ongoing), F + A+ HC + S
Chapter Count: Pt. 64 | ...?
Description: Jackson is less idyllic than it seems, as is everything post-infection. He doesn't want to see you tossed out, and can’t take the way you flinch when the men come sniffing around, so he does the only thing he and Ellie can think of to keep you around.
> The Savage and The Sanctuary by @justagalwhowrites
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Series(Ongoing), 2nd POV, A+ HC + S
Chapter Count: Pt. 21 | ...?
Description: The biggest movie star in the world with your newly adopted niece in tow, you throw everything about Joel's life into flux. Is he capable of letting himself feel something again while protecting the only things left in the world that matter?
Multiple Pairings | The Pitt:
> Casual: Jack Abbot by @wordssforworldss
Tags: One Shot, HC
Word Count: 2.7k
Description: Miscommunication, hurt/comfort, tiny bit of angst
> Wait For Me (Jack Abbot) by @sun-snatcher
Tags: One Shot, A + HC + F
Word Count: 7.7k
Description: You saved Abbot’s life once before. Now he fights to repay the debt.
> Lowlight (Jack Abbot) by @speaking-to-thevoid
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 4.4k
Description: Jack misses dinner to work the events following pittfest, supporting the hospital, giving what he doesn't have to give. then he comes home.
> Futile Devices (Jack Abbot) by @abbotafterhours
Tags: One Shot, F + A + HC
Word Count: 6.4k
Description: He was four miles away when it happened. charting. completely unaware. and when they brought you in, pale and terrified and coming apart at the seams, he understood for the first time what it meant to be on the wrong side of the emergency.
> Sharp (Jack Abbot) by @/abbotafterhours
Tags: One Shot, F + HC
Word Count: 4.3k+
Description: You arrive at the pitt with a pair of hairdressing scissors impaled through your dominant hand and one very specific request: do not tell jack abbot. the pitt, as it turns out, is a very small building.
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @/abbotafterhours
Tags: One Shot, F + HC
Word Count: 2.2k
Description: Could you do more of Jack Abbot x hairdresser reader? Like she's getting busy with some clients who always need her service and she didn't even tell him who it was but it was actually one of the Pitt? And he gets jealous since he thought it was a privilege to him for her to do his hair and no one else could get it. You choose who. Jealous Jack, miscommunication, make up.
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @/abbotafterhours
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 2.2k
Description: Could you do fic where Abbots girlfriend is a cop who's gets hurt on duty and he doesn't find out till she's brought into the ER?
> Flare Up (Jack Abbot) by @megalony
Tags: One Shot, Chronic Illness!Reader, A + HC
Word Count: 6.4k
Description: While on shift, (Y/n) starts experiencing absent seizures. And when they start to get worse, Jack is there to take care of his wife.
> Jack Abbot x Autistic!Reader by @rotteninthepitt
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 460
Description: Eye contact with Jack and autistic!reader eek
> Drop (Jack Abbot) by @yournamesnob
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, S + C
Word Count: 658
Description: dom!Jack Abbot x f!sub!nurse!reader (hurt/comfort, aftercare, dom drop, lil cockwarming)
> Things We Shouldn't Say! (Jack Abbot) by @of-apollo
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 4.6k
Description: You’re the teacher that everyone adores, so it’s no surprise that the kids always come to you and ask you to take them to Jack. A bond develops through this, and you find yourself stuck with him when you have your own medical emergency.
> Comfort. Jack Abbot by @/of-apollo
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.5k
Description: This fic contains emotional burnout, hidden self-doubt, and a quiet unravelling behind a soft smile. includes gentle confrontation, tearful vulnerability, comfort food as a trigger and a remedy, and a fiancé who notices everything even when you try to hide. features soft reassurances, patient love, grounding touches, warm embraces, and being cared for when you feel least deserving of it. may cause chest tightness, misty eyes, and the sudden urge to be held and told you’re not alone. Read gently.
> Dog's Best Friend! (Jack Abbot) by @/of-apollo
Tags: Series, F
Chapter Count: 2
Description: When Jack takes you back to his place after the longest night shift, he is quick to warn you about the stubborn rescue dog living with him. However, in a beautiful turn of events, the dog takes a very strong liking to you.
> YKWIM? (Jack Abbot) by @fairydustttx
Tags: One Shot, A
Word Count: 1k
Description: Sometimes it seems like I'm in your way; Well, that's how it seems.
> It's Just Us (Jack Abbot) by @/fairydustttx
Tags: One Shot, Older!Reader, A + HC
Word Count: 2.1k
Description: You graduate with your PhD, a hard-earned milestone that feels different from anything before. Your boyfriend can’t get the day off, and his absence lingers as the ceremony unfolds.
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @rkkuna
Tags: One Shot, Older!Reader, F
Word Count: 617
Description: Jack Abbot being married to milf!reader hmmm.... a few years older than him.
> The Heart Skips A Beat (Jack Abbot) by @inknopewetrust
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, Older!Reader, F + C + S
Word Count: 6k
Description: Date night gets interesting when Robby unknowingly interrupts yours and Jack’s dinner with a date of his own—and no one is more nosy than the Abbots.
> Kiss it Better (Jack Abbot) by @thatcorporategirlie
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Part of a series but I read it as a one-shot (welp), Older!Reader, A + HC + S
Word Count: 12.2k
Description: You and Jack make up at his brother’s wedding.
> Call Me Home (Jack Abbot) by @lovebugism
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 4k
Description: When Jack catches you spiralling after a taxing double shift, his worry for you spikes when he discovers that Robby has been less than sympathetic with you, and that the PTMC is your only emergency contact on file.
> Is It So Much To Adore (Jack Abbot) by @flowersforbucky
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 7.3k+
Description: When you receive your first ever daisy award, you insist that you don’t need to have a pining ceremony. You’re used to celebrating your accomplishments quietly, on your own. You have your whole life. But Jack Abbott is determined to change that.
> Please (Jack Abbot) by @abbotly
Tags: One Shot, F + HC
Word Count: 10.2k+
Description: Abbot’s mildly annoyed when he doesn’t seem to be his favorite resident’s favorite attending — he’s pissed when he finds out she’s considering leaving the Pitt.
