Ugh

Sometimes I’m sad other times idk wtf I am.

[the-last-lostgirl-blog]

[whothinkdoiam]

“I’m falling back into selfdestructive habits, like never eating, slicing my skin or not staying sober for more than some hours and I know I should care and stop myself but there’s nothing left anymore that doesn’t drag me down and I’m really tired of fighting a battle I don’t even want to win.”

— I give in, I will let it kill me // 22.12.16 - 11:27 (via somnabulxst)

[formless-memories]

I’m still trying to convince myself that im a better person when I’m high, but the truth always finds a way back to me And when the drugs are gone, and the day is done I can still feel the sadness lingering.

I wanted a life of substance but I always get lost in the substances.

Shaking, crying, aching for another line Wanting the rush, the dope, just one more time Dry mouth, pounding heart, weight loss, just losing another part Of my soul Sleepless nights, dizzying heights of high Dangerous decisions, damaged minds.

And coming down feels a lot like when you left Sweating, bawling, temper short Puking, tremors, a sickness I cant thwart Sleeping 20 hours, trying to heal Sometimes i just can’t deal

And I can lie to myself until the very end Until my final moments come and go around the bend But the truth is, I’ll just never make amends.

[cinbuttpie]

Never give the silent treatment to somebody with crippling anxiety.  It is one of the worst things you can do to them emotionally.  They blame themselves for everything, they become worried about you, and it will cause so many problems for the person you are giving it to.  Please, if you are angry with somebody, DO NOT ISOLATE THEM WITHOUT EXPLANATION.  Tell them how you are feeling and talk it out, please.

[melwowz]

[softlysaygoodbye]

[amargedom]

““The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.””

— The Great Gatsby (2013)

[there-will-be-violence-deactiva]

[thebrokengenderqueer]

[siickangel]

[myblissfulsuicide]

[xashtray]

you wanna hurt me? it's okay, it doesn't matter. you wanna use me? it's okay, i feel useful when I'm being used, do it anyway. you can do anything to me, even bad things, as long as you stay here and not leaving me. i can take the pain of you hurting me, but not leaving me. so, do anything you want and stay.

[silent-insanities]

Why must all my loves be lessons?

[undo-my-scars]

Xx

[undo-my-scars]

xx

[black-quadrant]

do you ever feel like everyone is just sick of you

[whothinkdoiam]

Gotta love realizing you have no one to fucking talk to