Dec 3, 2025
some photos from gmod
#gmod#im too scared (???) to make a post but i still want to talk about this somewhere#my older brother took his own life a week ago#i loved him so much and still do#he was the most important person to me#he was my role model and he always looked after me#Without his help I would probably stop drawing#he was an artist too he could play gitar write songs and paint#now Im the only artist in the family i feel so lonely#He never did me any harm#he taught me how to be a good person and how to take care of myself#he showed me valve games we loved to play portal together#we also loved listening to music together now i have the same music taste as him#i could literally write books about him and what we did together#but im bad at writing so probably not gonna happen#i draw a lot of vent art but im scared to post them i only keep them to myself or show to my friends#sorry if my english is weird im so scared and stressed#This is my first time grieving in my life#i feel all the emotions at once#i love you all#i really dont want to be here without him