> Bed Chem (Jack Abbot) by @spikedfearn
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, A + HC + S
Word Count: 5.3k+
Description: Jack Abbot was still wearing his wedding ring the night he kissed you at your apartment door. Widowed and still learning how to want something again, Jack turns the best date you’ve had yet and one charged goodnight into something neither of you is ready to walk away from—and for him, wanting you is one thing, but letting himself have you is another entirely.
> In Love and War (Jack Abbot) by @thedarkseidofthemoon
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.8k
Description: As Jack's soon-to-be ex-wife, you never expected to see him again. Until you land in his ER.
> We Can't Be Friends (Jack Abbot) by @imaginesofwonder
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.7k
Description: A routine ER shift takes a sharp turn when Jack makes one thing clear—you were never just friends.
> Speaking in Plurals (Jack Abbot) by @pellucid-constellations
Tags: One Shot, F + A + HC
Chapter Count: 2
Description: When Jack met you, his world shifted. He began to speak in plurals, in groups of three. It was him, and then it was you, and then it was Penny. He’d do anything for his girls, and he wanted to make that clear. Official. Concrete with titles and questions and the ring he kept mulling over. And then life happened.
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @nancys-abbot
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 4k
Description: er!reader, oblivious!reader, one mention of a panic attack, vomit, and blood.
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @s-writing-s
Tags: One Shot, HC
Word Count: 900+
Description: “Why didn’t you tell me?” “Because I couldn’t lose my best friend to the idea of us.”
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @atlas-of-a-human-soul
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.5k
Description: "I am your superior." + "You can hate me in the morning, okay? Just don't hate me tonight."
> Jack Abbot x Reader by @/luveline
Tags: One Shot, C + F
Word Count: 393
> Jack Abbot x Milf!Reader by @thedilfydoctorshow
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Older!Reader, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 789
Description: Jack with his milf reader maybe even near the beginning of their relationship or timeskip after marriage and kids
> Jack Abbot x Diabetic!Reader by @inkdrinkerworld
Tags: One Shot, Chronic Illness!Reader, F
Word Count: 689
Description: "I’m pre-diabetic, but we need the rep! Jack’s a stage 1 clinger the SECOND his eyes open, and when you’re not there to be clung to, it doubles and triples till you come back."
> Private Patient (Jack Abbot) by @deliciousangelfestival
Tags: One Shot, Grumpy!Reader, F + C
Chapter Count: 2
Description: What if Jack Abbott ends up with a rich wife instead of being the provider?
> The Great War (Jack Abbot) by @dearwalker
Tags: Series, A + HC
Chapter Count: 2
Description: Years after your separation, life throws you back into Jack Abbot’s orbit in the worst way possible, carrying a devastating diagnosis that could be the reason your marriage fell apart in the first place: a tumor that may had erased the part of you that fell in love with him all those years back. And he’s not ready to lose you twice.
> Sunshine!Jack Abbot x Grumpy!Reader by @ontheoddoccasioniwritestuff
Tags: One Shot, A + HC + F
Chapter Count: 3
Description: Grumpy x Sunshine except Dr Jack Abbot MewD is the sunshine.
> Remember Me (Jack Abbot) by @at-this-point-i-dont-even-know
Tags: Series (Ongoing), A + HC
Chapter Count: 9
Description: Jack gets injured at work and passes out. When he’s regaining consciousness, he calls out for his dead wife and doesn’t know who you are and doesn’t want you to touch him bc he thinks he’s still married. He’s got a touch of amnesia and thinks that his wife is still alive. Robby and Dana finally get him to calm down but the damage is done and you’ve started to move out by the time he’s discharged.
> Dancing in The Dark (Jack Abbot) by @thegingerjameson
Tags: Series, A + HC
Chapter Count: 10
Description: A newly transferred trauma resident finds herself irresistibly drawn to her sharp-tongued, charismatic night-shift chief, Dr. Jack Abbot—a widower with a reputation for emotional unavailability. After months of flirtation, they finally give in to their chemistry, only for the night to end in heartbreak when he whispers another woman’s name in his sleep. Determined to stay professional, she’s blindsided when she’s promoted to work directly under him—just as the woman from his past arrives at the hospital. Now she must navigate ambition, jealousy, and lingering feelings while deciding if Jack is worth the risk.
> Acute Adoration (Jack Abbot, Michael Robinavitch) by @penvisions
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Series (Ongoing), Chronic Illness!Reader, HC
Chapter Count: 3
Description: Today is not a good day, but Jack Abbot happens to be dropping something off for Robby. Seems he's in a rather giving mood...
> Sugar Me Up (Jack Abbot) by @/penvisions
Tags: Series (Ongoing), WOC!Reader, A + HC
Word Count: Pt. 1 | ?
Description: A box of pastries begins to show up in the lounge every Tuesday and Jack is determined to find out who is behind it. But this week he doesn't even get to taste one- so he snaps at you when he spies the last treat in your hands. Alternatively, the one time Jack Abbot snaps you and the two times he tries to make up for it but seems to make it worse.
> Jack Abbot x Reader x Michael Robinavitch by @vulbott
Tags: One Shot, C + F
Word Count: 1.3k
Description: A domestic day-in with Rabbot!
> If You Want Me To (Michael Robinavitch) by @noonquiver
Tags: One Shot, A + HC + F
Word Count: 6k
Description: "I'm spending a good chunk of my life in love with you, Robinavitch." or, how Robby meets you, Dr. Cheung's prized neurosurgical resident, and can't exactly pull himself away.
> ICU vs ER (Michael Robinavitch) by @/paigepie213
Tags: One Shot, C + F
Word Count: 9.1k
Description: Reader is an ICU nurse and comes down to help out in the ER when needed.
> Mom and Dr. Daddy (Michael Robinavitch) by @paigepie213
Tags: One Shot, C + F
Word Count: 7.8k
Description: If you’re the ER mom, does that make Robby…?
