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indie oc multi as built by speir.

[warwagcd-blog]

secondranked replied to your post: SPEIR. so i don’t have a good reason as to why i’m...

I SHALL ADD FOR PORGS ; UUU;

SPEIR.  && you’re more than welcome to!  i look forward to talking more.

[warwagcd-blog]

SPEIR. so i don’t have a good reason as to why i’m not here, but tl;dr--looking like i might delete most, if not all my rp blogs, and quietly just not roleplay anymore.

it’s a lot of personal reasons, and i don’t want to mussy up anybody’s dash with it, and if you haven’t picked up on it even if you talk to me ooc/follow me on other blogs, that’s fine!!  i keep a lot of problems close to my chest for reasons.

anyways--i think i’ve two partners who’ve known this universe since before i created it, and i’d like to thank them both for encouraging me to make ya nuo--where it all began--to start with.

i’m not going to name names, but for those of you who’ve known me for sometime can probably track my slowly deteriorating state since i’ve been cut out of people’s lives--and in some cases, doing the cutting out.  i think this is for the best; tumblr rp becomes very, ah, consuming for me, and i neglect a lot of other things i could be doing with my life.

you can reach me @skytakers or on discord @ Peanut Butter The Perfect Bidoof#3355

so long, thanks for all the fish.

[wantlongera]

‘𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐃𝐈𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄’ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

these starters are all taken from dialogue featured in the 2011 american horror story promotional website, you’re going to die in there. feel free to change pronouns as needed.

since i was a girl, i dreamed of this day, of this life, of this moment, of you.  

i’ve wanted this more than i ever wanted anything.

and now, i don’t have to want or wait any longer.

i have it all, and i will never let ANYTHING destroy that.

i loved him, and he loved me … i think.    

but I also loved her.

i never wanted it to turn out this way. i thought it never could.    

we are all disgusting people, just waiting for someone to come and push us to the edge, and watch us crumble.

i was young. i don’t remember much.

she was … special.   

i wanted to feel that way too.

i DIDN’T hate her though.

she was my blood.   

when i woke up, i saw her …

i couldn’t put her back together. i don’t think anyone could have.

it was done. it had to be.

strange things happened in that house.

i’ve been here through them all.

i can’t put all the blame on those two.

they provoked it, i believe, but no one deserves to leave this world in such a way.     

oh! strange and demented!

i don’t understand it and i try not to think about it.

no one deserves that.

it was everywhere.

no matter how hard i tried, it was never enough.

the filth just oozed out of them. 

i could see it. i could even smell it.

i could hardly breathe.

it was all through our home. i didn’t want anyone to find out we were contaminated.

i had to clean them out.    

[angstmemes]

Hallucination Starters!

[warwagcd-blog]

angstmemes:

“Hey, snap out of it! There’s nobody here!” “Don’t be ridiculous, that kind of stuff only exists in bad horror movies.” ”Help me! Someone’s been following me for over twenty minutes now, I can’t shake him/her!” “You must’ve heard that… It was loud a-and it seems to be coming our way!” “I didn’t just imagine it! It was there, I swear!” “No, no, no, you can’t be real! You died!” “You’re seeing things again…” “I’m not making it up this time! There was someone there, I’m sure of it!” “Are you high? What the hell are you on about?” “You’re hallucinating! You need to try to calm down!” “I think you’re seeing things that aren’t there.” “How can I be sure that you’re real?” “That’s it, I’m calling a doctor, you’re freaking me out.” “You’ve got a high fever… You’re going delirious. Let me help you, please!” “So, what you’re telling me is that there’s some kind of ghost murderer following us that I can’t see?” “There’s medication for this sort of stuff, you know? Maybe you should take it.” “I think you might be having a flash back, you’re screaming at a door. Look at me! Ssh, calm down.” “There’s nothing there.” “There’s something there, I swear! You need to believe me or we’re both going to get hurt!” “He’s there… he’s there… I saw him, oh god, oh my god!” “It’s not invisible, it doesn’t exist. That’s a different thing.” “What are you seeing?” “Close your eyes, what you’re seeing is not real, you have to listen to my voice, alright?” “Did you take something? You’re not making sense!” “You have to focus on me, there’s no one else here.” “Who are you talking to?”

