the narrative of attraction is subjective

i came back to tumblr to update my header. besides that, i write my thoughts about bts and other things sometimes

[vuvumblenope]

Hi again

Still an ARMY since 2017 but I feel like I’ve emotionally grown up by the time I listen to For Youth in Proof, so when they go on a hiatus it will not be as painful as I’m imagining it to be. 

Speaking of growing up, I’ve also been watching Good Mythical Morning for about 10 years now and it is one of my favourite YouTube channels to go to.

I engage with photography and drawings to process my thoughts and feelings during the process. Therefore, I find it normal to outgrow my creative works and let them go.

Singers whose songs seem to tell me something every time I come back to them: Halsey, IU, Lauv, Jeremy Zucker, Heize, Avril Lavigne

I come back here to look at beautiful fan edits of BTS and explore specific communities, but I foresee this account to primarily remain aestaetic.

[namchyoon]

falling down, oh would you give me your hand

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this was a wholesome moment

[taeyungie]

there’s not enough words in any existing language to describe how beautiful he is

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i have no words

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“that’s not me anymore”

If this sounds like you now, it’s normal so don’t worry.

The concepts of identity and personhood are what many youths struggle with daily. 

I could dive into a conceptual explanation of the two theories but if I could explain it in other ways, you change your identity as easily as you change your wardrobe. You change your identity as easily as you switch fandoms. You change your identity as easily as you have a new bias or bias wrecker. The kind of identity you have can be based on what kind of memories you have. This includes which memories you choose to keep and choose to let go of.

Change is normal and progressive because it shows that you are reacting to things that are happening in the world and that you are thinking about things that help to shape your sense of the self. You could view changes as phases. That would explain why you might cringe or laugh at a part of your life when you swore to never get sucked into the “k-pop blackhole”. Maybe you have another account that was a bit too dedicated to a specific idol or group that looks so silly or embarrassing now. Maybe you had big plans on contributing online content to a fandom but never got around to it. Maybe you’re just reading this, wondering if whatever you have done to build your online presence is worth it or meaningful anymore. That’s me and that’s why I’m writing this. 

I was really avid about posting photos that I liked to see from the Internet. That’s why I used to post edits of photographs of idols taken by other people about two years ago. Obviously, I went on an unknown and unannounced hiatus for several months and nearly forgot that I have this online identity in this community. Out of everything I’ve posted, only one text has been liked and shared over a long period of time. I guess that means my strategies didn’t work out. My commitment to Monsta X became as good as naught and I only check in on twitter once every two months. 

But you know what? It’s okay. This was the me who was passionate about her ideas two years ago. The current me is glad that she stuck her foot out and posted things anyway. I am also thankful that she didn’t do anything too stupid or foolish to make me disappointed in.

With that said, I’m leaving my archives as they are. Maybe the current me will have new ideas and I’m glad that I still have this account to try out them out!

(If you’re truly interested in the theories of identity and personhood, I got my early ideas of it from Crash Course!) 

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i came back to share quality content feat. Kim Seokjin

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Episodes 57 & 58 were hard for the 95′s

I hope I’m not the only one who noticed it but V and Jimin were feeling pretty low throughout these two episodes from the beginning. Maybe something happened the night before the shoot or it just wasn’t their day, but it looked really hard to hold it together in front of a few cameras that could not stop rolling until the whole cooking session was over. 

V was pretty quiet, kept touching his eyes, heaved a few sighs, and kept his head down while he was eating at the end. Jimin kept encouraging him and himself to keep going even though the both of them knew they had to cook with ingredients the chef liked the least and weren’t as good cooks as the others. He even suggested the prank on Suga’s drink to try to cheer the both of them up. I felt that he was doing as much as he can to be strong for the both of them, and it could be because the episode idea was stemmed from V’s suggestion to learn about Italian cuisine in the previous season. Unfortunately, they got the short end of the stick for this episode and had to endure it for hours. Jimin showed mini moments of defeat but tried to perk themselves up to move on to the next step. 