> Michael Robinavitch x Milf!Reader by @/thedilfydoctorshow
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Older!Reader, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 1.1k
Description: I just feel like these two are both jealous but also only have eyes for each other, so I wrote that
> 68 Whiskey (Michael Robinavitch) by @somethingeh
Tags: One Shot, Older!Reader, A + F
Word Count: 4k
Description: Robby can't get enough of you, Jack's old war buddy and former army medic.
> Je Te Laisserai Des Mots (I Will Leave You Words) (Michael Robinavitch) by @in-my-feels-probably
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 6.2k
Description: You overhear Jack’s conversation with Robby about making sure he comes back, and it’s the final straw for your worrying about him. It’s time to confront him.
> Paging Dr. Daisy (Michael Robinavitch) by @redsakura101
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 4.8k
Description: Robby makes one last stop to check on Baby Jane Doe. Just to find you already there. The paediatric doctor known for your cheery demeanour...and right now that is the last thing Robby wants to be smothered by. Turns out you're not so pleased by him either. However with a little consideration and thought...It appears maybe you're both not that different at all.
> Too late (Michael Robinavitch) by @dolloebaby
Tags: Series (Ongoing), A + HC
Chapter Count: Pt. | ?
Description: Robby thinks he’s bad for you. too old, too rough around the edges, too damaged to be around a young, beautiful, budding doctor as yourself. So he ends it, unaware of your pregnancy, unaware of your grief, until you face a medical emergency in the middle of the ED.
> Once More To See You (Michael Robinavitch) by @docrobinavitch
Tags: Series, A + HC
Chapter Count: 2
Description: After what you thought was a one night stand while on vacation, you're forced to now work in your hook up's emergency room. With your life in shambles, you've sworn off men, but Robby is an inescapable force that you are not ready to reckon with.
Batfam:
> A Walk in The Park (Jason Todd) by @devisedplan
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 1.6k
Description: Despite being well prepared in case you got mugged (or worse), you were almost hurt being distracted while feeding a kitten if it weren't for a certain masked vigilante who came to your rescue
> Posture Training (Jason Todd) by @/devisedplan
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 1.5k
Description: An innocent suggestion turns into killing two birds with one stone
> The Magic Words (Jason Todd) by @starr-jazz
Tags: One Shot, F + C
Word Count: 776
Description: You’ve been urging to tell your boyfriend that you love him and you finally do. idkk confessing to something you think is asleep but they aren’t is one of my fav tropes. wrote this at 5 am w no sleep idk what this is.
> Reader Biting Jason's Bicep (Jason Todd) by @achinglovers
Tags: Blurb, F
Word Count: 298
> Wait..We're Not Dating? (Jason Todd) by @teklarn
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 1.2k
Description: For the entire year you and Jason have known each other, he assumed you two were dating and had no idea that you weren't.
> Slow Kisses (Jason Todd) by @batletters
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 608
Description: insecure Jay, kinda angst with comfort, yearner! Jason.
> Jason Todd x Reader by @waynews
Tags: One Shot, F + C
Word Count: 738
Description: Damian decided to pay Jason a visit & notice how his body got softer after getting a girlfriend!
> Jason Todd x Reader by @fancy-possum
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, Magic!Reader, F + C
Word Count: 1.9k
Description: You’re a magic user! you really thought you were getting the hang of it until Jason appears and you make the mistake of hypnotising him. woops.
> His Person (Dick Grayson) by @/fancy-possum
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 3.3k
Description: You and dick have been close friends for years now, and that's all it would ever be, but after he snaps and upsets you, things change.
> Whipped (Dick Grayson) by @patientofarkhamasylum
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 1.4k
Description: Light food play, m!receiving oral, riding
> Blue Stars (Dick Grayson) by @ghxstrobins
Tags: One Shot, Older reader/younger Dick, F + HC
Word Count: 3.1k
Description: After moving to Blüdhaven you decide to enroll your daughter in a gymnastics program at a local gym where you meet Dick Grayson.
Miscellaneous:
> Frank Castle x Reader by @sochkila
Tags: One Shot, WOC!Reader, F + C
Word Count: 544
Description: How you accidentally pavloved Frank with your anklets.
> Good Boy (Frank Castle) by @/sochkila
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 259
Description: How can you look at this man's eyes and tell me he is not a sub at heart for the person he is in looooooove with... i mean in my hc he is definitely a switch because dom frank is also very much canon but ykwim.
> Positive Intervention: Kiwi (Frank Castle) by @cryptidwriterrr
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Chapter Count: 2
Description: Curtis convinces Frank to attend group. Never says why. Everyone’s surprised when a service dog comes in, but Frank’s more intrigued by you—the handler.
> Midnight Snack (Frank Castle) by @/cryptidwriterrr
Tags: One Shot, A + HC + F
Word Count: 1.7k
Description: The lunch Frank makes for the twins looks good. Too good. And you get caught eating it.
> Freaks (Adrian Chase) by @embeanwrites
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F
Word Count: 3.2k
Description: Reader and Adrian keep meeting at Chris' orgies, but neither of them are having sex. Just chatting...while naked.
> Mini Me (Adrian Chase) by @vigilantexreader
Tags: One Shot, F
Word Count: 800+
Description: Reader crochets Adrian a mini Vigilante <3
> Sniffles & High Libido (Adrian Chase) by @/devisedplan
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 1.7k
Description: You are sick and horny. he sees it as an opportunity to help and bond with his bestfriend.
> Wingman-Classroom (Ryland Grace) by @doctor-ryland-grace
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F
Word Count: 3.3k
Description: You've heard of a wingman. But... What is it called when your entire classroom conspires to get you to admit to your crush on a fellow teacher?
> Heat Lighting (Frankie Morales) by @chronically-ghosted
Tags: One Shot, A
Word Count: 1.1k
Description: This is not your Frankie
> Under The Mask (Miguel O'Hara) by @multific
Tags: One Shot, A + HC
Word Count: 1.4k
Description: You slowly realise your boyfriend Miguel O’Hara is Spider-Man through his patterns.
