The World's A Nightmare

I'm obsessed with foxes and ravens Icon by @aquariish

[dustisus]

the trifecta

[moreauver]

neil in tfc:

[ivyinne]

neil josten, man with the butcher of baltimore for a father, somehow manages to have mommy issues dominating every crevice of his brain instead. "god my mom would KILL me if she knew my dad found out where i was" like dude

[modernmusess]

neil josten is the most contradictory mf i’ve ever seen in my life and the worst part is the stupid bastard isn’t even remotely aware of it

neil: i have to keep a low profile, it’s a matter of life or death

also neil, 10 pages later: i’m going to break into my antagonistic teammates dorm and start screaming insults at our star player, who i’m actively trying to hide my identity from, in a language no one is supposed to know i know

also neil: i’m going to verbally decimate riko moriyama in my first ever appearance on live national television entirely unprovoked

also neil: what if instead of calling for help, i lock myself in a bathroom, waste all their hot shower water, sneak out the window, and hitchhike my way across multiple states, surely no one will find this a strange reaction

also neil: i am going to call riko moriyama a whiny little bitch baby with dead daddy issues at a professional banquet in front of god and all our teammates and then later in the parking lot i’m gonna deck him in the fucking face

but still also neil: i’m going to (entirely unbeknownst to me) quietly endear myself to this entire team, fitting myself into their hearts and sacrifice everything to keep them safe

[schnuspi]

Waking up to aftg trending makes you start the day with a heart attack

[whomst-the-hell]

aftg stuff we as a fandom do not talk about or appreciate enough:

neil punching the shit out of riko and wymack having to drag him off

neil repeatedly wanting to hit someone but not allowing himself because he was trying to stay low profile

neil getting back from evermore, realising riko tattooed him, and immediately attempting to carve the tattoo off his face with a knife

neil fantasising about stomping andrews face in at columbia

neil being experienced with guns

neil specifically liking exy because its aggressive and violent

neil grabbing the racket at thanksgiving with the intention of using it as a weapon, then asking for it back after

" "Need anything else?" "A clear shot at Riko and no witnesses," Neil said. Matt grinned like he thought Neil was joking and left. "

[grumpysarahbear]

I know we talk about this one but I just want to add: Neil casually eating lunch while asking nonchalantly, in public, if his uncle has any local hitmen, then going back to the conversation like nothing happened. I love seeing through Jean’s eyes because it’s so easy for Neil to just gloss over his violent tendencies, which in turn makes it easy for the reader to also gloss over. But when it’s Jean seeing Neil, he really thinks Neil is insane, & I love that lol

[prettyboyneil]

One minute you’re normal the next you have a sport mafia yaoi blog and the worst part is the sport isn’t even real

[jordiipordii]

Seth Gordon might’ve actually beat his fist on the table in support or even better given Neil a fist bump if he had still been alive to hear Neil’s “You know what, I get it…” speech against Riko & I think about that every single day of my life.

[moreauver]

do you think neil, delirious from blood loss, sleep deprivation, and brainwashing, ever saw the three on jeans jersey while in the nest and called out for andrew

[teatimeisat4]

hey so what the fuck

[iwriteonthisone]

Why

[litenmyraienskog]

Did you at least kiss the brick before throwing it

[jordiipordii]

Do you think he also wanted to reach out for that ‘3’ during those awful times but even in his terrible state, he always remembered that Andrew hated to be touched and so he didn’t allow himself to? Do you suppose—-

[starsworth]

jeremy: he was sixteen.

kevin: it's the age of consent in west virginia. without a complaint, there was no crime, and there will never be a complaint.

neil, who got the complaint:

[veerbles]

does adam parrish deduce that ronan is gay before ronan himself does because he's highly observant as a survival mechanism or because he's psychic. does adam parrish sense that someone is following their quest because he's hypervigilant as a survival mechanism or because he's psychic. does adam feel different and alienated from his friends because he's self-reliant as a survival mechanism or because he's psychic. can adam sometimes dissociate and literally detach from reality as a survival mechanism or because he's psychic. does adam have sudden nightmares and fear-induced hallucinations after he stops living with his parents because he has trauma or because he's psychic.

did adam's psychic powers originally manifest as a survival mechanism to keep him alive, or are adam's psychic powers actually a metaphor for the effects of childhood abuse

[literary-claustrophobia]

Young Andrew: Who would I ever be able to trust after this?

Neil "pathological liar" Josten, thousands of miles away, on the run with his mother:

[plainlyshimmeringwolf]

[instigatorjosten]

neil treating that fuckass duffel bag like he’s punch the monkey and thats his stuffie. no shit sherlock everyone clocked you have issues immediately, the act wasn’t acting

[teatimeisat4]

[instigatorjosten]

oh my GOD

[ruggedghost]

I love the Raven Cycle because Gansey really just had a huge special interest and made it EVERYONES problem

[instigatorjosten]

Neil truly was just raw dogging life with 11 outfits and the cardiovascular system of an animal hunted for sport, and you just have GOT to respect him for it

[schnuspi]

Neil Josten when they get him on a talkshow