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im chi and im 20 years old, this is a vent blog for me to feel comfort when I want and to let out my thoughts or feelings

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Credits for dni banner: @star-struck-wonderland

"I'm tired of my thoughts, they weigh me down feels like I'm drowning"

Hi everyone welcome to my cozy corner blog, you can call me cherry blossom, I am using this as a vent/diary blog which is seperate from my main, just like my other art/reblog ones, but here it will just be my thoughts, feelings etc, way more than on my main blog

Enjoy your time and my inbox is always open, be respectful please :3

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*Sighs* ive calmed down from crying, once I start its hard to stop, cause thats me , anyways should not have said that Im so stupid, hes an important friend and part of my family he means a lot to me, one of the most important people, I still hope he dosent die and stays safe, I shouldent have gotten so mad, I really have to think before I speak if Im upset

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even though I said sorry I still feel like a peice of shit friend, I shouldent have gotten so mad, I was very worried but there was a better way to say that, I dident think before I spoke, I was too upset and barely ever happens to me, *sighs* learn to think first

My head hurts

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The only thing that sucks about having so many moots is even though I do so much and I check on people, it never feels like I’m doing enough, because I have so many when I’m comforting someone it feels like there is always some people I can’t reach or help and that hurts sometimes :<

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*Sighs* I hate when I get like this, i hate that im super sensitive, I hate negative thinking and I hate mood swings, I really need to take my pills when I get back home :<

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i need to stop blaming myself for things, i just keep stressing myself out, I feel like throwing up 😭

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I’m sorry, stupid anon!!!!!!! I’m sorry, please don’t die on me, *crying*

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I’m not doing enough, I need to help others more, be there for others more, I’m not enough, I’ll never be enough, I’m sorry I’ll do more

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Why am I so sad :<

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Theme change :3

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It suits you :3

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If someone is struggling I need to help everytime I’m able too, not just sometimes or if I don’t know what to say to like the post, I need to help always

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I love being on here and I’m never leaving and I know we all have different opinions and we’re all different people and we express emotions differently and that’s perfectly fine but sometimes I want to scream and cry, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO SEND HATE TO OTHERS THOUGH, I don’t care if it’s on anon or not, I get we won’t or don’t all get along, but just be A DECENT HUMAN, I love spreading kindness but everywhere there is just HATE, I love helping others feel better I’m just sick of people getting hate and sending hate and just so much :<

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I feel terrible, this is my fault :<

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My stupid phone died and I didn’t know you were hurting that much at that point earlier, I’m so sorry, please still be alive, please, why wasn’t I there!!, please be alive, *crying*

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I have to keep helping, im just sick of so much, Im so tired

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There’s just those moments where you hate everything for some reason and you feel angry and scared for people you care for on here, that’s how I feel right now

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Just had the best cry ever, I really needed that, I haven’t cried like that in a long while