> Bad Man's World (Miguel O'Hara) by @maiamore
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, A + F + S
Word Count: 2.8k
Description: Black cat!reader, violence, surveillance, f!receiving oral, Lyla makes an appearance, implied existing relationship
> Jealousy (Cassian Andor) by @cassadix
Tags: 18+, MDNI, One Shot, F + S
Word Count: 718
Description: Mentions of sex, some dirty talk, slightly possesive behaviour (though nothing extreme)
> Grade-A Pain in My Ass (Buck Barnes) by @superbassbuck
Tags: 18+, MDNI, Series, F + S + A + HC
Chapter Count: 13
Description: Bucky Barnes is a single dad who doesn’t do love. He’s got everything he needs: a steady job, cozy home, and his whole life wrapped up in one little girl, his daughter Rebecca. No complications, and absolutely no room for romance. After a rude and not-so-pleasant first encounter, he finds out you're the elementary school teacher of Rebecca's class. He would make it his mission to avoid you at all costs and to absolutely not fall in love with you. How could he? Especially since you're a grade-A pain in his ass.
im sorry im so emotional that the pitt has ended oml, :( it was a BIT underwhelming for me, i feel like something is missing, or a lot. i heard theres a few scenes that were cut so maybe thats the reason. but overall, its okay :)
after langdon performs the closed reduction and takes a second to himself outside the trauma room, he finds you grabbing supplies from a cart. before you can compute what’s happening, he grabs your face and presses an all consuming kiss to your mouth.
the gasp you let out gives him the opportunity to deepen the kiss and you fist his black scrubs in your hand, dropping all the equipment you’re holding.
“what was that for?” you ask breathlessly once he finally pulls away from you, eyes shining with utter delight.
“i did a closed reduction without neurosurgery and the guy is gonna be okay.”
“i was having second thoughts about being back. i didn’t know if i was good at this still, but i think i am.”
“you are,” you beam at him, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips. “and now is a horrible time for me to tell you this, but upstairs called dana. they said you had a drug test to submit at eight?”
“shit,” he nods, already moving towards the stairs. “i’ll be right back. i love you!”
“i love you too!” you call after him. “and i’m so proud of you!”
the emergency department was busy per usual but not overwhelming. it has been almost a year since you worked in ptmc.
9 months in, and the hospital already felt less intimidating, more like a place you belonged. your colleagues made it easy, always warm, always looking out for you in small, quiet ways that added up.
and then, there's him.
you just had your short break and now standing at the nurses’ station, flipping through a chart when he came up to you.
"careful," jack’s voice came low and amused.
you glanced up, "with what?"
he leaned slightly against the counter, "if you keep frowning like that, people are gonna think we don't treat you well here."
you rolled your eyes, but a smile slipped through anyway. "haha. you know what? maybe i will start complaining."
"yeah?” he tilted his head, eyes gleaming.
you shrugged, pretending to think. "meh, i'd say that one of the staff keeps bothering me during work hours."
"oh, no" he nodded slowly. "sounds super serious, we should not let that happen,"
he leaned into you to a bit, and whispered by your ear, making your breath hitch.
"point him out for me," he murmured. "i'll deal with it."
you huffed out a laugh, nearly stuttering. "you're annoying."
"and yet, you keep talking to me," his voice still soft.
your eyes flicked to his for just a second too long.
he smiled at you before turning away to do his charting, and you let out a quiet huff, brought a hand to the back of your neck.
it was such a small thing, but it always did something to you. jack has been like this from the start, slipping in flirty comments like it's nothing.
and the the other thing? you never really shut it down. you always play along, matching him, sometimes even starting it yourself. at this point, it was obvious that..
he might have a crush on you.
and you might feel the same about him.
but the two of you never said anything. you thought, as long as no one says anything, both of you can stay here. the flirting and teasing will stay. because the moment someone does, it becomes real. who knows if things would change? for the better or worse?
you had your mind in the air, occupied by your thoughts, while looking around the ed until you saw someone familiar by the entrance.
black hair, but it was short now. because the last time you saw him, it was long and kinda messy. this time it looked sharp and clean.
something stayed the same. his brows furrowed in a familiar manner, scowling and intimidating. his face confused as he walked in the ed. holding a phone awkwardly, like it would explode anytime.
your head snapped up fast.
"bucky??"
he turned instantly, and the moment your eyes met his, you were already moving.
you ran straight and leaped onto him, and he caught you like it was instinct, arms wrapping around you as he lifted you slightly, almost spinning you.
"hey–" he laughed, but his grip didn't loosen right away.
you pulled back, now breathless. "what are you doing here?"
"i'm looking for sam," he said. "torres got into an accident in a mission–"
your expression dropped. "they're here–? joaquin's.. oh my god."
"yeah."
"i didn't even know.." you frowned. "they must've gotten here while i was on my break. he’s probably up now. i'll check it out.."
"thanks, doll."
but neither of you moved right away.
"how've you been?" he asked.
you smiled at him, "good! great actually.. they take care of me well."
"yeah? i can see that," his eyes on you, lips forming a smirk.
behind the station, jack hasn't moved.
he was still by the nurses' station, but now his posture had changed. less relaxed and more.. aware.
watching, staring. at you and bucky. he saw everything from the start.
the way you said his name. the way you ran to him.
the way bucky held you. the way you smiled, it was slightly different than what he usually see.
it was more gentle and warmer.
he stepped away slowly, pretending to go to a patient when he saw you getting closer towards the station with bucky.
you introduced bucky to a few staffs. to dana and donnie, who was quick and professional.
princess? not subtle at all. she was scanning bucky up and down. her eyes lingering to his metal arm.
the hand that settled on your back as you guide him around the ed, it was light, and definitely casual.
or so you think.
that was when jack's jaw tightened at the sight.
dana nudged him. "you good?"
"yeap." he replied quickly
but his eyes were still on you.
you walked bucky further into the ed, talking like no time had passed. telling old jokes, easy laughter.
something, from way back when you worked together, was still there, lingering in every glance.
"i.. should go check upstairs," he said.
you nodded. "yeah. let me know if there's anything.."
"you too..", he paused for a while, still standing still.
