Day 145 of Writing Something Everyday
(365 Day Challenge)
Trying.
Two adults who love each other so much.
Wanting a baby so bad.
Praying so hard.
Complications, my period came..
Tears shed from my eyes and down my cheeks as all the dead eggs leave my body.
Just means we need to have more practice but it's not the point.
Visions of us holding two beautiful children, smiling as we watch them grow.
My fiancee rubbing my back as I bawl like a baby for the baby that didn't come.
Googling is it possible to get your period while possibly pregnant and not getting the results I want.
Everything inside of me screaming to get a pregnancy test anyway and try just in case.
"God's timing not ours, don't cry" he tells me.
"I know" I reply nodding and wiping my cheeks with the back of my hand - trying to smile through welled up eyes.
His words are so true and he's so sweet, I know he's hurting too.
God how'd you create such a wonderful man for me that takes initiative in these situations?
We have a lot of time still to try but God will it hurt like this every time?
God forbid this may happen again..
No matter what the enemy tells me this week I'm not giving up, this will be our testimony..
We want you baby, we love you and we know we will get you eventually..
In God's time, not ours!
~Jenni