[angstmemes]

worried starters

trigger warnings apply! ( mental illness, drugs and alcohol use, self-destructive behaviours, and vomiting )

“You haven’t slept for days, have you?” “Are you eating properly? You don’t look it.” “Why do you keep stumbling over your words? Just how tired are you?” “You need to think about yourself every once in a while.” “I know your work is important, but you’re going to end up in hospital if you go on like this!” “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” “You look so… empty. I’m worried for you, please talk to me.” “Are you alright in there? You’re so quiet.” “How did you get these bruises? Please don’t lie to me.” “There’s something bothering you that you’re not telling me and I can see it slowly destroying you. What happened?” “You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?” “I can give you some pills to help you sleep. They aren’t healthy, but this is even less healthy.” “If you didn’t just blink I would’ve sworn you were dead, that’s how sickly you’re looking. Go to bed, please!” “Have you drank all of these bottles in one weekend?!” “I know you don’t want this, but it’s for your own good. Sign the papers so they can pick you up tomorrow and you can get clean.” “What the hell are you doing?! Did you do that to yourself?!” “When was the last time you left the house? Or opened the curtains for that matter.” “Here, just keep breathing. It’ll be okay. Better out than in…” “This can’t go on like this! You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping, you barely talk!” “I’m sorry. I went through your room and found this. Explain what the hell this is doing in your room!” “I thought you’d quit! How long have you been lying to me?” “I’m only trying to help and right now I think I have a much better idea of what you need than you do.” “Did you take anything? Why are you passing out? Hey! Stay with me!”

[angstmemes]

anger (management) starters

“You can’t just lose your temper like this every time you get a bit upset!” “Stop shouting or I won’t listen to a word you’re saying anymore!” “Calm down, right now! You’rs scaring me!” “Wow, no need to get your knickers in a twist, I was just asking!” “Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP, you fucking BITCH!” “Okay, I know you’re angry, but try to breathe, alright? Sit down, let me help you…” “Whenever you behave like this, all I see is your father.” “Wow, down boy/girl!” “Let go of me! What on earth do you think you’re doing?! LET GO!” “What happened in here? What is this mess? Did you do this?” “Now don’t get angry, but there are a few things we need to talk about.” “You’re making excuses for hitting me in the face? You’re making excuses?! Do you know what I need to hear right now? An APOLOGY.” “Get away from me!” “You’re going to wake the whole neighbourhood if you keep this up!” “I don’t know why I ever gave you a chance! The only thing you know how to do is fuck up!” “Keep your voice down! People are starting to stare.” “I’ll let go when you look me in the eyes and dare to say that again!” “You broke my [OBJECT]! You knew that was precious to me!” “Go to bed, sober up and we’ll talk tomorrow.” “You’re telling ME to calm down?! YOU started this!” “You say the nastiest things when you’re angry, so yes, I’m walking away from you now.” “I can’t reason with you when you shout like that.” “STOP. FUCKING. SHOUTING!” “Ow! Get your hands off me! You’re hurting me!” “If you open that mouth to say something I don’t want to hear ONE more time, you’re out, do you fucking understand?” “Just LET me get angry! I always need to keep everything inside, but I can’t do that anymore!” “I’m going to call the police. You’re scaring me.” “What the fuck do you think you’re doing? You’re NOT going to call the police on me!” “What are you going to do? Hit me again?” “You can’t demand everything from everyone around you. Everyone else has a life that doesn’t revolve around you. When will you get that into your skull?!” “You’re not a kid anymore, so stop acting like one.”

[dogboyism]

[undertaletext]

[thequotejournals]

You do care. You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.

J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (via thequotejournals)

[icecoldorangejuice]

Having a sibling or three really like….gave you interpersonal skills and moral exercises from an early age that people who were only children had to learn later on, because nothing makes your brain work overtime than having a ride or die relationship with someone who you would suplex through the dining room table in a second if they touched your shit, but you’d also stand up and take the blame for some shit if you knew it wasn’t their fault or stepping in and swinging if they were being bullied by someone else

[heywriters]

one minute i go from “i could disown you and never look back” to “you are literally the funniest person i know, we can survive anything together.”