"see you later?"
you smiled back, "yeah.. later."
when you came back, you still had your glowing smile. feeling lighter after you saw bucky. jack came up to you again and asked,
"so, who's he?"
you blinked, slightly caught off guard, "bucky? a close friend back from new york. he's visiting a friend of ours here."
jack nodded, "right.."
"you didn't introduce me." he said, not meeting you eyes as you looked at him.
"huh?"
"you were introducing him to everyone else."
you let out a small laugh. "you were busy, jack."
"yeah," he said.
but in his chest, he felt his heart tighten, remembering the interaction you had with bucky, because something about it felt.. off.
bonus?
"okay, so–", it was princess who slid next to you.
you sighed as you knew she might have a new gossip to talk about, "what is it now, princess?"
she grinned at you, "you have a type."
you stilled, "what are you talking about?"
she raised a brow. "your friend, rocky–"
"bucky."
"yeah, whatever." she waved it off. "and..."
her eyes was looking at someone across the room.
jack abbot.
"you have a type."
"and that is..?"
she started slow, saying them word by word.
"strong, broody... should i mention the staring problems? i was scared they might leave holes in the ed. literally both of them has it."
you tried to laugh it off, thinking that it could actually be true because both of them are veterans after all.
you wanted to cut the conversation short until princess said something fast and already tried to run from it,
"and you have a thing for mysterious men with metal limbs– k bye!!"
"WHAT-"
thinking of part 2 as we speak!!
but but i might be less active in writing cause i have less time than usual but no fret im still online :pp
you realized how quiet the apartment was when you woke up. no alarms, no rushing. just soft morning light spilling through the curtains and the comfort of knowing its your day off.
you stretched lazily, still wrapped in sleep, turning onto your side when you hear a something. heavy footsteps that is very familiar.
it was jack.
you didn't even have time to sit up before he appeared in the doorway, hair slightly damp, eyes half-lidded from exhaustion but immediately softening when they landed on you.
"hey," you mumbled, voice still thick with sleep.
he didn't answer right away. he just stared at you for a second, standing like a ghost. he was really tired. he was so ready to sleep all day since he too has a 'night' off.
then he exhaled, "i missed you."
"yeah?" you chuckled while he move into the bathroom, and you could hear his quick routine, water running in the sink, brushing his teeth, the sounds of him cleaning himself up after his shift.
you settled back into the bed, checking your phone for any messages. you were waiting for jack to lay beside you.
but instead,
you feel the mattress dipped, then solid weight dropped onto you, arms wrapping around your waist, pulling you flat against the bed as his face buried into your neck.
"jack!" you laughed softly, squirming. "you're crushing me"
he said something but his voiced muffled, not moving. "stay."
"i was never going anywhere."
"i know, stay."
his grip tightened, one leg hooking over yours, fully trapping you in place like you might disappear if he loosened his hold.
you sighed, but your hands came up naturally, threading into his curls.
"you're clingy, huh?" you teased.
"long shift, honey." he mumbled against your skin.
"you heal me."
your chest softened instantly. so you stayed.
his breathing slowed and his grip loosened just enough to be comfortable but never enough to let you go.
it tells you that he just dozed off on top of you. both of you stayed in that position until you yourself felt your eyes closing.
you slowly opened your eyes and you felt jack was still on top of you. you checked the time, it was already late morning, almost 11 am.
"oh great, there goes breakfast" you whispered, smiling to yourself.
jack didn't even stir when you eased him onto the pillow, one arm still reaching out instinctively, even when asleep he was searching for you.
you tucked the blanket around him gently before heading to the kitchen.
cooking for lunch was peaceful. the kind of slow, unhurried rhythm you rarely got. chopping, stirring, tasting. the soft hum of nothing urgent waiting for you.
lunch was ready so you went back to wake jake.
"hey, sleepyhead" you said softly, caressing his shoulder. "food is ready"
his eyes open and blinked up at you, disoriented for a second, then immediately reached for you.
"come here first."
you huffed a laugh but leaned down anyway, and he pulled you into a quick, tight hug for two whole minutes.
"okay," he sighed. "now let's eat"
lunch turned into a lazy afternoon. the tv played your favourite movie and the curtains half-drawn. the two of you curled up on the couch, enjoying each other's presence.
except 'curled up' was an understatement.
jack had you practically glued to his side. his arm around your shoulders, fingers absentmindedly tracing patterns on your arm, occasionally pulling you closer for no reason at all.
"you're really clingy today," you repeated what you said it the morning.
"mhm."
"that's it?" not that you're complaining.
"yeah."
you smiled, resting your head against him. you didn’t mind. it's not always that you get to have this quiet time with jack since your shifts mostly overlapped.
at some point, the movie faded into background noise. his head now dropped onto your shoulder.
and your eyes got heavy, and just like that, you both drifted off, again.
when you woke up from the nap, the apartment was dimmer now, the golden afternoon slipping toward evening.
jack was still out cold beside you, slightly slouched, one arm still draped over your waist even in sleep. you carefully slipped out from under him again.
"wow, second time today," you whispered. "impressive." he didn’t even twitch.
you headed to the kitchen, starting dinner quietly. something simple, enough for all of you.
the three of you.
right on time, the front door opened.
you wanted to turn around to look but suddenly you had two loving arms wrapped around you from behind, surprising you.
"hey sweetheart," robby murmured into your hair, pulling you back against him.
you smiled instantly, leaning back into his body.
"hey, babe. long day?" you lace your fingers with his.
"you know it. im feeling much better now."
he pressed a quick kiss to your temple before loosening his grip and turned you around, just enough to look at you.
"how was your day off?" his voiced rasp with a hint of tiredness.
you hesitated for half a second, then smiled softly.
"it was quiet... i just stayed in. spent it all with jack." you smirked, glancing to the couch where jack is now on his stomach, still sleeping.
robby’s expression softened immediately, something warm flickering in his eyes.
"good," he said. "he needed that."
without missing a beat, he walked over to the couch where jack was still passed out.
"hey," robby said softly, nudging him. "you alive?"
jack cracked one eye open, squinting.
