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Hello I hope everything is going well for you! if it is ok may I ask for a medieval styled unicorn moodboard in the sun ray template and with themes deep forests and abandoned churches? I am a nature guardian if that helps at all

here ya go!! first one done after my break :3

wizardsfang

absolutely perfect, nailed it completely

snakeseater

I started reading again and so far it's going very well. I know for a lot of people who deal with psychotic disorders reading is extremely difficult, but it can be done. It just takes some time and practice. I hope everyone who wants to can get back to reading again.

#I didn’t know this was a “thing” for psychotic disorders I just thought I specifically was shit at reading & was probably psychotic #the more yknow ig

wizardsfang

Niche Kin Appreciation Challenge

A 30 prompt challenge by @Wizardsfang

Anyone with any kind of type or kin can use this! HOWEVER!! This is especially geared at the appreciation of nicher & lesser acknowledged creatures!

From big to small, nonfiction to high fantasy, this challenge was designed to help give a few small fun things for folk to do to help fill the gaps in content for the things attached to their identity

I encourage folk to use #Niche Kin Appreciation or #Kin Appreciation along with other relevant alterhuman tags to help showcase what they create :]!!

< Text Only Version Here >

< Kin Drawing Challenge Here > (coming soon)

wizardsfang

I need to do this again for myself

I also need to actually produce the drawing challenge (oops)

being polykin just makes it hard to choose what to do ig

Every time pride month starts now im sort of just thinking abt how my mom died at the start of my birth month instead of pride

generally once her death anniversary date passes its fine, im able to say happy pride & mean it sincerely

but I think I’m cursed to sit here knowing momma didn’t know she had a son daughter lizard wombo combo thing; I like to think she knows now & ik she’d of loved me regardless. But it sucks being queer & growing queer-er just to remember your original support system died

but idk ig it’s sort of hard to be happy about pride until these next few days pass; not because pride isn’t glorious- but because I’m never going to get to have a pride party with my cool mom as her cool weird pan Therian kid

And idk ig it’s sort of on brand with pride; but ig more importantly that even if it isn’t- I want ppl to know this exists as an experience

coyotecrash

I have 3 currently set up aquariums and 1 in storage. I need to be stopped lowkey

coyotecrash

20 gallon community

6.5 gallon <- Sriracha's house

3 gal with shrimps

And a 10 gal in storage. Um not sure what I'd want to stock the 10 with.

wizardsfang

I envy you

#I want to set up a shrimp tank/underwater garden for my bedroom but I lack the start up funds atm #Got the tank at least; that’s one of the more expensive things #Need to get a test kit & some starting plants #What sort of shrimps do you got?#I’ll probably get neocaradina unless I get a big job #I love Caradina but their sensitivity scares me & my shitty tap water

khonsu-silver-fox666

I did a art study on a fox

It started out so well on the face then... Quickly went bad

Fox it's based off under cut

#As a fox I personally enjoy this more than a lot of fox art i see #You’ve captured a pudgy deviousness that often lacks from fox art that i desire #ty op #fox therian #fox kin

sometimes I think abt how the furry community had that one reveal of there being an underground zoosadist sex ring that was deeply imbedded in the fandom & I think about how it changed the directory of the fandom’s response & perception to things like sheaths & sfw depiction or discussion of animal genitalia

and like- tbh I cant even really “blame” the community response because the Zoosadist sex ring was comically evil and bad & was sharing n producing nsfw abuse content of animals n animal corpses & in the years sense there’s been a huge “zoophile uprising” of specifically people who want to engage with and produce that same abuse material; like the mere existence of hypnotistsappho & the grooming ring she created/ran for a bit is just one peak of an ongoing problem in the community & its “hidden” community of abusers

I think it’s all set back the progression & understanding of sexual disorders & paraphilias in general for at least another decade in the furry fandom n its really unfortunate

cause I look to the therian community & im like fairly certain I could draw myself with a sheath & few people would question if im a sex crazed asshole who abuses dogs-

but in the furry community it became an actual unironic calling card for people exactly like that for at least a year or smth

it’s crazy out here

#Don’t get me wrong I love the furry community: it’s very centralized to me as a person #And it’s something that I’m very autistic about #Im just sort of constantly pondering if I can ever wombo combo my full therian identity with my furry one #Cause I think furries would genuinely snipe me down for drawing sfw sheaths in the current social climate #Furry rambling

I think I worry that ppl in this community hate me too often; it’s not an uncommon symptom of my paranoia problems but it rarely seeps into my community engagements

im not sure why this specific fear has been so present lately; but I worry I am despised & that’s why I lack community here & it’s sort of really irritating to dwell on

Like brain, please, I am okay- it is fine even if people hate me but be so fr rn you are at worst very annoying & unintentionally inconsiderate ; lock in on engagement to make friends brain

#wizards rambling

things id like to write about sometime:

The dehumanization & depersonalization of fatness, ugliness, and how it makes a girl into an animal

How a connection to my home state influences my alterhumanity at a core level

The unspoken Monster Prince Kintype & what it means

Refined ramble about Whiteness & Alterhumanity; a discussion about the concept of intersectionality and how this community has made me better by exposing me to my problems & internalized hate

Discussing abstract forms of self harm brought on by the dehumanization of growing up as a fat autistic girl

The “first” kintype: a message from a robot who was built to have a heart

like at least 10 different things about being polytherian ranging from an in-depth personal essay describing my experience in youth all the way to my experience now

Maladaptive Daydreaming & Me: my personal “cure all” for alterhuman stress

exploration of having an archetype

some discussion about how and why so many blurred lines exist for me between Theriotypes, Kintypes, Linktypes, and HeartTypea + why I don’t bother differentiating much

a long rant about my silly specific problem of being someone who’s a weak reader due to eyesight issues & mental stuff while simultaneously being in a community who’s history is built heavily (near exclusively) in text formats

Fatphobia in the community

fatphobia in the community again because wtf is wrong with ppl, seriously, wtf

discussing future concepts for fat liberation efforts in the community

at some point probably a basic resource collection + autistically described guide for white therians & how to be better allies in the community

the joy of being fat and an animal

intersectionality of sex, kink, and being alterhuman

infodump about various kintypes & info behind or adjacent to them; specifically been thinking about an info dump about Bolaji Badejo because idk if everyone knows the first xenomorph actor, a cult classic icon, was a black, Nigerian, man who had an interest in art & that bothers me

the weirdly in depth brain/“source” lore that exists for a specific dragon kintype because wtf

early signs of Alterhumanity in my life

rambling abt the psychological nature of a lot of my alterhumanity

^ follow up to that specifically: the weird spiritual nature of only some of my kintypes

who I appreciate in the community & why I find value in their efforts or work here

#Wizards Rambling #Return to later

I find myself wanting to write & yap here a lot again, but I find myself nervous to share here because I don’t feel like I have much to add that’s valuable

Ik that on its own is sort of silly, it goes against my own beliefs on an individual’s value to begin with; I think lived experiences and thoughts are important things to read about and share even if they’re “boring” or poorly crafted n put together. Because at a minimum they are additional reflections and insight to seeing into someone, someone who was real and alive and present at a time

but when I find myself gearing up to write- whether it’s info dumping abt Xenomorphs or writing about being polykin or yapping over my day to day life- I find myself hitting a bizarre roadblock

even now I’m sitting and pondering if there’s a point in me writing this, because I’m deeply aware I won’t know how to tag it meaningfully and im deeply aware that many won’t be interested in reading it & by extention just won’t read it

im equally as aware that I do not need to post for engagement of course, I do enjoy yapping on my own at times; but sharing like this is… tiring?? (I guess that’s the best word for it)

its not tiring in the sense that it’s bad of course, if it were I wouldn’t want to do it

but it’s tiring in the sense that I’m aware that I don’t have a lot of energy, I suffer from some mental illness concoction that makes me as good as a rag worn down to thread & it sucks. Im drowsy and beat near constantly and I just don’t have a lot in me to survive let alone yap and drone on late into the night to toss my thought pieces and feelings and experiences into tumblr- especially not if it doesn’t even offer the grace of someone responding in irritation or familiarity

I find myself hitting a roadblock I used to hit a lot as a teen

the good ol “why say anything at all if it’s not going to change a thing? If no one’s going to help?”

as an adult I know I can & ought to do things just for the sake of doing them, but I suppose that gets a bit harder when the efforts I make are geared towards community & there’s just not really a community there for me to connect or bond with. or I guess in other words: it’s sort of lonely out here, so I don’t know if there’s a point in posting cause I think I’ll feel lonely and disjointed all together

obviously that’s a me-problem; I could most certainly be putting in more effort and research and time into things like presentation and tags and communicating with others- I could be reaching out more; couldnt I? even with all the mental funk? maybe I couldn’t; but either way I go, no one else will or can do it for me, so I’m sort of just at this bizarre and lonely stand still with myself

A standstill where im debating on if I go ahead & write an info dump or essay & spend the energy on that instead of other means of survival; it’s an interesting stand still

And its one I’m not sure i understand yet

#incoherent ramblings #wizard rambling

gone-fish-mode

sitting in some shallow water and thinking about my own perception of who is "in" the community and who isn't. what is the difference between the folks who I perceive to be in my immediate circle vs. who I consider to be in the wider community.

not in a validity way, but very much in a "whose advice am I willing to take/whose criticism do I not care about" way. whose words will ever be applicable to myself. what traits do I admire in someone and which ones make me brush someone off.

no conclusions I am comfortable sharing, but I do think it's good to do. I think everyone should really analyze who they look to + interact with and why. It's good for the gut.

