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en/日本語 🚃🌊 rip hikaru you woulda loved pulling the chad face

[willowiestboy]

Introduction post

hello, diarace/transrace community—my name is hayate. i have known i was transjapanese since i was a child.

my account is safe for all radqueers and all transIDs. i am pro-contact in all situations where informed consent can be given.

i am also a poet and a musician. i will occasionally post content related to these hobbies :)

i have no strict DNI criteria but i block freely.

long fkn yap below the cut if you’re interested in my story.

i engaged with japanese culture a lot as a child, probably starting with my practice of karate. i was always excited by homages paid to its place of origin, such as the japanese words and phrases used by my sensei during class. when i got a bit older, i developed a solid interest in japanese pop culture following my discovery of harajuku fashion, namely of decora kei. by age ten, i had hit the japanese textbooks; i quickly picked up hiragana and built up the capacity for simple sentences. i felt myself drawn to the japanese cultural identity very early on.

i first began to put a name to my transrace identity when the term ‘rcta’ (race change to another) went viral on tiktok; around the summer of 2022. i know, i shivered too LOL rctatok was an experience and a half (PSA PSA PSA i do not identify with that term anymore because the person who coined it had predatory intentions when doing so). the bait account situation wasnt crazy at that point in time so i did get to interact with a lot of very sweet individuals who were experiencing a similar incongruence to me. however, one of the big problems with rctatok was its hyperfocus on aesthetics as opposed to education and community. my identity was basically just… stereotypes that i had discovered through tiktok, and it seemed that way for a lot of other people too in retrospect.

then rctatok became mainstream enough that it was impossible to find content on the tag that wasnt made by antis or was not bait. the community became saturated with people who were there to make degrading comments or just to have a laugh. this was taking a toll on my mental health so i left the community for good. between then and now i have fluctuated between being disgusted by the fact i ever wanted to be japanese and ‘fuck it i guess this is me’.

i came to properly accept the latter mindset when i discovered the tumblr diarace/trace community and, consequently, the transID community. i hold you all very close to my heart because i think i am the happiest i have ever been. after years of unpacking my 13-year-old self’s stereotypical ideas about japan and being japanese, i can confidently say that i am japanese in my own unique way. it makes its way into my mundane day-to-day tasks such as the things i eat for breakfast but also into my ideas about the wider world; i care deeply for japan’s social and cultural issues and also occasionally dabble in its politics. i have come to better understand racism committed against east asian people (especially against women), including its roots and tendency to be swept under the rug, by listening to anecdotes and learning its history.

it’s been a pretty wild ride, but that’s my story. take care of yourselves!

[willowiestboy]

TALK TO YOURSELF!!!! IN YOUR LANGUAGE!!!! I DON’T CARE IF IT’S NONSENSE!!!!!!

^ artistic depiction of me on my walk home today

[willowiestboy]

i got 雨 wrong AGAIN

[permatormentor]

If you're radqueer, yumeshipper, proshipper,otherkin, paraphile and etc, at some point of your life you will just have to accept that some people being dumb isn't your problem.

You can spend hours explaining your identity and what it means to you and how it's not that harmful as they think, but those people won't listen to you.

There's no point in educating antis. They just want to annoy you, to trigger you, to waste your time. You don't owe them a full detailed explanation of every part of your identity just to prove your existence being valid.

Fuck antis. All of them.

[willowiestboy]

TALK TO YOURSELF!!!! IN YOUR LANGUAGE!!!! I DON’T CARE IF IT’S NONSENSE!!!!!!

^ artistic depiction of me on my walk home today

[unspeakableasks]

@godsfavfagot

-ˋˏ ༻𖤓༺ ˎˊ-

[willowiestboy]

psst

in case anyone’s a little sick of seeing their deadname everywhere

[willowiestboy]

i command all transrace people to try out age regression at least once.

slip into a mindset where it’s okay to not have that language fully figured out, where it’s okay to be experiencing things for the first time. you’re a blank canvas, slowly being shaped by your culture like a child would be.

i like to listen to japanese bedtime stories while i regress 🥹

[radically-fischl]

RE: PermaMonika.

To call the current situation in the RQ community 'drama' would be a horrible disservice, but I don't know what else to call it at this point. I suppose all I can really say-- as somebody not close to anybody directly hurt by PermaMonika-- is that CSEM/CSAM is bad, and no, I cannot believe I need to say that. If you spread it around, that is bad. Full stop. On top of that, the current climate is not conducive to a Pro-C stance for MAPs. Yes, I am youthlib, but youthlib INCLUDES comprehensive education on consent and sex, which is something that is sorely lacking at this time, at least where I am (USAmerican). If comprehensive education on sex and consent is not given to a certain group, then that group cannot consent.

I am firmly anti-prison, but that does not mean I am anti-consequences. I believe that PermaMonika should have to face repercussions for his actions, as he has hurt others in ways that they may not be able to recover from.

PermaMonika is a deplorable being. My heart aches for everyone and everything that he has hurt. I will not pretend to know every detail of the situation, but I will continue educating myself to the best of my ability so I may make my blog a proper safe space for everyone.

[Image ID: A purple-indigo ombre rectangle with a star embellished outline in the lower right-hand corner and a star-shaped image of Stolas from Helluva Boss. Text reads; 'This post is by Stolas. He/hy/it. RQ, proship, pro-endo. Treast as source, please!' End ID.]

[queer-as-in-fuck-12]

drug addicts deserve housing, food, water, and healthcare btw

[willowiestboy]

saw this in a discord server i’m in

[willowiestboy]

plain text:

Language is a sandbox filled with

almost equals.

It is an amalgamation of

not-quite-but-almost-theres.

The distinction between joy and bliss

the difference between

the cosmic microwave background here and

the cosmic microwave background there.

Fuzzy static

To the untrained eye.

I raise my palms to the

black night and

surrender myself

to the constant Flux.

The makings of a

Prismatic Universe.

/end of plain text

[sideblogqueer]

important PSA to the RQC:

there’s going to be another video on the radqueer community like there was last year (same creator too), i just now saw the post on her channel about it. and i’m worried it’ll lead to a bunch of mass reporting like what happened before. just wanted to warn you guys about that, make sure to make backups of stuff that you really don’t want to lose if your account gets termed, like layouts and important posts and other such things.

[nekochuuya]

When your shit stops reaching radqblr and antis start to interact regardless of your dni:

"99+" pass me the goddamn gun already

[willowiestboy]

please help mootie cootie return to radqueer tumblr thanks.

[mdlouvre]

pro lying about ids because it dont fucking matter we are on a big rock

[willowiestboy]

life gets so much better when you realise no one is entitled to your lore and you can just… behave as though your transIDs are cisIDs. no one gets hurt n it feels great lol

[willowiestboy]

peripheral

stems bubble through the fissures

with little decorum

like blisters

thick roots grasp furiously

at the exposed edge—

their lignified bodies poised

they cannot be more

than peripheral

and yet

there is no sign of cessation; only persistence

the festering rot of an age-old grudge

decomposes it all ravenously