"…barely."
robby laughed under his breath and leaned down, pulling him into a quick, affectionate hug anyway.
"missed you, man."
"yeah, yeah," jack muttered, but didn’t push him away. his held the hug longer than usual.
robby pulled him up from the couch and went straight to dinner.
dinner turned into all three of you in the kitchen. you tried to shoo them out to clean.
"boys please, i've got it"
"no sweetheart," robby said immediately.
"just sit back, honey" jack added, already grabbing plates.
"you both just got back from your shift"
"and you’ve been doing everything, for us" robby cut in, gently guiding you toward a chair.
"rest." jack insisted. they both did.
you sighed, but didn't fight it. you were really grateful for having both of them in your life.
watching them move around the kitchen, bickering lightly, helping without being asked. it made your chest feel full in a quiet, overwhelming way.
by the time everything was cleaned up, the apartment felt softer.
the night settled in. and now, the three of you are cuddled up back on the bed. each of you in your spot. jack by your right, robby on your left and you placed perfectly in between them.
but something is different this time.
both of them seemed very clear on not planning to let go anytime soon.
"move closer," robby said.
"i am close.." you started but jack shifted behind you at the same time, his body pressing onto you until there's no space left.
robby tucked his face into your neck, arms wrapped securely around you like he refused to let go even in his sleep.
jack has one arm draped over both of you, his fingers loosely tangled with yours, grounding, steady.
"you're both so so clingy," you whispered, but there was no complaints
"only today," robby murmured.
"liar," you replied softly.
jack let out a quiet hum behind you, already half-asleep again. "not our fault, honey"
"but you know it's worth it," robby added, pressing a lazy kiss to your shoulder.
your chest tightened in the softest way.
because it was.
days like this didn't come often, where it was just the three of you, warm and safe all together
you didn't take them for granted.
your fingers tightened slightly in jack's as robby's hold around you relaxed just enough to turn comfortable.
their breathing synced slowly, steadily, going into slumber.
your shift today wasn't the worse but you were always eager to go home.
you saw husband, john shen, before handovers.
you slipped beside him, "today was actually okay"
"yeah? i'm glad, so now you can go home immediately and rest okay? we both have day offs tomorrow", he said lightly with a smirk on his face.
"can't wait for it, babe" you smiled warm, already thinking of things to do with john the next day. you went to grab your things, hugged him extra tight then left the hospital.
john noticed that you haven't text when you reached home. he checked his phone once, then again, but he never received one. he brushed it off thinking you went straight to to bed. it made sense.
"dr. shen, can i present?"
his thoughts were cut short by his resident. he nodded and slipped back into his work and then trauma came in.
"i got a kid, 7 years old. car vs pedestrians. speeding near the zebra crossing. suspected fracture on the tibia. gcs 12." the medics announced.
john moved instantly. the child came in crying, blood smeared across her limbs.
"okay trauma 1, henderson get on this and call ortho now."
he helped them pushed to trauma 1 to get the next patient incoming.
"female, late 20s,"
john barely look up at first.
"she's a good samaritan, tried to help the kid moved out the way but got hit badly.. multiple injuries–"
and then he saw you.
his heart stopped.
you, his wife, were on the stretcher. blood all over your clothes.
"no–" his voice was breathless already.
"no– that's my.."
he stumbled forward before anyone could react, his hands already reaching for you, cradling your face despite the blood, despite everything.
"hey– hey, honey... what the fuck–" his voice cracked, shaking as his thumbs brushed your cheeks, desperate, grounding.
"hey, baby look at me.. wake up–"
you didn't.
"dr. shen–" lena cut in, urgent but careful as she grabbed his arm. "you have to let go. let them work on her-"
"no!" he yanked back, not even looking at her.
"no, i am– not leaving my wife. she needs to be checked. for fuck– everything."
his words tumbled over each other, frantic, nothing like the doctor he was minutes ago.
he tried to follow as they wheeled you into trauma 2.
but someone stepped in front of him.
"shen," jack said, his voice firm. "let me do this. please."
john shook his head immediately, eyes glassy. "no–, i can help, i should be in there–"
"you know you can't," jack cut in, softer now. "you are her husband."
his words landed on john heavier than anything else.
"you can't be her doctor right now."
before john could argue more jack turned and walked into the trauma room, leaving him alone with his thoughts.
the world became unbearable after that. every second stretched into something suffocating.
john paced. again and again.
his hands trembled as they dragged through his hair, his breathing uneven.
"please.. please be okay.." he muttered under his breath, over and over like a prayer he didn't know how to finish. lena caught him and brought him to the break room to clean up and calm him down.
but he couldn't.
he kept pacing, around the room.
"i didn't even–" his voice broke again, quieter now, raw. "i didn't even make sure she got home."
the guilt hit differently.
"i told her to go.. i told her to rest.." he let out a hollow laugh that didn't sound like him at all. "i was supposed to be there."
lena didn't interrupt, she let him say things he wanted to say, rubbing his back as reassurance.
15 minutes of pacing felt like an eternity for him. things around him felt so much heavier.
he couldn't take it anymore.
he swung the door open as he rushed out, his steps quick heading straight for the trauma room.
and stopped.
it was empty.
the room you were supposed to be in.
completely empty.
his stomach dropped.
"no– where is she? why isn't she here?!"
his voice was loud and sharp, making heads turned.
his panic rose again, now uglier. before it could spiral further, abbot stepped beside him.
"hey–" jack said, grounding shen. "she just went to ct scan. i was actually looking for you, shen."
john turned to him so fast it almost hurt.
"what–"
"we stabilized her," jack continued. "she's okay. all she needs the are the scans now. we will bump her up first. and we will put her to south 15 after, yeah?"
john barely heard the last part.
she's okay.
you're okay.
his shoulders dropped slightly, tension cracking just a little.
jack gave him a firm pat. "don't worry, we've got you here, shen."
and that broke something in him. john pulled him into a quick, tight hug, the kind that said everything he couldn't form into words.
"..thank you."
but still, he couldn't endure the fact that you're still alone. for him, it has yet to feel.. enough.
because you still weren't in front of him.
