The thing with growing up with domestic trauma in a religious household is you kinda start going down very deep and dark trains of thought that you... probably shouldn't be boarding at the age of 11 in the first place. But there i was:
The fact that god is in everything, sees everything and is everywhere could, in that 11 year old's head, mean one of two things. Or both.
Either what god saw wasn't that big of a deal.
Or...
I deserved it.


















