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is there anybody here left standing?

this place was once the world, my world. surrounded by flowers and coated in film grain. returning feels like a warm blanket. the same haven, exactly as i left it, only missing a couple hundred who i once shared it with. where have all the flowers gone? taking comfort in an empty capsule, something must be wrong. is there anybody here left standing? my doleful concern, it’s far past the point we should have stopped marching on. oh, when will they ever learn?

I REALLY CAN’T LISTEN TO COUNTING CROWS WITHOUT CRYING. GOD DAMMIT

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witchcraft.

#WHAT HTE FUC K

girl has identity crisis and learns banjo (1 month progress)

reflecting on my experience living in a community where ~40 honors freshman were given their own floor of a dorm without any legitimate RA supervision. did they really expect us not to brew our own mead inside our dorm rooms

I love you more than a toddler from the Midwest loves tractors

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lately I’ve been crying every day. it’s not even always sad, sometimes it’s because I laughed too hard. but sometimes it is sad

and I’ve been spending time with the ex, the ex i still love, because we booked a gig together when he wasn’t an ex, and we needed to rehearse because it’s in two days. and we get along fine because we’re both reasonable people, but I’ve been crying every day and last night in the middle of the living room he picked up his guitar and I meant to sing but I cried instead. and in between tears admitted how unwell i’d been for all the years he knew me and that I’m finally getting help, and then cried some more

and we’d seen each other cry before, back when we could hold each other until it stopped. but we can’t do that anymore.

so i cried and he didn’t say anything, and he picked up his guitar and played quietly and slowly the refrain from the weight

“take a load off, annie

take a load for free

take a load off annie

and put the load right on me”

and I know he knows that the song says “fanny” instead, but he knows that I know where his heart is. and his emotions are excruciating for both of us, and he doesn’t know that the last words we sing together in two days will be the last he hears from me for a good long while, because my love for him is driving me insane and I’ve got to rip it all away somehow.

and all these things are making me cry.

my childhood best friend got married, an EF 3 tornado tore up my dad’s hometown, and he had 2 more seizures in 24 hours, I got a new job, the ex I’m still in love with texted me that he was “scared” after I had fallen asleep and then wouldn’t reply the next morning, I’ve cried every day this week and a couple of those times were actually tears of joy. life is beyond strange right now. can’t stop it though

someone started banging on my front door at 1am last night and then ran away. left footprints in the front yard