What Jess Desires

Vancouver | UBC grad | Food enthusiast | Sarcasm is my second language

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Food adventure with my basic bae @ambigiousasian

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*finish your last exam of your undergrad*

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How I felt finishing my last exam of my undergrad

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Apple croissant & a white velvet hot chocolate from Beaucoup bakery. The cafe was full but a nice lady let me sit at her table and best part was that she didn't try to talk to me (awkward person problems)

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Single AF

Steven Avery can get a girlfriend while serving a life sentence in prison but I can't even get a text back from a guy.

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I could use copious shots of tequila and vodka right now. Also considering becoming a nun because boys suck.

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I love brunch- especially when there are waffles involved

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Bought these corgi-penis printed boxers for a friends birthday present.

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I went to Fright Nights and I was not scared at all. I actually laughed at every single haunted house while my friends and other people were screaming their lungs out. I find that things like public speaking, taking the road test or any anxiety inducing activity scares me a thousand times more than these haunted houses do.

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Netflix and chill by myself

I really want to know how “Netflix and chill” became a euphemism for having sex. I guess it has a more casual implication- like the informal nature of a hook up. Perhaps being blunt about wanting sex is not socially accepted so someone came up with an euphemism for it.

I was walking to the bus stop after a night at Copper tank on West Broadway, when a group of guys starts chatting to my friends and I. After we kind of parted ways, one of the guys (who I didn’t talk to), asked if i wanted to Netflix and Chill.

When did it become so easy for men to ask women to Netflix and chill? This guy didn’t even ask me any questions about myself before asking to Netflix and chill. What has dating in today’s age come to????????????

On a side note, why do I always meet the weirdest people? It must be a vibe I’m giving off because my friends have commented on this phenomena numerous times.

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Inadequacy

One thing I really despise about my upbringing is how I was made to feel inadequate because I still struggle with this notion of not being good enough. I often have thoughts about how I’m not pretty enough, smart enough or outgoing enough.

Growing up, my family rarely told me I was doing a good job; it was always “why don’t you get higher grades” or “why can’t you be skinny like your friends”? It is ridiculous that my mom sometimes feels embarrassed to tell my aunts and uncles that I study psychology at UBC because they always ask the same thing, “what are you going to do with a psychology degree?”. 

It’s a constant struggle for me to remind myself that I am good enough. The problem is when people start comparing you to other people, but it’s much worst when you start comparing yourself to others. 

The plus side to all of this is that it pushes me to work harder, so I can prove to my family that I can do so much with my life beyond my looks.

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Pumpkin beer, pulled pork poutine and pho nachos to start of the weekend. I finally tried the pho nachos at Koerner’s pub at UBC. They lived up to their hype

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I've gone from being asked if I'm a first year to being asked if I'm a second year student. I've aged a year!

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This past summer I've gone on dates with guys way out of my league. I'm talking about above average, attractive men with muscular bodies and six pack abs. Sometimes I feel as though I've overindulged and I feel guilty because as a person who was bullied a lot for being ugly, I told myself that looks shouldn't matter. I guess I'm just trying to prove that just because my body doesn't fit Western and Asian beauty standards doesn't mean I'm not attractive.

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I've been really stressed lately and I've been having troubles sleeping due to this stress. Stressed about school, money, and life in general. My internship ended and I lost my job, so I feel really useless right now. I'm just waiting for school to start again so I have something to do. Why is being an adult so hard?

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Ice-cream social at @beta5chocolates. Milk tea ice-cream + toasted Japanese milk bread with butter and condensed milk, bubble tea pearls, poached peach and condensed milk chantilly. This was heavenly 🙌🏻 (at Beta5 Chocolates)

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Dog Days of Summer

Summer 2015 has been so good, it's sad to think that in a few weeks I'll be entering my last year of UBC. I'm still having Squamish Valley music festival withdrawals but I'm also so grateful I was able to go this year. Today marked the last day of my summer internship and I'm sad it was so short but I'll be returning in September as a volunteer and continue my assignments. My birthday is coming up next week and I plan on celebrating all week. My dad surprised me with a two day trip to Tofino and I'm excited to be able to try Kuma (basho's sister restaurant)! Plans for the rest of my summer include pushing myself harder in terms of my workout and to take more pictures so I can make a scrapbook.

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I’m at a point where I’ve just giving up trying to reach out to people from high school because I’m really just wasting my time and effort. 

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s not to waste your time on people who don’t make time for you.