Yet again, this episode must have been filmed a long time ago. I hope they felt better by the next episode. These two episodes were really painful for me to watch because I can’t imagine how they could still keep asking questions and interacting with the others while keeping straight faces, especially for V who wanted an episode somewhat like this. If I was him, I would have started crying over the pan of water that took forever to boil because I myself can’t cook.

They could be called out for being sulky and all but everybody has their bad days; theirs happened to be on a day when they had to film. The fact that I haven’t really seen anybody point this out shows that the two of them did well to uphold their usual behaviours and mannerisms on the show. Big kudos, respect, and gratefulness to them. Thank you for keeping it together for ARMYs. 

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A Real Review on Puma x BTS Turin Shoes

I’ve been wearing a pair for at least three days a week for nearly three months so why not share my thoughts on them?

(+) points:

- They’re the prettiest footwear I’ve invested in ($99 from a retail store) - I have skinny feet so the shoes fit like a glove - Materials used are lightweight - I've been able to wipe off general dirt with a wet towel every two weeks or so - I walk around in them for 7 to 9 hours outdoors for work and my feet don’t cramp up (-) points:

- The soles make it slippery to walk in in the rain so if you aren’t a careful walker, you will slip on anything that’s slightly wet (my left knee has bruises to tell some tale) - The shoes are starting to season, meaning that creases made in the parts of the shoe where you have to tip-toe or squat stay visible and takes away to polished look you saw when you first get them - If you didn’t manage to get your true size because of limited stock available, you’re bound to feel that the [unisex] size you got is a tight fit sometimes, just letting you know if you like to wear thick socks or if your feet are still growing

But these shoes have made me walk more properly, aka not drag my feet.

Following that, it shows how durable the shoes are if you want to wear them like any other ordinary pair of shoes (which is highly recommended because BTS would want you to make good use of their shoes).

Overall, this was a great purchase, not only as an ARMY but as a consumer. 

[jimiyoong]

cutie

[97nochuu]

Namjoon is bangtan. bangtan is Namjoon.

Namjoon is the leader of BTS, he is their glue, he keeps them together as a group. Even after all the previous original members left bts, Namjoon stayed. he believed in his group. Jungkook joined BTS because of Namjoon and his amazing talented skills. he is his hyung and his role model. Namjoon is constantly motivating and caring for the other members.its thanks to Namjoon that we get to enjoy AND relate to almost every song on every album thanks to his philosophy and writing. he cares so much for his fans, always giving us advice and love and staying strong as the leader which is a very hard position to bear. Namjoon deserves love and respect, because with out him bangtan probably wouldn’t even exist and/or have the same morals they did today.

[tapeduct]

I think probably the best feeling is sharing music and art n books and having someone else appreciate it. It’s not so much The Fact that someone else is validating your taste as it is that ur like.. Sharing something u love and someone else is slowly falling in love w it too. Something very satisfying about that

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an accurate summary of monsta x in america

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my new favourite video

[efyinwonderland]

Serendipity: Falling in love as if it were fate and longing to be loved in return. You place this person on a pedestal as your angel and your world.

Euphoria: The feelings of being in love, giving yourself wholly to one person and placing your happiness in them.

Singularity: Losing yourself in a ‘love’ that winds up being toxic. Now, you do not have an identity outside of this 'love’.

Epiphany: The realization that the love of yourself is the most important. You are beautiful and do not have to alter yourself in order to find love.

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they ain’t foolin’ nobody with these snazzy looks

original from: BTS Official Facebook edits by me

[fychangki]

© The Moonlight‏ 🐹 do not edit. 

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This is such a GOOD PHOTO

[ohmykimtaetae]

kiss

[ohmykimtaetae]

(baby)

[monirmmoon]

i love festa family photos because they are perfect for fake comedy film posters

[vuvumblenope]

This is great