Three years. Three years since I walked across that stage. Three years since I graduated high school. Three years since I accomplished anything.
Everyone else is moving forward with their lives. Getting degrees in their field, going to law school, going to med school, getting actual adult jobs. Yet here I am. Doing nothing. Still struggling through school. With only a LIBERAL ARTS DEGREE to show for it.
I feel like everyone else has done or is beginning to do great things with their lives. My boyfriend thinks he’s got nothing going for him, but I’m reality I’m the one with nothing to go for. He’s in the national guard. He has people depending on him. He went to DC for a COVID mission when the pandemic began and he’s preparing to deploy next year and maybe go on a mission or two between then.
And I’m just here. Doing my best to stay on top of homework and house work. Working a retail job (that I love!) but that won’t really get me anywhere.
The worst part about it all is that the degree I’m working towards is one that I’m really passionate about. I want to be doing this for the rest of my life. But it feels as thought it’s always JUST out of reach.
Is my whole life going to pass by before I start doing what I love?
I can’t even manage to make a few friends at college. How am I going to manage a “real” career? Should I even keep going? Should I just give up now?
What will become of me?