#Smth for me to ponder; there’s a few blogs who come to mind on who I hold in higher regard #i think I need to become more ‘in’ the community for myself #though if im being sincere; I’m not entirely sure how to atp #SRRY for the notif spam btw gillman; I simply scroll down your blog after ive not looked around in feed for awhile #your blog is a fun little curated pond i like to dip into when I want to relax

gone-fish-mode

the tags have felt different these past few months.

talon-dragonbeast

could you elaborate? (/nf) i think ive noticed something similar, but im interested in hearing your thoughts :>

gone-fish-mode

more crossposting, less and less relevant to the topic. nothing feels substantial. perhaps i've just been in the tags so often for the past 3 years that it all feels the same now but also.... I could scroll for a bit and find something interesting. But for the past few months it's just very shallow. not to drag the folks posting in it now, but i will not lie. it feels flimsy.

this is also the time of year that content in the tags drops, when everyone goes outside and is busy with life. but it's been happening before the warm months imo.

wizardsfang

tbh it’s a part of something that’s deeply demotivated me from making meaningful content

#I don’t think I’ve always been very good at tagging; I think sometimes I tagged too liberally or not at all #but I’ve been deeply unmotivated to share content here in part due to the lack of ease or purpose under tags #that and an absurd amount of life shit

otherconvention

New Website + Forms Open

The full news post can be found here:

But to summarize: The new website is up! Artist, panelist, and staff applications are open right now and can be found here. Those forms auto-close on June 30th at 11:59pm (US East). This year's mascot vote is also open, and can be found on the same page. The mascot vote only lasts a week, so get your votes in! The email newsletter is also being retired in favor of RSS, with more details available on the news page.

wizardsfang

Niche Kin Appreciation Challenge

A 30 prompt challenge by @Wizardsfang

Anyone with any kind of type or kin can use this! HOWEVER!! This is especially geared at the appreciation of nicher & lesser acknowledged creatures!

From big to small, nonfiction to high fantasy, this challenge was designed to help give a few small fun things for folk to do to help fill the gaps in content for the things attached to their identity

I encourage folk to use #Niche Kin Appreciation or #Kin Appreciation along with other relevant alterhuman tags to help showcase what they create :]!!

< Text Only Version Here >

< Kin Drawing Challenge Here > (coming soon)

degradingdata

Is this challenge still open to do?

Can I complete it with a 'type that is somewhere between a linktype and a kintype?

wizardsfang

Its forever open to do!

absolutely, in this challenge “kin” is being used very liberally- share whatever you want about your alterhuman experience w/ this! As long as you’re having fun

sabertoothwalrus

I hate the videoification of everything. If I have to hear one more video of someone speaking closely into their shitty mic and I have to have all their yucky wet mouth noises and plosives and nose whistles and throat clearings and sniffles I am going to dig a vertical hole the exact dimensions of my body and I’m going to slither in head first

wizardsfang

im on the opposite end of the spectrum & I love the videoification of things because I enjoy getting to listen to others talk & I work better through visual learning and I have so much fun hearing the natural imperfection of a lot of recordings (even if they sometimes annoy me) cause I enjoy the feeling of company it gives- I also just think videos are fun to watch & I’ve always been a very visuals-guy

#Obviously OP is valid & I love OP’s hate but I want to be annoying & express my love

as someone who deeply & unironically loves clowns and has loved the concept around clowns for a very long time- I have an interesting love/hate relationship with the modern artist’s fascination with clowns

ppl often perceive the art form as something attuned to “being a silly little guy” with a very specific aesthetic attached; or just sort of vaguely mesh it up with the concept of being a jester (and to be fair it is very similar/shares some history with jesters- but id make a good faith argument that the two are different enough to be considered their own art forms)

but in the US (at least) a lot of artists pull inspiration and reference from specifically the circus clown era & perceive every clown from that time as a goofy n funny n whimsical comedy act instead of a general entertainment or art form

and because of that- there’s a HUGE lack of acknowledgment around the overall history or culture of clowns & and even bigger lack of acknowledgment for the very racist history of circuses & “circus clowns” specifically. don’t get me wrong, I enjoy silly goofy fun clowns too & a large portion of why I’d like to become a clown/learn that form of entertainment is because I have a deep love for prop humor, costume, and making people laugh over sincere absurdity- but like-

im also wanting to do all of that while understanding the deeper & more complicated history of clowns; the cultism behind them is being forgotten and I find it deeply disturbing & deeply saddening. Ppl aren’t even learning or comprehending clownin around as an art form anymore, it’s a tragedy! Clown college truly is a joke cause ppl, artists, in the modern era- don’t seem to understand that its a sincere thing you need to train and be skilled at to do

#Irrelevant ranting #Clown talk #clown #Don’t get me started on clown horror rn

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