[vhsmeme]

* a woman under the influence starters

a woman under the influence is a 1974 american drama film. 

‘ hey, don’t be sad. i know you love me. ’

‘ you think you’re gonna be able to get some sleep? ’

‘ let me see that hand. ’

‘ baby, i’m gonna make this up to you. ’

‘ everybody loves you. ’

‘ hi, angel. ’

‘ it was a tough night. tomorrow’s gonna be better. ’

‘ sorry, sweetheart. ’

‘ don’t need anybody’s help. ’

‘ i’m worried about you. ’

‘ you wanna sleep? you, banana, you. ’

‘ i’m gonna try and get some rest. ’

‘ don’t be afraid to hurt my feelings. ’

‘ will you come lie down with me? ’

‘ oh, sweetheart. don’t worry about me. ’

‘ do you love me? ’

‘ you got embarrassed and you made a jerk of yourself. that’s all. ’

‘ i love you, spaghetti. ’

‘ i’m gonna take the day off tomorrow and we’re gonna be together tomorrow. all day, alright, sweetheart? ’

‘ i always understood you, and you always understood me. ’

‘ no offense, but i’d really like to get some sleep. ’

‘ i didn’t do anything wrong? ’

‘ i’m sorry i scared everybody. i was just tired, you know? ’

‘ could we have this discussion in the living room? because i’m trying to get some sleep. ’

‘ i’m never gonna be mean again. ’

[withumans-deactivated20190426]

         “so, if someone stabs me, do i get to keep the knife?” a pause. “i’m asking for a friend.”  / open.

[warwagcd-blog]

     “ I MEAN, i don’t see why not?  THAT’S HOW I STARTED MY KNIFE COLLECTION. ”

[jadorevidal]

“I have my mother’s mouth and my father’s eyes; on my face they are still together”

— Warsan Shire - Teaching my Mother how to Give Birth

[nobodybiteslikegaston]

hey personal blogs!

IF YOU’RE NOT A ROLEPLAY BLOG, THIS MEANS YOU

When a writer or roleplayer asks you to stop reblogging their content. DON’T FUCKING REBLOG IT.

You’re not entitled to it. They’re putting it on their blog for themselves. Many roleplayers don’t like having their threads or headcanons shared around. If you like it– LIKE the post! That’s all you can do. 

It’s incredibly rude and extremely taboo to reblog headcanons from roleplayers. 

We’re glad you like what we’re doing, but we’ll block you if you become a problem.

[dogboyism]

[igmakeup]

[vhsmeme]

* a woman under the influence starters

a woman under the influence is a 1974 american drama film. 

‘ hey, don’t be sad. i know you love me. ’

‘ you think you’re gonna be able to get some sleep? ’

‘ let me see that hand. ’

‘ baby, i’m gonna make this up to you. ’

‘ everybody loves you. ’

‘ hi, angel. ’

‘ it was a tough night. tomorrow’s gonna be better. ’

‘ sorry, sweetheart. ’

‘ don’t need anybody’s help. ’

‘ i’m worried about you. ’

‘ you wanna sleep? you, banana, you. ’

‘ i’m gonna try and get some rest. ’

‘ don’t be afraid to hurt my feelings. ’

‘ will you come lie down with me? ’

‘ oh, sweetheart. don’t worry about me. ’

‘ do you love me? ’

‘ you got embarrassed and you made a jerk of yourself. that’s all. ’

‘ i love you, spaghetti. ’

‘ i’m gonna take the day off tomorrow and we’re gonna be together tomorrow. all day, alright, sweetheart? ’

‘ i always understood you, and you always understood me. ’

‘ no offense, but i’d really like to get some sleep. ’

‘ i didn’t do anything wrong? ’

‘ i’m sorry i scared everybody. i was just tired, you know? ’

‘ could we have this discussion in the living room? because i’m trying to get some sleep. ’

‘ i’m never gonna be mean again. ’