"i'm gonna go up there," he started, already stepping back.
"no," jack objected, "you stay here. wait in her room."
john hesitated. every instinct in him screamed to go to you. but jack was just telling him to slow down, to trust him.
he tried to sit. failed.
tried to do charting, but his pen just hovered uselessly before dropping onto the table.
his hand dragged over his face, fingers pressing into his temples.
waiting hurts. everything hurts.
he stood again and paced, back and forth.
the staff noticed. the john shen, the always relaxed and composed one was now restless, barely holding himself together.
when they finally brought you back down, his entire world seemed to narrow into one point.
you were there, on the bed. asleep, probably from the meds, but breathing. you're alive.
that was more than enough for john shen.
he didn't leave your side for a second. he stayed for you. he's with you.
he pulled a chair close. then closer, until he could rest his head near you, his fingers loosely wrapped around yours. if he let go, you might disappear again.
exhaustion eventually caught up to him. he closed his eyes, still holding you. he was guarding you even in his sleep.
soon after, he felt it before he understood it. a soft touch, fingers brushing through his hair.
john stirred, blinking awake slowly and then he saw you. awake and looking at him.
"john...", your voice was barely a whisper.
his breath hitched.
"hey– hey, honey..." his voice cracked instantly, emotion flooding back so fast it made his chest ache. "hi my love"
he sat up quickly, his hands immediately finding yours.
"how are you feeling?" he tried to maintain a calm manner but you heard the shake in his voice that betrayed him completely.
you didn't answer right away. instead, you reached up, holding his face softly, your thumb brushing against his cheek. you smiled, weakly but real.
"here–" he scrambled a little, grabbing the water. "small sips, okay?"
he guided it to you carefully. you drank slowly, and again.
then he finally heard it.
"..im okay"
that broke him.
"fuck honey– you scared me.. i was– so worried about you.." his voiced hiccuped, he moved closer to you, head in your chest now.
you wrapped your arms around him. just like earlier. but this time, neither of you let go too quickly.
"i tried to pulled the kid away... my feet got caught up, and suddenly the car–" your voice was fragile.
he shushed you softly, "my sweet girl.. its okay, you dont have to explain about it.. i was– scared," he cradled you gently.
"i know.. im sorry". you felt him shook his head, like he was refusing to make you feel guilty of what happened.
after a while, the tension eased. the room softened into something quieter. small conversations, light teasing, the kind that didn't need energy but still meant everything.
he then exhaled, glancing toward the door.
"i need to, uh– update jack. i'm gonna clock out," he said, already reluctant. "i will stay here with you."
you frowned slightly, "babe, don't they need you outside?"
he cut you off fast but gently.
the way he said it, soft, but unwavering made your chest tighten.
"i'm your husband. you need me here."
there was a brief silence.
"i need you."
"...okay, baby," you whispered.
he pressed one more kiss to your forehead before stepping out, his hand lingering in yours until the very last second.
the moment he left, the room felt quieter again. you let yourself sink back into the bed, your body still aching, but your heart a little fuller.
you heard a soft knock that came before the door opened. it was lena.
"hey, sweetheart," she greeted gently. "you doing okay?"
you nodded, offering a small smile. "yeah. thank you, lena."
she moved around the room, checking your iv adjusting things before glancing at you again, something knowing in her expression.
"we've never seen him like that," she said casually.
you blinked. "who? john?"
"yeah," she huffed out an almost amused breath. "he was pacing all over the place. wouldn't sit down. wouldn't breathe, i think."
your lips curved despite yourself.
"yeah.." lena added, "you got him hard, sweetheart."
"he loves you so much."
your smile deepened, something that settled deep in your chest.
"i know," you murmured.
when john came back, he didn't knock. he just stepped in, eyes immediately finding you.
"hey," he said softly.
"hey," you echoed.
he walked straight to you and he took your hand again.
"everything's sorted," he said. "i am off now."
you nodded, shifting slightly to make space for him.
"come here."
he didn't argue nor hesitate.
he carefully climbed onto the bed beside you, mindful of your injuries, one arm wrapping around you while the other held your hand against his chest.
you rested into him.
"i thought.. i lost you," he admitted suddenly, voice barely above a whisper.
your heart ached hearing that. you tilted your head slightly, pressing a soft kiss against his jaw.
"i am not going anywhere," you whispered back.
his hold tightened.
"good," he breathed. "i'm keeping you."
you laughed lightly, eyes slipping closed as you melted further into him.
"i'm yours, john."
you would always find your way back to each other.
you turned to your right and saw princess, caught slightly unprepared.
"yeah," you answered easily, like it meant nothing. "why you ask?"
princess just shrugged and went away.
on the other side of the room, donnie was with jesse.
he asked the same question and was given the same answer.
you and jesse had talked about this. planned for it even.
from that moment, small things started to change.
now you had more cases assigned with jesse than usual, were always called together for help. your work appeared to overlapped more with his.
turns out, your colleagues were trying to set you up. with your own boyfriend.
at first, both of you didn't react.
jesse kept his distance like always, only talking to you when necessary. his voice always low and soft when he did.
still professional but caring.
but somehow, that little talk caught the attention of your colleagues.
"they are so cute," perlah whispered to dana one day, if only she could be more subtle about it
because you heard it.
the following days were interesting, only maybe for them. because for you, it was like any other day.
when you and jesse were caught on a trauma case together, something shifted.
you moved in sync perfectly. he helped with vital signs, you passed him the medications, so on. the two of you didn't have to act professional. you were already efficient.
but in their eyes, it looked different.
"they're.. amazing together," emma whispered.
"exactly, right?" princess replied. "they just.. fit, so well. even under pressure."
you never looked at jesse. he didn't look at you. but when your shoulders brushed once or twice in that room, no one can see how it made you feel the rush, the excitement in your stomach. jesse felt it too.
when you hang out with them, you could say it was more obvious.
jesse stayed with the boys, leaning back, relaxed, laughing at something mateo said.
you were across the room with the girls, pretending not to notice him at all, pretending you didn't already know the exact sound of his laugh.
kim nudged you, eyes narrowing playfully. "you.. you're matching with jesse, aren't you?"
you frowned a little, acting that you had to think about it.
