I woke up in a dream. Our legs were tangled together in the sheets, and I was wearing your old shirt you only wore during laundry day. You said it didn't fit me, I laughed and said it didn't need to.
The curtains are barely shut, and the sun is in our eyes. I couldn't open them, too scared to wake up. Then your hands pushed back my hair and wiped the morning dew stuck in my lashes. The heat in your touch alone is warmer than the morning sun.
My eyes meet yours, and you have a smile on your face. If it were any other day, I'd wipe it off. But I feel light, and my mouth is more teeth than lips. I'm holding you in my arms, and I've never felt so full. My cheeks are numb, and so are my limbs. My feet are starting to feel more static and I pray that you won't feel like that, too. I move my hands up to your face, arms moving from the mold we put ourselves in and I can feel the fine lines near the corners of your mouth.
Your eyes are squinting with your smile and the crow's feet that forms is just as beautiful. I feel your earlobes, the dip of skin and soft muscle. My fingers travel to your hair, the slight curls and it's dark color, and I remember the days you'd complain about brushing it every day. And when did you look older? It feels like just yesterday we were in separate sleeping bags and staring at the window searching for stars.
I tell you this, and you laugh. You tell me that time flies when you're in love, and I agree, because time has always flown so quickly when I'm with you. I knew the moment we'd met, we'd spend so much time together. And I have loved every single moment, no matter how fast or slow it was.
I tell you we're going to be late, and you tell me that it's going to be alright. You get closer to me, further shaping two bodies into one. And in my ear, with one hand still cradling your cheek and the other running through your hair, you told me it was more time spent in my arms, and that any moment with me was worth it. It's funny, you have a job to be at, and yet you'd sacrifice your labour to the world for me.
I kiss your forehead, and the greying hairs, and then I kiss your eyes, and then your nose, cheeks ā and finally, your lips.
Did I tell you it felt so natural? Like it was just drinking water to live, or to eat food so you don't starve. At that moment it felt like your lips alone could satiate any thirst and quell any hunger. I have never worshipped a God, but I think it's okay to pray for you to stay by my side forever.
And when you tell me that you love me, I had no qualms about saying it back; no hesitation, fully, wholeheartedly, like it was the easiest and most simple fact in life. I love you, and you love me.
But that's always the thing about dreams, you wake up.
And when I did, I remembered that we didn't grow up together. I'll never get to see the wrinkles form on your face, slowly, every day. I won't get to count every fold in your fingers and strand of hair on your head. It felt like I was drowning in cold water.
And for once, since my dad broke his promise, I cried over a boy.
I don't believe in God, I haven't for a long time, but for once, I believed in a man. And somehow that is worse than divine punishment.
(Jon or Dami pov idk you pick whatever, it can be other fandoms either. I passed out halfway through writing this. I'm sorry. I just got broken up with and am not taking it well.)
Every ask you've every sent me so far has always left me in tears. I read them and I'm overwhelmed with all the emotions you put into these words and I just cry. And not because it's sad or happy but because I feel can feel it you know?
It's like you've put someone else thoughts and emotions into my head and now I can feel what they feel and god that can be so hard to do and you do it so incredibly well.
Please don't ever stop, weather you plan to post your work anyway or not it doesn't matter. Never stop.
(and I'm so sorry you're going throw pain right, it's an awful feeling I know and all I can really say is that everything will be okay. Not right now and it's going to hurt getting and I'm sure you know that but it never hurts to be reminded that everythings going to be okay š¤)
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