At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 ยฏ\_(แตโแดโ)_/ยฏ. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,ิพ_ิพ,)
โฅ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
โฅ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
โฅ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
โฅ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
โฅ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
โฅ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
โฅ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
โฅ Tags - comment here if you want to be tagged in my gifs- and writing-related posts.
โฅ Want to request a gif/fic? Via comments or asks, and I will try mah best
โฅ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
โฅ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the โWorthyโ cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
โฅ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldurโs Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story youโve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
โฅ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. โ(๏ธถโฝ๏ธถ)โ ย Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. ๐ฅด
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
โฅ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. ๐
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
โฅ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (ยฌ_ยฌโ) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (๊ชโฟ๊ช)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
โฅ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
โฅ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (เนหฬตแดหฬต)ู My first smut ever, so, yeah...
Thank you @theya-art @deianestormborn and @arlynx for the tag <3
DARK URGE CARMEN
To be clear, it's not that it's easy to be in a relationship with Carmen. I'm saying that you do not get to choose. You will fall for her and it's only a matter of if you're her next prey or not.
For love language, I didn't know if it was to give or to receive so let's sayโ receive = the ones on the template/ to give = take 'words of affirmation' back
If you think the Ideal Partner part is a little... diluted, it's because she technically can handle them all.
Flowers would be a nice gift but only if they're given to Sceleritas to Carmen so she can be like "Ugh... I guess let them on my desk ๐" but the girl is lowkey satisfied.
Song is Bloody Creature Poster Girl by In This Moment. I always claimed it, it's literally her theme song.
Alright, finished this but since tumblr doesn't allow for full frontal nudity, it's cropped. I've just created a new bsky account and I'll post the whole picture there ๐
Andy Serkis using AI for his next LOTR movie is just spitting on Tolkien's tomb.
The new movie will use AI
Let me explain.
Tolkien wrote about the machines that are corrupting people (Saruman and his industry, Sauron in Mordor, but also the Ring itself as a machine to gain more power)
[Selected excerpts from Tolkien's Letter 131 to Milton Waldman, 1951]
That's exactly what AI is all about: the Machine "with destructive and evil effects" and which reduces "to a minimum (or vanishing point) of the gap between the idea or desire and the result or effect".
Of course, back then, Tolkien wasn't talking about gen AI, but about industrialisation at large... but I think that his argument can perfectly apply to gen AI. And if you can't see the similarities, then I can't do anything for you.
Using gen AI to adapt Tolkien's work is not just disrespectful, it's also offensive. It's like stepping on his legacy and the points he was trying to explore through his work.
Besides, we all know why Andy Serkis does this: because he wants the P. Jackson's cast to come back, toying with people's nostalgia to better sell his movie. It's pure marketing, manipulating the fanbase's sensible cord to better sell his movie. He isn't creating anything new, he rebrands PJ's work and uses AI to make it fit our times. (I'm not fond of the Rings of Power series, but at least it offers something new - even if it draws on PJ's work, it's a different, diverse cast, a kinda new proposition based on Tolkien's work).
Tolkien's work focuses on creativity, on the power of imagination and creation. He praises it as a highest type of magic.
Using AI is all but creation.
And don't let me start on Serkis's whitewashing discourse. He made it clear that he didn't want any actor of colour in his movie... which is basic racism.
Not only because there are mentions on brown skins in Tolkien's work, but also (mostly) because this man disregards the importance of inclusivity and representation. Middle-earth is a world in which dragons exist... How dare you say the presence of black or brown people would be "unrealistic" in that world??
So I'm going to say it once and for all: Andy Serkis is a racist, an opportunist, and someone who doesn't give a shit about Tolkien's legacy or about inclusivity at large. I don't need more to know where this man stands on the political umbrella.
Thanks for the tag @rdekarios - this was great fun to do! Doing a little 'tag-you're-it' for @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream, @purpleasters-inseptember, @tabitha42, @arlynx, @wildmagickatie, @optimisticgrey, @victoria-strangelove and @fireflyeyes!
"I'd like to think of myself as a river; I've got a little bit of everything in me."
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Name: Kara Evangeline Durchdenwald
Alias: Kaz (by Karlach), Kitten (by Astarion), Little Flame (by Halsin)
Class & Subclass: Druid (Circle of the Moon)
Background: Guild Artisan
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Heterosexual
Pronouns: she/her
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Family: Kara's mother, Anna, works for the Harpers as both an Environmental Guardian and Lead Agent. Kara's father is a taboo subject; he is never spoken of. Her older sister, Nuala, is a Lecturer at the University of the Flanaess, specialising in Medicine.