"huh? i didn't notice that” you shrugged, taking a sip from your drink. "i like his jacket though!"
of course you did, you bought it for him.
across the room, jesse glanced at you for half a second, enough for you to catch his gaze.
then you both looked away.
both of you lied your way through, smoothly. it wasn't harmless. it was for the best, right?
later that night, you went and stayed at jesse's place.
you kicked off your heels by the door, sighing as you feel like your feet was going to be cut off due to it.
jesse leaned back against the couch, watching you with that familiar look. he was amused, for some reason.
"you're a good liar, aren't you?"
you looked at him, "what do you even mean, j?" already holding a smile.
"you said you're single?"
"oh come on, you said it too!" you had one knee on the couch, pushing his arm playfully. "its funny though.."
jesse continued as he knew what you were going to say. "they're really trying to set us up."
you chuckled and whispered lowly, "when they have no.. idea."
"they really don't, huh?"
you huffed out a small laugh, finally dropping beside him. wrapping your arms around him, at once.
he started again, with his voice low, "i wonder how long it'll take.. for them to notice we're actually together."
"but babe, if you think about it.. if we barely interact at work, i do not think they will anytime soon. we kinda avoid each other"
he tilted his head, studying you.
"so what you're saying is.." his voice quieter now, "you want them to know?"
"what–?" you blinked, that question caught you off guard.
"about us," he continued, a small smirk forming. "you want me to be closer to you at work?"
you hesitated.
"..i mean," it was definitely a yes.
"it wouldn't be bad, right? i kinda wanna see how you'd act.. with me around, to see how you will pretend that i'm not yours.."
you started to tease him, fingers slightly pushing on top of his heart.
he paused for a while, ideas forming in his head.
"oh i see,” jesse let out a soft laugh, leaning in just slightly. "you wanna play it like that?"
your lips curved into a smirk.
it's going to be a fun game for your friends.
and for both you and jesse to play along.
secret bf!jesse is a series at this point!!! i will make sure of it!! also, ptmc nurses rise!!!!!
you, jack and robby were having dinner at your cozy home. it was quiet until robby started the conversation. he didn't make it sound like a big deal at first.
"i was thinking.. of taking a sabbatical," he said, casually. robby turned to jack quickly to get a reaction, only to see he was already looking at you.
you didn't react much. you just nodded. "that's.. not too bad of an idea, actually."
you meant that. robby has worked his entire life, he has the heaviest weight that needed to be lifted off his shoulders. a break for him, made sense.
he gave you a small smile. "yeah, just gonna go away for a bit. like a vacation. to clear my head."
"i understand.. like a trip?"
"yeah, alone."
that made you pause, your gaze went to jack for a while. he didn't say a word.
you wanted to say something else but you swallowed it down. "of course, that's okay. you need some alone time.."
the conversation could've ended like that, but you have the itch to ask more.
"... for how long?"
"3 months." he said, unconcerned.
you choked on your water.
"3? like– three months??"
"it will pass fast, you won't even notice it." he answered you, without any doubt. "you have ja- each other."
"... right" you were already not convinced about this.
it felt like he already decided on how you were supposed to feel about this.
"wait, when are you leaving?"
"less than 2 weeks, sweetheart–"
the moment he said it, you feel your chest tightened angrily. you dropped your spoon harshly on the plate, shocking both men in front of you.
you pinched the middle of your brows, "fucking hell," you whispered and you took a deep breath. "you're leaving in 2 weeks? robby.. you are just telling us this.. now?"
"it's not a big deal–"
"oh really? not a big deal," you laugh in disbelief. jack had yet to say anything. robby was saying things so casually, it gave you the impression that maybe he just didn't care.
"robby. you're leaving us for three months, in less than 2 fucking weeks. and you think everything will still be normal cause it will 'pass fast'?"
"sweets, that's not what i meant." you immediately cut him off.
"is that why you bought the bike?" you questioned him but your voice was getting louder by the second. "fuck, i thought it was for convenience."
you tried to laugh it away, your gaze went to jack again. he sat quietly, furrowing his brows.
"do you– you know about this, jack?", you pointed at him.
"robby.. told me few days ago." he said softly, not wanting to exacerbate the situation.
everything in that moment broke. you couldn't believe this was happening. it wasn't just the fact that robby is leaving for 3 long months, but it was the fact of how he told you. how little of the time he spared. how he just decided things alone.
"okay," you stood up, thinking that if you say more, it will be much worse. you turned and fastened your pace up to the guestroom.
you didn't even dare to go to your shared bedroom. at this time, you couldn't. you slammed the door harder than you'd expect.
you sat on the bed and frustrated, angry tears came out. you pressed your palm into your eyes, trying to stop crying.
you know that robby needed this, to rest. you know this is the best thing for him to do. even if it meant leaving you. it was just so sudden that it felt unfair. for you, jack.. even for robby.
a soft knock broke through.
"hey..." it was jack, his voice quiet. "it's me, honey."
you didn't answer, but jack opened the door anyways. he sat beside you, wrapping one arm around your shoulder. slowly, he was rubbing circles on your arm, then rubbing your back to reassure you.
"you are allowed to be mad," he muttered.
your voice started to break, "fuck jack, i– i know he needs it, i really do. its just– why does it feel like he's.. leaving us behind?"
jack didn't answer at once. his grip tightened lightly.
"he is trying to find himself again. he's.. not replacing us. believe that, honey."
your face found his neck, burying it and you let yourself fall apart again. it felt like that was the only comfort you have left, since robby is leaving.
outside the room, it went unnoticed that robby actually followed both of you upstairs. he was standing by the door, his hand longed to touch the handle and push, only for him to hear you said 'leaving us behind'.
your words sat on his heart heavy. he felt guilt creeping into him, he took a few steps back. backing up into the wall. leaving him alone with his thoughts.
idk how to end this.... but this was one of the first ideas i had before i started writing ><
