Ive always wanted a community to grow in. A collection of artists or creatively minded people who you could come and chat with, learn with, grow or bitch with. I grew up in a big family so the framework of being able to come in and talk to someone, anyone, at any time really just stayed as part of a deep desire of mine. I tried looking for it over the years; I went to DeviantArt and uploaded when i was a baby artist, commenting on others work and hoping to make friends that way. It moved all over the internet, joined discords, ect. I have come away empty.
Its not for lack of want; I want it so bad it hurts. The groups ive mingled in however have had their social pitfalls that fell in head first on more than one occasion. DA had a person i cared and this person completely skewed lines of friendship that made me feel like i was going insane. I became something i wasn't with this person, and I eventually had to make the choice to step away. Others i met and it felt like id know them all my life, only for those connections to fall to the wayside, mostly due to my depression and inability to communicate.
I want to be more, but i feel both like an atom bom and a sneeze at the same time. Too much, not enough. Too much, not enough.
it makes me feel so tired.
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