Birthplace: Neverwinter
Job: Research & Impact Development Officer
Phobias / Fears: Kara is perfectly fine with streams, rain and puddles, but looking into deep abysses such as the Chionthar completely terrifies her. She almost drowned as a child whilst swimming with her sister, Nuala, one afternoon in the Bluelake.
Hobbies: Kara enjoys a quiet, grounded routine - avoiding large, overwhelming crowds, preferring the cozy atmosphere of her local tavern, where she performs short sets with her hauntingly beautiful singing and lyre playing on her mid-week days off. Afterwards, she loves nothing more than a peaceful night in with a mug of honey mead.
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Alignment: Neutral Good. Kara's core motivation is simply to do the right thing, free from rigid laws or rebellious impulses. Beneath her gentle disposition lies the fierce instinct of a predator, proving that her mercy is a conscious choice, not a lack of teeth.
Flaws: Kara will channel her deepest insecurities into a protective shield, burying all her internal struggles to focus entirely on the well-being of those around her, determinedly keeping a stiff upper lip (a trait passed down from her mother, Anna). Kara will isolate herself within her own trauma, refusing to let down her guard until her developing romance with Gale finally gives her the safety that she needs.
Virtues: Kara is a fierce, strong and powerful protector. Her natural and edgy sense of humour brings light to the darkest corners, whilst her deeply loving and caring nature ensures the people around her always feel valued. She is also a secretly brilliant chef, though she guards her culinary prowess like a classified, underground pub recipe.
On Pinterest, search โ[your OCโs name] coreโ and show us the first six results!
Thanks for the tags @onlytavs and @deianestormborn ๐ Since almost all of these are low resolution pictures, I turned them into tiny moodboards, if you don't mind~
Also, I'm sure I broke Pinterest because after awhile it showed the same pictures for each searches, so I had to skip a few. ๐คท
Aftercare for your Bhaalspawn
Full (NSFW) set on Bluesky, if you like
Between Andar and Victor I can never quite tell who's actually in charge (I think it depends on the situation), but the one sure thing is that they will always take excellent care of each other c:
I want to spread some love to my lovely mutuals ๐ฅบ
@optimisticgrey - I've been locked into her fic "Hell is empty and the devil's are here" and I'm just obsessed I might just read everything they have lmaoo (you're such a wonderful writer and I love reading about Celeste ๐ฅบ)
@deianestormborn - Her vp and writing are absolutely INSANE. Her vp is sooo vibrant and I love everything she puts out. I'm still baffled she could put out so much in so little time. (I hold Deia and gale so close to my heart ๐ฅน๐ฅน)
@wasteful-sam - omggg NIMMM ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ I immediately fell for Nim when I found her account and as soon as I'm done with Op's fic, IM STARTING WORTHY. Because guess what Sam? YOU'RE WORTHY DAMMIT. (I'm so happy whenever I get to see vp from youuu ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ)
@knightofbhaal - one of the few multi-talented artists that genuinely blew me away. The art, AMAZING. the writing? SUPERB. OMFG SYRYTH AND CARMEN??? HAVE ME IN THE TIGHTEST CHOKEHOLD RIGHT NOW ๐ซ (nah like fr I think about them almost ALL THE TIMEEE)
@doomedlamb - SPEAKING OF CARMEN... ๐๐ THE CONSOLE GOATTTT. Her vp's are truly phenomenal and her creativity is insane for how little she has on console. Half the time I'm like, "YOOO YOU CAN DO THAT ON CONSOLE??? NAHH NO WAYYY!!" ๐คฏ๐คฏ Every time I see a new one from her, I'm genuinely blown away.. Both of her oc's Carmen and Romarin are ingrained into my brain daily and I just love them both so much ๐ซ๐ฅบ (Plus, you're the first person to show An as much love as you have.. and I will always hold that close to me ๐ฅน)
WHO ME? W H O ME?????? nooooooooooooooo T_T Thank you so much T_T You can't just say things like that I will die T_T
THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. Also you yourself, @ann-bg3-lol and all other people mentioned are absolute GOATS and I am very happy to share the platform with you! <3
